For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 17's

" Pacare time sir??" mbak Asih said asking about the Woman who was with Mas Sakha last night.

" it's none of our business, ma'am, let's just say, his name is also single, yes free to connect with anyone?" replied Mas Subandi who slightly disliked me to hear.

I'm really jealous of Sakha.

on the one hand I'm considering her status as a widower if I'm with me.

And on one side of reality, she's been with someone else I don't know. And damn to me, that woman looks more perfect than me.

I feel insecure about him or reality like this.

I just stood behind Maasih as Sakha got out of the car she was in last night.

Honestly I thought before, he was a mediocre widower.

But the truth is he was beyond my expectations.

And He transformed into someone extraordinary, I feel unworthy to have feelings for him again.

maybe it's good if I don't expect too much, or dream with him. I'd better retreat regularly and unseen than lose before the war.

He seemed to smile at me whom I responded to normally, then Mas Subandi and Mas Sakha left Us.

But strangely the woman who was not in the car last night with Mas Sakha.??

*******

" is the car good e mas??" mr. Subandi said to me with a smile.I glanced at him with a small laugh.

" Mister's car, it's just a minjem.??" answer me.

" do you want a car Temen is girlfriend okay??" he said with my slack tone.

I just laughed at him.

After we visited several furniture stores where usually Mr. Subandi put his goods, we walked home.

" hello Vi, I'll pick you up soon. Is this me still heading home??"

" I'll go straight to the hotel, is this just run??" I said again answering his question from the phone.

" Yes, I was just saying Mr. Subandi, then back to the hotel.??"

" in about 30 minutes, I'll finish everything??"

" has it been...bye??" I said while turning off my phone.

" Who is Tho mas??" ask Mr. Subandi to me.

I looked at him.

" who has the car, sir??" answer me.

"oh Ma'am that was last night??" said.

" What are you tho mas??" he said he sounded probing.

I just laughed.

******

" i wonder if I'm the same as you??" ask Eko to me. I looked at him.

" what's curious,? what's??" I said astonished.

" yes all this time I never know who you are or who the same phones are other than your children and ex-wife.how suddenly there is a beautiful Mother who came nyamperin you!?"

" elvy I am the same as you!?" she said in an honest and innocent tone.I laughed at her.

" is that like iriin??" answer me

" yes it's like you're quietly washed away, never seen rame. you know, Wuahhhhhh!!?" he said, moving his hand.

I laughed again.

" heeh je mas. other than anyone who is jealous like someone broke your heart amargo??" sahut Noval from his room.

" Not you, how could anyone be heartbroken because of me!?"answer me.

" what am I??" my word doesn't understand.

then Noval approached us.

"remind the Beautiful? the minimarket cashier. who is indekos at the back.if not wrong he is still his brother Pak Bandi!?"

" do you mean what??" many wonder.

" now his nature is changing Mas the same we??"

" changed how? how did he get to you?" many wonder.

" yes if he used to look friendly with us, now ketus.meet in the street just pee?" he said with a small laugh.

" He's disgusted the same time you're Vall??" sambar Hakka later, and we laughed loudly because of it.

" Abjectly!!?" he said he sounded sewot.

and we kept laughing with increasingly incongruous jokes.

******

" Dad, next week we ask to review to Sleman again??" ikmal said to me.

" Hahh... Who said it??" Ask him.

" Eeee... do not believe that, Mr. Budiman said the same to me. even if you meet mas, Mase told to his room??"

I just nodded small.

I picked up my phone that was ringing, apparently from Estu.

" Yeah Estu, what's the matter??" askaku.

" Sakha, can you go back to Jakarta??" said.

" Haha, what's wrong. What's wrong with the kids??" ask me a little panic.

" it's hard to explain right now, I'm confused too??" said.

" yes but what's up, why." I said a little loudly.

" anyhow if you can go home for a day or two to Jakarta??" pinta.

" Yes, but what is it.??!"

" Is that Urgent the way it is??" ask again.

" Arcel Sakha, did the doctor say he had to have surgery??"

all of a sudden my feelings and thoughts became incoherent.I panicked at the words of the operation.

especially the name of my little boy.

What is this, why is it suddenly. Why did he have to be operated on is it severe, How is it?? thought Rancu.

" try to explain slowly Estu,??" I said try to calm down. She sounded silent, a moment later her sobs broke.To be honest I was getting more panicked.

" 2 days ago, Arcel's body was hot. I think he's an ordinary fever.?"

" I just love the flu medicine with him, on the second day he complained of pain in his stomach and crying did not stop.?"

" I panicked and immediately took her to the hospital and the doctor said now Arcel must be operated on immediately" she said in tears.

" what did the doctor say he was sick?" my many.

" don't know, I'm afraid to ask??" he said while sobbing.

how do I think, I have to ask who else.no way I ask my former in-laws, if I contact his doctor, of course I was told to come directly.

where I was told to jump into the field in Sleman

How's this..

********

" Yes Livi, I borrowed your money first. I need a grip if there's a sudden need??" I told him on the phone.

" My finances are not what Livi used to be, let alone my savings yesterday I used for business capital. don't you know?!"

" I'll tell you when we meet."

" I need a loan. You're there, right??" ask me to her.

" Yes if there's that?" I was silent for a long time listening to him speak.

" Oo.ya already.if you don't exist yes enough to say from earlier. You don't need to add anything to my family, do you?" I said restrain emotions.

