For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 100's
" Patient Ma'am Ayu yaa.. who is stoic and reliable. hopefully the calamity that Mbak Ayu experienced will bring together Mbak Ayu with a better man?"Mira said to me.
I looked at her Silently While holding back my crying that seemed like it was about to break.
I don't think I'm going to have a strong day if there's no support given by Mas Sakha. Suppose he knew??
Although I finally parted ways with Mas Linggar, but now I found a new problem. I don't feel comfortable living in this town anymore? It seems like my movements are always watched by people who are curious about me.
Mas Sakha was deliberately away from me, she kept her distance in times of precariousness like this.
My own family is still a lot of pros and cons of the incident that happened to me, regarding the link with Mas Sakha.
Not infrequently from them threw his dislike towards Mas Sakha.
Maybe, if Sakhaa mas did not have joint efforts with Bandi mas. it would worsen my family's view of his very anti-folk.
I don't know where they know everything about Sakha.
" Mira, congratulations are you finally getting married first to me?" I said trying to change the subject, he just smiled.
" She knows who you are from?" ask him while smiling.
" She was Story?" I said he just nodded slowly.
" Keep Now What is Ayu's plan? Is it true that Ma'am Ayu wants to move jobs?" ask me I just nodded.
" later we split up, he said as regretting.I returned smiling.
" mira forced I am not comfortable here I want to join my friend to Surabaya, I replied.
" yes wherever you are later, hopefully you don't forget about me and we are still interconnected.?" He said I hugged him.
" You also don't forget, Don't be arrogant with me if you're rich?" say
" I don't want to be an arrogant person. Especially the same Ma'am who has helped me during my time in Java." he replied sincerely.
" Mr Ayu, if mbak deign.want not help me first before actually going to Surabaya?" pinta.
" What?" I said.
" Aa Sakha asked me to tell you how to help me get married?" said.
" Aren't you afraid I'm helping you??" I said.
" Well, why?" ask her.
" Wouldn't I have prepared for my own wedding yesterday, but failed instead?" I said while laughing.
" I'm afraid of your fate like me?" I said.
" Ahh mbak this, do not need to connect everything.?"
" Everything is also God's will, is there a storyline?" said.
I'm just smiling.
" Did you say that??" my question.he nodded.
" Here, who else can I ask for help if not mbak Ayu?" he said with a small laugh.
I'm just smiling.
" Where is Sakha going now?" ask me.
" Have not come home yet, just went with Mas Bandi?" said. I just nodded small.
" Eehhmm, Ma'am?" said Mira Like doubtful Doubt. I stared.
" What?" I said slowly.
" Mr Mira wants to ask you something, but don't be angry or offended?" he said something that made me a little curious.
" What the hell?" askaku. He looked at me inside.
" mbak-mbak Is it true that Mas Linggar burned Aa's warehouse because of Jealousy?" I looked at him sharply while slightly nodding.
" She said so but I don't know for sure?" answer me to him.
" why ask me back
He smiled a little while looking at me,
" Is it true that Ma'am Aa has a special relationship?" the question that makes me confused what to answer, but I just keep quiet.
" Mira did not want to blame anyone Aa or mbak said then.I looked at him sharply.
" actually red has known for a long time that Mbak same Aa is not unusual should have been let Mira ingetin Mbak same Aa but Mira did not dare he told me I looked at him a little embarrassed.
"but has it all happened?"
" if possible, now Mira reminds right mbak. please Mbak if you want to like the same Aa Mbak must be ready to also accept the consequences.?"
" Mira also knows that even now Aa is still often the same attention - and vice versa. Which Mira is afraid of actually, if later Cece Livia came to anger Mba Ayu?"
" frankly mira loves both of them and respects both. either mbak or cece Livia? said me.
" Aa is typical of men who are friendly the same as every mother, not infrequently who so his partner often feel jealous.?"
" Aa is weak as a woman?"
" if now Mira is better, forbid Mbak Ayu close to Aa because Aa still belongs to Cici. But if fate says other Mira also will not blame anyone?" she said that like knowing something about me and Sakha.
" but promise yes mbak, not angry with Mira If Mira talk like this mbak?" he said, holding both of my hands, I just smiled at him.
