For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 103's

" Yes Estu, what's wrong?" I said slowly as I picked up the phone from her.I glanced at Ayu who was sitting next to me, Then I stood up.

" how are the children?" ask me then.

" I'm sorry I'm a little busy finishing up my job and that. Until I forget to ask the kids about you or just to call her?"

" where are the kids now?" ask again.

" don't have a video call here where there's a lot of dust. If my video call doesn't speak?" I said reasoned.

I saw Ayu who was silent and her face slightly changed.

Maybe I understand.

I talked to my kids Arcelio and Danesh for a while.

" How are you and your dad?" ask me then after I've finished talking to the kids?"

" What, sick man is hospitalized?" my word

" Wish you get well soon, huh,?" i said again.

" emmm... I don't know when I'm going to Jakarta. I'm here busy?" I said.

" What Father nanyain Me And want to meet me! what's the tumben.!?" I said astonished.

I saw Ayu who was still sitting, his face changed?

" Maybe later if I go to Bekasi nengokin nyai tea, I'll stop by there.?" I said.

" Hmm... Do you know from whom? did he tell you himself?" I said I answered the question asking why I didn't look at Kylie.

For a moment I was silent listening to him speak something. My face is a little serious. I took a deep breath.

After Estu finished speaking, I responded to her usual.try just plain in front of Ayu. I don't want to look riled up.

" Yes, will you later? my co-worker called." I said while turning off the call.

Then I looked at Ayu Yang seeming to throw my face away. His face looks sour?

" Ay, what's wrong with you?" I asked slowly, but she just kept quiet.

" You don't like me on her phone don't you like me on the phone with my kids or both?" ask me while sitting leaning next to her.

" I'm sorry, Ay, I'm a man who is not perfect for you. who feels I have a lot and my responsibilities are also many?" I said later.

Yet he was just silent, hiding all his feelings maybe?

" I don't want you to understand, but at least you gave me space to connect with everyone I've ever known. Moreover, it concerns my children Ay?"

Ayu Subdues her head, conceals her Face Shade. I sighed, looking at him for a moment.

" When do you feel ready to face your parents?" ask me then to him.

" Mas Bandi is also a little bit Riled up thinking you are leaving without clarity?" my word.

" i was almost the same as him, but after thinking about it the time was not right" I said.

" What do you want to say?" tanyakanya.

" I'm going to bed you?" I said. He just laughed a little.

" It looks like it's impossible, huh??" I said with a small laugh too.

" I'm like a man who licks my own spit.?"

" A hypocritical, bad-ass man like the one your family accuses of?" I said.

I said while laughing Bias and Datar.

" We shouldn't have played around until now, because in the end you were harmed by me?" I said.

" Am sorry, Ay?" I said, and he just kept quiet.

***

The gurgling rain that fell this afternoon seemed to accompany my daydreams and solitude.

Even though he is near me.

I feel Cold? Not only my body, but my Inner One that seems to be hollow.

Indeed after the incident Sakha mas to me like a bit cold. All the usual Warmth he presents seems to be extinguished against me.

I feel like if....,

His love changed like pity towards me, Yang in together with his attitude not as warm as before. when he looked at me as well as looking at others, not shining as usual.

He no longer did that, After I came home from the clinic at that time.?!

In the past, when I knew I was going to marry Linggar, he still met me, asked the news and immediately came to me who was still working in the minimarket .

He Came still with his Warm eyes. Like the Stare of the First Time, which made me fall in love.

But now??

Maybe there are many problems that he faces, especially now that Sakha is facing divorce from his wife.

" You don't want to marry me if you don't want to?" I said quietly to her.

He looked at me in shock.

" What do you mean Ayu?" it is like being confused.

" Yes, if you don't want to marry me, you don't push yourself to propose to me.?"

" Eslightly you know what they are like, and also you know your position in their eyes?" i said again.

then he stood up while looking at me, his face turned irritated.

" Now what should I do!! how should I do the same to you. Don't make me feel so wrong, Ay!?" said annoyed.

" Want me in the Ugly Cap with your family, Wanna I disagree with your family, even though like that, I keep going for you. as long as you still want to be with me!?" He said it sounded clear.

" But if you say it like that, I get confused and dizzy!! what should I do to you!" said.

" I know I'm the most flawed, the most wrong, the many flaws in all of you're eyes. But please see my intentions are the same you Ay.!"

" It's not that I've slept with you before, but I want to make up for my guilt it's just like you Ay?"

" I want to repay the love you have towards Me Ay?" he said a little.

" Oohh, so I just want to repay my love, so all this time I didn't have that feeling?" I said a little vibrating.

" Continue, is it ready now, already have love with me?!" ask Me While holding Stiffness In the chest.he looked at me sharply.

" Yeah!! I Love You Ay, I also understand what you feel?!" he said firmly Tampa pause.

" if I don't love you, I won't sleep with you. You think it's easy to make love to a girl if you don't have feelings?!" said.

" Love is not just about sleeping together, making out or making out. Love is a feeling, a feeling... against someone!?" said again.

I just kept staring at him.

" If you love me, you have the same feeling as me Mas, Why are you acting Cold with me now!" I said that instantly made him feel cornered.

She just kept quiet While staring at me, Like I was naked with her sharp gaze.

Then he heard his Breath that sounded Heavy.

" Ayu.., I'm sorry that I feel that way to you. But I'm thinking a lot of thoughts now."

" There's a pile of work I have to complete and there's a whole stack of visions I'm planning to progress my business!!"

" And even at home I am still faced with a pile of problems that never finish.!?

" I'm tired of my own life and sometimes I feel that no one can understand.they can only sue... sue.!"

" I don't want to be understood, but at least love me Space!? said.

" I'm sorry if I feel cold to you?" he said while approaching me.

He kissed my hands and hugged me.

I was no longer able to hold the turbulent feeling in my chest.I shook and shed tears in his arms.

I hugged her, Mas Sakha stroked my hair many times. He put his lips on my head.

I hugged her even more Closely, It felt as if my crying was intensifying.

My heart immediately felt Warm, I felt again his Love that made me comfortable it.

Truly Lord, I loved her deeply and echoed throughout my Chest - in her Name.

" Mas Sakha, don't stay with me." I told him. He hugged me tighter too, Like he was going to swallow my body.

**

I know exactly what he wants for me.

Many times Ayu said the same thing 'Don't stay with me?'