For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 21

I say it beautifully

With hurt, my heart is empty

Looks like a wound is approaching him

You give it a different taste

Maybe I was wrong

That means what I think love

But my heart always lifted you up

Always elevate you, elevate you too much

You break my heart, break it again

You broke my heart to see you

But my heart always wants you

Raising you too much, always elevating you

It made me fall and fall again

Makes me feel like that's not happening

All the best and all that passed

All that stops, without me ending

You made me fall and fall again

You made me feel like that was not happening

All the best, which I've missed

All that stops, without me ending

You break my heart, break it again

You broke my heart to see you

You light my soul, you dim it again

You broke my heart to see you

*******

I haven't been riding an angkot for a long time. But it feels, the atmosphere of the angkot ride never changes. There is always music played in it.

What songs, according to the mood and origin of the driver maybe?

Pop songs that are popular, DJ REMIX , dangdut or budmemories.I used to often find angkot who play regional songs Even the sound of wayang performances.

Now, Angkot is starting to be quiet passengers.compete online motorcycle taxi that is easy to access.

I heard another Peter Pan song. Maybe when the song was booming, I was still in Kampung. Still experiencing my initial forging for life.

I'm not the one who has, my story is too hard for me to tell. It may be bitter and bitter if it is a taste that can be tasted.

I feel it, and sometimes ???😓

Astaghfirullah haladzim - My Inner. There was a feeling of sadness that suddenly came to wash away myself in a daydream.

Astaghfirullah... Astarghfirullah.

My inner words are not stopping.

I took a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

Thank God Hirobil alamin. I can get through my old days crumpled and rough. Innerku.

Alhamdulillah Hirobili Alamin's...

***

" The court is bang, left?" I said a little yell at the driver.

After coming out of the lot that left me, I walked a little bit limped Using the Stick.Today I have a schedule from the judge, As a witness back.

I haven't been to court for two weeks after that day's incident.

If you hear the story, from his lawyer Rudi. There's a new suspect in his case.

He said someone once was one level above me. His job title, but I forgot what his name was.

While all this time I lived in one of the boarding houses that Livia used to live in, while studying.

1 House inhabited by several people, similar to my contract in Java, but here it is all done by maids such as washing cooking clothes cleaning the house and so on.

******

I have been in this court for almost 2 hours.

One of the Witnesses mentioned the names of my former in-laws and colleagues.

Looks like this case is going wide everywhere.

I just kept thinking about it.

It could be that my in-laws will become new suspects or get involved in other corruption.

but hopefully not until that. Please and;65 my prayer. No matter how he is now to me, he is the kind person I have ever known.

The outcome of today's trial will be explained and decided within a month.

His lawyer Rudi said the case had found a bright spot.

And because of the testimony of the witness, the KPK Supervisor who followed the court process said that there will be new corruption cases that will be investigated, with new suspects.

******

" What about the court outcome??" Ask her on my phone line.

" Wait another month??" I answered Livia.

" You want to wait, what do you want??" Ask her again.

" Hm.. Maybe I'll just go to Java. I want to study at Subandi's Woodworks??" Answer me.

" Where are you now??" I asked Livia.

" I'm in Jogja now, where else??" I smiled a little because of his response. My stale base is too dry like Kanebo.

" Okay.ok.. I'll call you later if there's a change in schedule from me??" I told him.

" Okay, you're the one with the heart??" said me.

" Well, baby??" I said.

Then my conversation stopped.

*****

Who are you talking to?? I thought I accidentally found my father with Pak Yono, someone who used to work at Home.

They seem to be talking to someone I've seen before, but where?? I thought hard.

Do I Samperin Only yes.all I also want to buy something.

Shortly after, I parked my car right in front of the mini market where Mr. along with the two people.

I approached Mr. Seeming to speak seriously. After I called, Father turned to me a little surprised.

I just smiled, while Mandang Pak Yono and his one Father were.

For some reason, the old man who may not be far with the age of the father was at least surprised to see me. But he seems to be trying to calm down.

I still can't remember her, who is she??

" Did you bring a car here??" my many.

" Yono's bonceng father??" answer her.

" Where's the father from??" ask again.

" So the intention was the afternoon road, eh kok even tired.it happened to be that Yono passed by. ya come along all you guys??" brightly, I just nodded small.

" will you go home later or what, sir?" ask me to father.

" Well, can you?" he answered

" Ooh yeah already, Estu want to buy something first into, what do you want to buy ??" bargained

" No need, you just drank this" he said, showing bottled tea.

I just nodded slowly.

From inside the minimarket, I secretly noticed the old man who looked wryly because of something.

it was seen by me that my father gave him an envelope, but I don't know what it is.

And I still feel sure I've met him, but where??

I can't remember it yet.

I think I met him not long ago.

Shortly after, Mr. Yono and the old man left my own father.

I rushed to pay for my groceries and went out to my father.

" Want a driving father or just Estu?" bargained

" Are you alone, you want to sit back.?" the answer.

in the car I asked my father who the old man was.

