For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 2

" Estu, where are you. Can't we meet today? "

Sakha's voice came from the phone I was holding.

" I went straight home today, is there a seven-month Reni event??" answer me

" I need to talk to you, Estu. Please??" pinta.

" What are you talking about, custody or what??" my grunt

" It's not Estu..I don't think about custody at all, I still want Danesh and Arcel we foster together?"

" O... Are you sure you can come to my parents' house??" I said again

" I don't want to divorce Estu.. Don't know you!?" he said it sounded a little loud.

I swallowed my saliva a little.

" Try you come to court, tell me yourself.?" answer me.

" why do I have to go to court, I want you to hear yourself Estu...I don't want to divorce you?"

" why the hell are you affected by your family, I know I was wrong, but right now I don't do it again with you.?!"

" I don't have a relationship with him anymore, I've left him?!" he said a little loudly.

" So, did he also leave you..?!"

" you're sure he's spared you!". Answer me a little.

" Estu...I've spoken to you.how else would you believe me?!" said

" Is this the reason you're Estu...Is there any other purpose why you Keukeh want a divorce from me!?"

" have your family chosen a mate for you who are better, more fitting, and equal to you...iya?!"

" Did you turn it back to your ex-boyfriend Dimas who was in the harepin with your family?!" her lick.

" Listen ya kha..I want to divorce you not because of my family, not because of anything!?"

" I want to divorce you, because you're Zina with her. I don't want to be with you anymore because of that?!" I said a little loudly.

" i used to want to go straight to you, I'm pregnant with Arcel.!"

" you deliberately raped me, let me get pregnant and not contest your divorce!?"

" Where have I raped you Estu.you are my wife!"

answer her quickly.

" yes, because you know I will contest. You use violent ways.you use ways how not to let me stay right. Your intention is polygamy right kha?!"

" I'm not thinking you're polygamous, I'm not sharing Husband!!" I said emotion

" that was once estu.now I want to fix everything.did you not give me the same opportunity ?" he said a little bit.

" you're talking to the court, don't come.in three days' time our second trial.?" I said while closing my phone.

I took a deep breath, there was a sense of tightness I wanted to make crying.

I'm claustrophobic because there are other women who love you and that woman you love too.

I don't want to share my feelings with others about you, but unfortunately you don't know.

From the beginning we were close, six years ago, I've been paying attention to you.

You're like a normal guy, though, I like to watch you in silence until you accidentally ask me something at my desk.

At that time you were still an intern at the same company where I work now.

" mbak Estu, later to the wedding reception mas Aryo together well. I don't know where the wedding building, maklum is still new in Jakarta??"

you said with a big smile at that moment.

you who just graduated from college, new nomads from the area look very innocent at that time.

Although a little adrift of age, you who were really geeky, little unkempt skin is very different from now.

You are now my man, the more well-groomed, the cleaner you are, the more charismatic you are.

getting a job at one of the SOEs because of my Dad's help asking his friend.

it's as if you forgot who you were before.

you're playing with a woman, I don't want to say her name. Cousin brother of your own workmate.

You forget, how you took me from my family.

how do you get your blessing from them.

Yeah, I'm already engaged to Dimas.

I have to hide you from my family.

Sat it was I LDR the same Dimas who was studying in Kuala Lumpur.

hiding my passionate feelings, infatuated with your gentle, humorous and kind charm towards me.you are very romantic.

You're the man I've been looking for, a man who doesn't just think about a career, but has principles.

I want to be with you until I am Pregnant Danesh which is really the result of the overflow of our love.

I don't think about my family, Dimas or anything else.

I just want to live with you.

even if in the end, they want to accept you. Fixing your career.

But after all these years have passed..?

I don't know, how do I vent my jealousy. The terrible pain of heart.

I really can't accept you being loved by another woman.

I really feel Sick, you've shared everything with him.

Honestly, I still want you, but on the other hand I've lost you.

My feelings are mixed, let alone my family already know and I have to admit, they have a share in my actions to sue for your divorce.

Honestly, actually I also do not know for sure my divorce lawsuit.whether I really want to separate from you or just my escape.

I hurt you Kha, I'm jealous, I'm angry and I hate you so much, but at the same time, I love you so much, fear of losing you. it is all about you that you shared with that woman.

Everything you've shared.I know for sure, and I don't want it, I don't want it. For anything, I don't want Kha. Really am.

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The heavy rain this afternoon accompanied me as I was about to return home. The water that flowed from the roof of the car and down to the glass door I kept looking at.

A million memories when the rain with you arrived present Kha, as if playing a beautiful feeling in my heart.

There is a sense of longing, sweetness, anger and jealousy because of this rain.

Remembering for a moment the cry of little Danesh, followed by laughter from you and me who was preparing to spend the rain by creating our own rain in our room.

Your seduction, your sweet words have always been able to make me abandon everything Kha. I took off all the clothes I was wearing.

Enjoying all the fondness of you that I have been hard to miss.

I have always been inwardly satisfied by Kha from you. I love you very much.

But not for now.