For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 92

It's 8 o'clock past night I'm still at Livia's house. It was a little hard to calm down Kylie who was crying.

My schedule is a mess.

Many times I get a call from a working partner in Java who asks me where I am. Not to mention tomorrow I have to meet with the Chief there.

and the other one.

There have been messages for a few days that terrorize me to be careful of who I know, the number I don't know.

It also seems that I have no enemies. that makes the Police Chief ask me where I am and ask him to meet immediately.

I took a glass, intending to drink. I realized that I had not eaten since noon.I even forgot to take my medicine.

I called Mira, asking her to buy something.I'm afraid also she and Mbak Surti have not eaten. I bought it for Livia.

I walked through his room, because it was open a little. I ventured to look him in.

" Livia?" I said slowly. He looked, looking at me. I swallowed my saliva.

" Feed yuk first?" take me.

" you don't want us to have our last dinner together as husband and wife?" I said while enduring the pain in my heart.

He just kept quiet.

" I know, I don't deserve you and can't stand by you. I'm sorry, but I really love you Livia?"

" I have no intention of deliberately taking revenge on you, on everything that went before. I've been spared!?"

" For me you're still Livia, like when we first met because of Aldes?" I said hold Haru.

" I'm not Gombal, and I'm trying to seduce you, Livia.?" I said while pretending to laugh a little.

" I love you and Kylie. Even though you're probably gonna live a little more comfortably away from me later?" I said a little shaky, my eyes a little watery.

" I'm sorry, tonight I have to go back to Java. You may or may not, I'll take Kylie away.!"

" For your good right now, and I promise to give her to you when she recovers?" say

" Livia... I. If I, I don't want to divorce you?" I said haru with eyes that were like tears.

I poked her. My heart hurts so much. Hunt me wipe with my fingers.

I took a long breath. Then get out of his room.

***

I'm back crying, my heart hurts back. Especially after hearing that.

There's a mixed feeling in my chest. Hate, anger, resentment, pity, affection and erratic love. All the feelings in my chest go up and down her levels.

I asked myself many times how I felt about Sakha? Do I love her too much.

Is what I told him really the thing I wanted. divorced him?

honestly I don't let it go away from me. I hate it if he's with other people. I need him as my man, I need him as a complement to my life, I want to need him as someone who values me fully.

But I hate his lack.

I know, he cried when he said he didn't want to divorce me.

I know, his feelings are broken too.

***

" A.. So come home tonight?" asked Mira. I nodded.

" at midnight, Mira, if it doesn't end at dawn.?" I said.

" Later if your Cece ngadat again, kyle. you Aa stay first huh?" I said.

" The problem is that Surti does not want to be in Jakarta, he said?"

" Mira just a small nod.?"

" Your school problem, Aa taking care of it?" I said as I fed the fried rice.

" Cici want her fried rice?" said Mira suddenly While gazing at someone from behind my body. I looked, it was Livia.

He pulled the chair next to me, one difference.

Mira then hurriedly took his plate.

" Don't you bother Mira?" said slowly.

I'm trying to relax and keep finishing my fried rice. After I drank, I stood up and left his Tampa word.

It turns out that his hiding in the room will be defeated with hunger, I thought with a slight smile in my heart.

I heard her conversation with Mira faintly.

**

" Would you like to go home tonight?" he said as he stood by the door of this living room. I looked at him while letting out the Vape smoke I was sucking.

" Yes, I replied slowly.

" We're not done talking!?" Said.

" Have Livia been, I'm having a stormy storm again?" I said reluctantly, as I moved my hand like I didn't want to.

" I'm following your mah, what is it.?" I said.

" i don't want to run out of time here.many things I have to do?" I said.

" You don't take my car!" he said that it felt like cutting my pulse.

" Oh, is that okay. Can I take the train?" I said pissed.

" Otherwise?" I said trying to be patient.I stood up while taking my phone, to check the train departure schedule.