" just Yono's acquaintance.?" he said relax

" yesterday there was a bit of work and Yono couldn't do it himself. So the person helped him?" her bright.

" Ooooo.....?" I said long

" Emang Pak Yono said what??" ask me again

" He was silent for a moment, looking thoughtful.

" I told Yono to take the goods."

" What stuff??" I said slowly keep driving

" it's a rambutan tree seedling, previously bought but it turns out the branch is broken."

" so I told Yono to make a complaint.?" Continue her.

" Ooh, does Pak Yono not know the place.?" ask me again

" Yono knows the same who sells trees, he does not know the place. Well then the guy who knows his place is Nganterin Yono??"

" Ooo, I said again.

Suddenly my face was pale, so I remembered who the old man was.

I remember when I met ya.

while in the hospital when visiting sakha, the father who hit sakha..

I looked for a moment at the ordinary-looking father.

I think maybe you are the mastermind behind all this.

what accident happened to Sakha?!

my feelings get mixed up. I want to ask you about this, but I have to be careful.

*******

How am I not in love with him?? I thought while watching him from afar.

He is very polite and good at treating the woman he loves.

From the beginning, I fell in love with him. And I realized by then he already had a wife and children.

He's simple and not much style, but charming.

looks simple with his alim style.

honestly maybe I was the one who gave him the signal to be teased. Maybe at first he was not interested in me, However, for a long time he fell in love with me as well.

I know her from Rudi, my cousin's sister.

Our relationship is forbidden,

He once offered me polygamy, making me his wife, even a second wife.

He wants our relationship to be seen in everyone's eyes.

At that moment I doubted.

I got married to Siri.

Therefore, before I had to say two sentences of the creed as an initial condition if I want to marry him.

Because of love I want to pawn my faith.

At that time, I was no longer able to think clearly. All I want is to be with her.

Immeasurably strong, my desire to get it at that time.

After that We were intensely in touch, As if He gave the Little World to me.

I feel like I am the happiest woman to have it. I don't think right or wrong anymore.

Maybe he felt guilty towards his wife for secretly marrying me. He plans to say that he is polygamous.

I once forbade him, but he said I was not sincere with him.The marriage to me was a toy, and he did not want to be the object of my game.

Many times I forbid it. give various reasons.

but in the end, he admitted all this and he already spoke to his wife.

Our affair was exposed. Estu came to my om, told him everything.

my extended family was angry with me. I was in court by them. I had to choose between faith or Sakha. His family or mine didn't allow us to be in touch.

At that time, with a broken feeling.Forced me to return to my family without leaving any explanation to Sakha. I went home to Salatiga solo.

And then after almost 2 years I never communicated with her.

Until I ever wished, my feelings would just die.

We met again by accident.

but this is out of control, which is happening now I'm going back to him.

I looked back at him from the car, waiting for him to come home from Friday prayers.

Look how romantic his style looks.

he seems to love his worship very much.

He looks soft, with a cocoa shirt and a sarong cloth that he wears.

there was a black peci on his head with a Maroon prayer mat held in his hand.

I really like to see it that way.

Then he was seen running while crossing over to the car I was riding in.

a moment later he was by my side.

" What's...? how smiling??" ask him to me

And I can't stop smiling because of it.

but I just said no??

" Breakh??" he said while releasing the peci he was wearing.

" Pake the hell who pecinya, let's look like a hajj sir??" I said with a smile.

He's staring at me.

" Why, what the hell does that mean??" tanyanya.

" Well, I don't mean anything. I just like it?" answer me.

" no ahh, not good with the police gopek??" her word.

" Why bring Gopek's police??" ask me wonder.

" Yeah... later when you turn left what is right. want to cross right will open the car glass??"

" Lohh, what's the connection??" ask again.

" Pity that he'll be confused??" said.

" Bewildered why??" I said.

" I use this peci, just you want to turn right open the car glass. continue to be sebrangin same police Gopek.?"

" If he sees you wearing that necklace, keep looking at me like this Hajj. right pity later he gets confused??" said explain.

I chuckled at his explanation, and saw the necklace with the cross in the middle of it that I was wearing.

"Where are we going??" ask her later.

I just stared at him silently.

****

" Whose apartment is this??" much

" the apartment is Aldes, my college friend who I told you about??" the answer.

" Where is he now??" ask again.

" like going to Singapore with her boyfriend??"

" Hmmm... The rich man, is he??"

" Ohh, why ask that question. Wonder what??" he said with a sharp tone.

" Did you miss me??" his words to me while smiling knot.

" Aren't you wondering,??" I said while Smiling and hugging her.

" what's better??" I said while continuing to tease her.

She smiled at me with all her meaning.

" Oh yeah, ayokk Ahh?!" said quickly.

we look at each other, both my eyes or the look in his eyes both mean longing.

it was like he was taking me away.

far away washed away and lost into the nature that we wanted.