" Ayeah pretty.... Ma'am I will not be angry. in fact thank you already diingetin with you?" I said with a smile.
***
I was still thinking about Linggar's words this afternoon to me.
actually all of his words were true about his opinion of me.
I am a hypocritical, selfish and impressed man who always wants to look good.
I always follow my wawa?.
Oh my God, I am so dirty and disgusting.
I thought while covering my face with my palm.
I ask for your forgiveness, O Allah....
Lead me to a more righteous path, find a better life and leave behind everything that is bad for my personality and my life.
Only I know exactly about myself.
Of all the sins I have committed, and have never confessed them to anyone. Only me and my God know.
then I think about all the women I've ever been close to, the women I've ever liked, I love, I love?
I was looking for a problem in myself.
I was looking for the weakest point in me.
and as much as possible I want to immediately improve myself as much as I can as a human who has shortcomings.
I shed tears, cried slowly, and then I remembered my parents. Abah, Ambu and Amih.
and remember my children.
I feel like I failed to be a child to my parents and I feel like I failed to be a father to my children.
" Where then have all the knowledge I have and have learned in schools and boarding schools.Where has the ethics and self-control that my parents taught me?"
and I weep more and more all my iniquities against others, O God, please forgive all my sins, my inner word is forgiving in the third of this night.
***
" Where are you going today?" mira asked while serving me a cup of coffee.
I just shook my head slowly, she looked at me in wonder.
" Is Aa sick not feeling well?" he asked while holding my forehead.I looked at him sayu. hurriedly he pulled his hand from my forehead while grinning clumsily.
" Am sorry, reflex?" said slowly.
" Will I go to the doctor or the hospital? Mira among yes if you don't think telepin mas arya yes?" He said full of enthusiasm.
" Halah... You don't want to send Aa to the hospital for treatment right??"
" let's just say, let's meet arya, right?" I said he looked at me smiling.
" Aa her phone rang she said then Yes Please bring me the word I told her Shortly after she handed me my phone.
Cece Livia said slowly.
and is that really Livia's phone? then I lifted it.
" Oh hello, Liviaa what's wrong?" ask him.
" Why answer like that? I think I called!?" he said from there. I'm just smiling.
'' aren't you feeling well anymore?" said answer.
" Since when? Have you been to the doctor for treatment?" ask again.
" no, maybe later in the afternoon to go to the hospital or ask for help arya come here?" I said as I glanced at Mira, she just slightly smiled sumringah.
I immediately changed the look of my face which was immediately sneered by Mira. Then we laughed a little.
After this and that chat, Livia asked me something.
Exactly what Estu asked me the other day. This time I was silent
" Now do you feel the same, if you play fire will be avenged with Fire?"
I just kept quiet and didn't answer. I was lazy to argue.
" Now I'm asking you, you're still the same she isn't!?"
" No.!" I answered slowly, then heard her slightly cynical voice.
" I know you're Sakha. You're not tired of me!?" he said then with a slightly higher tone.
" You're the kind of guy who doesn't let go of things if you haven't found the point that really makes you stop."
" How do I know that the woman must be crazy about you to the point of silently thwarting her marriage It's for you.?"
" What the hell is Livia, I said no. huh? I have to answer how?" I told him.
" it's good that I have to answer what?!" I said a little bit.
" That mutusin like that is his family, not him or my incitement to him.?"
" For God's sake, I never asked her to thwart her marriage.!?" say
" Showever yesterday he continued to hold a marriage, coinciding with such an event. I keep suing the man for his crimes.!" I said a little loudly.
" So I'm not what you're talking about Livia" I said, trying to temper her emotions a little.
" Anyways, I'm gonna go get Kylie there tomorrow!?" he said suddenly saying that?
" Why are you talking about being there?" I'm a little suspicious and a little dislike.
" I don't want her to be close to that girl who Deket is with you!" said Emotion.
" He wants to move to work too, stay away from me.!"
" Who wants Deket to be the same guy I am!!" I said.
" Am I going to take him?" he said he sounded angry while closing his phone.
After he called it, I looked at my phone while slightly dumbfounded.
Sometimes I don't think how good it is to face a woman.