" Where are you going?" she said coldly.I looked at her annoyed.

" I want to be ready? is this her schedule at 1pm?" I said while pretending to show it.

Why didn't I just say it. I felt played.

I hurried to put on my jacket and then took the bag that was already in the car.

" Sakha, where are you going!?" ask her.

" I'm the way home now, I've got nowhere to go?" I said in a forced smile back.

" Saka!! I'm not done with you!?" he said, a little screaming.

" Other than now!" I said a little loudly.

" Otherwise, what else do you want from me?!" I said Upset with a slightly stifled voice.

" I'm sick Sakha because of you?!" he said while crying.

" I also hurt Livi You treat her like this!!"

" You should have said that I should leave by now.not midnight like this?" I said a little loudly.

" I can't order an impromptu train, you know what time the train is coming? at 7 am tomorrow. You make me waste time here!?" I said pissed.

" Wouldn't want me to have to take the bus, because tomorrow afternoon I want to work right.!" I said.

" Don't be busy with you, you're most interested in your Sugar Baby over there.?" said ketus.

" Yes!!" I said loudly

" What do you want to say, whatever?!" I said.

" Sakha, where are you going?" he said he sounded whining while crying. I'm not flinching.

" Sakha, you're not done with me. I'm not satisfied with you?!" he said while following my steps.

" Sakha... You haven't I'm sorryin. You can't go home yet?" said.

" Sakhaaa.." she said while crying.

I stopped, Then I looked at her. He directly hit his body. Livia cried, hugging me Erat.

Damn it!! moreover this? my thinking.

There was a comfortable feeling arriving there in my chest, like a key that found its padlock. Fitting and precise.

" I'm not done with you, you can't go!" said. I tried to push his body.

" Livia, mylast?" I said slowly.

" No!! you can't go. You haven't I'm sorry!?" said.

" Livia, don't you think I'm ashamed of Mira?" I said.

I tried so many times to let go of his embrace.

but her crying was getting tighter. Her tears felt warm in my chest.

I weakened and began to hug her Erat. very tightly, Livia clenched me more strongly. I kissed her head hair.he further buried her face in my chest.

I don't know what he's thinking now? I don't know, and I'm just following the plot.

After a while I hugged her. I Takes a seat on the sofa. She still hugs me and her crying starts to subside.

" Livia, should I go home?" I said, but he moved his body as if forbidding.

" can't do this, dong Livia. I have an appointment and a job there. Would you mind me a little?" I said, but he was quiet.

I took a deep breath, as we both fell silent, I stared at the clock on the wall.

a few times I yawned it felt like I wanted to sleep.

" Sleep yuk?" I said, taking her to the room.

he still hugged me.

" are you still angry with me?" ask me while holding a smile. Livia was silent.

" if you're still angry let me sleep outside!" say I

" If you sleep outside I'm getting angry." Said slowly.

Thank God, this good omen I thought with a slight smile.

we both looked at each other, his swollen eyes still showing tears I wiped them with my fingers kissing his forehead slowly.

" I'm sorry, Livi, because of me you cried a lot from yesterday" I said slowly

" you shouldn't give me anything special, so I don't expect you.?"

" I'm hurt as much as you are Kha, I'm angry and hate you too.!"

" But it'll be even more hurt if we don't get better?" he said as he buried his face back in my chest.

I took a long breath.

sometimes women don't need to be understood they just need to be loved.

I stroked her hair with shahdu and all my affection towards her.

In my mind, I tried flashbacks when I first met him.

when I feel love for him and when I really want him, everything is in him and I am ready to bear the risk at that time.

I love and love you Livia, complete package.

this feeling also I have for others, selfish is me. But the feeling of love and affection for Estu and Ayu is just as great but the fragrance is different.

" His wound hurt?" tanyanya while rubbing my forehead

" It doesn't hurt, it's just pain. It hurts here??" I said while pointing at my chest.

" I'm sick too?" said slowly.