" Or are you related to Estu or her family.!?" I said.

" I'm a father, who should be responsible for his children.It's only natural that I feel the need to take full responsibility!?"

" Even if we have children later, I have children from you. I'd do the same thing like this if I were like now ?!" press me.

" Oh, I don't want to fight with you. Honestly, I'm getting dizzy!?" I said.

" Yes... I'm sorry to interrupt your lunch??" I said while hanging up my phone line with Livia.

*******

" Why are you telling him to come here!!?" my father said in a high voice, he was angry with me.

" Mung Arcel's business is trivial!!"

" Don't have to take her, what's she got now!!" he said, turning his back to me.

" but how is that Arcel's Papa, sir??"

" It is impossible to act rashly the same thing that concerns the safety of children.??" I said.

" i know, but there's no need to carry her around.?"

" this problem is over, it will be fine. don't have to until he intervenes.!"

" But Sir??" answer me.

" I don't want to see his face, I'm sick of him. You should know!!"

" is he able to pay all this now, how much is the rest of his salary.?!"

" you're still defending him!!"

words that sounded angry to me. I just silently watched my father.

" do you sir, don't you have to be angry Estu??"

" He was confused as to how, it is only natural that Keringetan the Sakha?". said mother while holding my shoulder.

" wouldn't he be here long?"

" at least 2 days he's here, that's gone.?"

" Is it still less distant he's the same Estu now??"

" this son of yours has done what you want, just because of this. you are angry. as if he is still defending Sakha.?"

continued my mother later.the father who still looks angry just quietly pay attention to mother.and leave us.

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I cried a little while holding Arcel's sleeping hand.

I think all wrong, I have to obey the will of the father.on the one hand sakha is the father of my children.

I've obeyed all my father's orders.I sacrificed my family, my household, my wishes and Sakha's wishes first.

maybe it used to be that you didn't affect my life that much. Even though it hurts, maybe I want to forget the sakha mistake for the sake of my children.

All I do, in order to repay the service to the Father who was already disappointed in me.

******

Sakha came and hugged her son, she looked at me. Her face was riled up, but there was no anger in her eyes.

He just kept quiet. When I see me crying.

come to me and embrace me slowly.

my crying is becoming.

" It's okay. he will be fine?" whispered slowly.

When I calmed down, he handed me a bottle of mineral water, and I drank it.

" doctors say Arcel had a Hernia??" my word explains.

" Now the Doctor is waiting for Arcel's development."

" If it's not possible, and it doesn't improve. Arcel has to have an operation?" I said a little sobbing.

He Seemed Calm listening.

" Well, hopefully Arcel will heal soon and does not have to be operated.?" he said then calm me down.

*****

" Yes Hello, why??" I said to answer a phone call from Eko. my co-worker.

" What, a summons from KEJARI JAKARTA??" I said sound surprised.

" would you open what did you read??" My love for him.

" Monday tomorrow next week the 8th. as a witness in whose trial??" my many.

" What is Ignatius Rudianto??" say .

Then I thought I was floating to Rudi, who is still the cousin of Livia. Why is she, what is it

isn't he sick now??

what did he do, what corruption?? thought me.

" Then how is this? next week I have to go to Jogja. whereas I get a Call From SEJARI TIPIKOR.??" I said confused.

" Try you discuss this with Mr. Budiman ya ko, I'm good how. Now am I taking two days off. continue Saturday Sunday.?"

" My Sunday plan goes straight to Jogja??"

" yes, I'm waiting for the info, huh Ko??" I said after hearing his explanation.

******

" What.a corruption suspect,??"

" 1.3 M embezzlement??" i said wonder.

" Yes I'm just a field executor, I don't know how much money from his superiors just how much I disbursed funds according to the orders written in the work file?" Said explain.

"yes, didn't you tell me about him??" Ask him.

" isn't he sick now??"

" Diabetes is the same as the heart??"

" Whata... his wife got divorced!?" I said in shock as I continued to hold the phone stuck in my ear.

I was calling Livia.

" My son, may he be fine and not have surgery.?" answer me.

" maybe because of jumping or playing with her Aa could be because of yelling to a date. His name is also a child??" obviously me.

" If the doctor says the name is Hernia, if the language of the village mah down??" my word.

" Yes, if people used to be most just taken to a masseuse??" continue me.

" maybe because Estu Panik is with her son.?"

" It's rare that mothers are?"

" hmmm... should be Sunday I go home directly to Jogja. but on Monday I got a call from the prosecutor. ya most wait after the hearing how??" I said while breathing.

" I don't know where to live yet?"

" Can't I stay in the hospital, or at my ex-in-law's??" I said with a smile.

" how do you even say to the delicious, I'm not going to be too hard. too considered like a prisoner??"

I said with a little laugh.

" that yesterday was last night because Anaku was sick.?"

" Have you been a long time??" I said.

" Hahaha... Aren't I sleeping with my son??"

" meet a pee, let alone touch.?"

" but don't you know it's dark??" I said, laughing.

*****

I listened to everything he was talking about. Apparently he was still in touch with the woman, or maybe even now they are free to relate.

there was still a slight feeling of jealousy because of it. I recalled her treatment of me a few years ago.

I was heartbroken, jealous to be fed by him, to the point that He asked for polygamy.

but I think now, why do I still harbor feelings of jealousy towards him. We are divorced.

he is free to do what he wants, or reconnect with the woman or possibly with other women.