For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 48's
Estu seemed to hold her two children, she was crying so much so.
Maybe in his mind, do not want to be far with his son. both Danesh and Arcelio.
The child looks sad to see his mother cry.
I just kept quiet.
Is this what is called, Children are the victims if both parents divorce.
It could be that we as his parents also sacrificed, losing the child he loved that should be able to take care of and grow with us.
Not only children who are separated from parents, we parents also feel unwilling to be separated from their children.
Already, the day after tomorrow I still go back to Java??" I said to Estu.
" Want you permission or I won't take Lio. I appreciate your wish??"
" I understand the feeling of you suddenly having to part with Lio. But please, I am also their parent who has the right to take care of her??" I said.
"Yeah, Hello?? I said I answered the phone from Ayu.
" I'm sorry Ay, now I'm busy. Any business that needs to be seriously discussed with someone??"
" Will I call again, will I??" quickly answer.
I stared at the clock on the wall that showed at 9 p.m.
then I say goodbye to Estu, to return to the rented house of the Azis.
Suddenly my phone rang back, this time from my sister-in-law's phone number. Atmajan.
What the hell do you think I am??
" Ana Assalamualaikum Ja, aya naon call peuting wayah kieu??" I said ask him.
#(assalamualaikum Ja, what's the matter call night at this hour )
" Kumaha... Innalilahi wa Inna ilaihi Raji'un??"
I said surprised to hear him tell me the news of my Ambu's death.
I paused for a moment, then didn't realize I was crying as much as I could.
Then Estu grabbed the phone that was in my hand, asking Atmaja what was wrong.
I was still crying when Estu hugged me.
I still kept crying, remembering my meeting with her yesterday.Haru cried once again, for losing a mother.
even though Ambu is just a connecting mother to me
Estu seemed to be trying to calm down while rubbing my shoulders.
I was ordered for you to say Istighfar many times.
I looked at her with tears in my eyes.I hugged her my mind was empty not knowing to do what I remembered only my Ambu face.
Maybe after 20 minutes of my Satisfied wailing and crying, I stood up and hurried about to leave Estu's house.
I'm staring.
" I want to go back to my village first, will we finish this??" I said as I prepared to step away from him.
" Sakha, where are you going??" he asked me. I looked a little surprised at him.
" I want to get ready to go back to the village tonight??" said answer.
" Riding What??" ask again.
" I want to ask Azis Carikan for a car rental, I want to go home with her tonight??" I said.
" Just use your car first??" he said unexpectedly, I looked at him seriously.
" i'm coming with you??" he said then that surprised me.
" no need Estu, just send a prayer for Ambu?"
" I don't want you to increase the hassle. come with me all the way back to the village Moreover you have to work tomorrow??"
" That's none of my business. I want a job or I can't handle it.!"
" What right do you forbid me to be impious to your mother. I'm still human even though I'm just his ex-daughter-in-law??" he said it sounded firm.
I just kept quiet and then he told me to help him get our two kids' clothes done.
after driving me to Azis's contract first and then to get a little bit of my clothes.
I, Estu, and my son go home to Purwakarta.
***
We arrived at the village at about three in the morning.
I was greeted with tears by my relatives in the village. My sister's broken cry made me shed tears again.
But I have to be strong in front of them. I don't want to cry like I did at home.
I approached Ambu's body which had been stretched stiff. I kissed her cold cheeks and forehead.
Many times I held back my tears that were about to fall.
I can't say any more words. My mouth is twisted and stiff.
I didn't pay attention to who came and shook my hand.
***
I saw that his tired-looking body had to stay strong.
His lips that look dry, must still be able to smile to everyone who comes to worship this house.
the look in his eyes was empty, from last night he looked tired.he did not cry or talk to anyone.Just pray next to the body of his late wife
Sakha seemed to be at the very front carrying her coffin, her Ambu.
Many times she held back tears.wiping her tears that were about to fall.
He amplified his Voice when reading " laa ilaaha illallah” While lifting the coffin, to his Ambu final resting place.
I held Lio, while her sister held Danesh. Her other sister also participated.carrying her child who looked still a toddler.
after thinking about the grandchildren of my father-in-law were all men.only one grandson was the daughter of the nyeh nyai who was in Bekasi.
My sister-in-law came this morning with her husband.His two children also came, Iqbaal and Nissa.
Sakha without reciting the commat to her late mother.
sometimes his voice sounded like he was crying.
we, moreover I felt her sadness and almost cried Again because of it.
Her crying broke again, after the ground covered her mother's body.
I approached her while rubbing her back.
his voice rattled, saying to the takziah who attended the funeral of his late mother.
He apologized on behalf of the deceased and his family if ever done wrong either intentionally or unintentionally.
as well as reminding me to collect, if there is a debt that was ever carried out by his late mother.
Her nyai tea, Sakha's older sister, looked to be on goodbyes to return to Bekasi after the funeral procession was completed.
" Estu, if you want.you just go home to Jakarta, bring the children??" sakha said to me.
I'm staring.
" Let Iqbal take the car, Later from the house you can take it??" sakha again.
" Will I be able to go home by myself ?" I said.
" What about your work?" ask her again. I looked at him sharply once more.
He looked at me and then shut up.
The second day I was at my ex-in-law's house, I began to have difficulty adapting.
In this village, what is still cooking using wood.
the bathroom that is usually used is still. " Open water". The air's open, really, I'm not used to using it.
" Don't I tell you yesterday.just go home the same way.because I thought you'd be hard for this??" he said he mocked me.
I just silently stared at her, who had just woken up early from her sleep.
The scabbard that was on his shoulders was back he was wearing.
" What child is Estu??" ask him to me.
" That's a Water Toy with Azzam's son Elis??" I said pointing at them.
She seemed to call the two children along with her niece. He smiled a little at them.
I think his smile is very happy. I was so happy to look at her, after a day yesterday not seeing the slightest smile on her face.
" I'm picking up a kid, huh Kha?" I said then.
He looked at me in wonder.
" Where are you going??" ask her later.
" I want to go to the market with Mira and Eli?" answer me.
" Why go to the market? I'm the one that's taking you??" Said.
" Don't, you're at home with the children. Take care of Abah.??
" The old part will also if the girl has been to shopping mah??"
Sakha seemed to be widening her lips, as if mocking me.
***
" Eteh Meuni can bring Euy's own car?" mira said praising me. I just smiled.
Then Mira and Elis seemed to bring the groceries we had bought at the market.
Their innocent faces looked bright, Happy feelings emanated clearly through the look of his eyes and actions to me.
Though I only bought them a piece of negligent cloth and clothes for Azzam which cost me less.
Indeed, Most People his Happiness is simpler than those who live in the city.
I feel like they still think of me as their sister-in-law, but it turns out they don't know if Sakha and I are divorced.
I'm looking for Sakha and my invisible son?? Where did I think I was going.
" Whose eteh nyariin??" ask Mira to me.
" Where are you??" I said then.
" That's tea under. water toys in the Walungan??" answer her.
" Yeah!! What's a Walungan anyway??" ask me not to understand.
then Mira and Elis laughed at me who looked astonished.
" that's a loh of tea, if the Indonesian Walungan is plumbing. is below. not far from home??" answer Elis.
