For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 56's
" No Estu... I don't want to continue our relationship anymore, I don't want to take any more risks." she replied.
I cried again and hugged her tight
" I don't want to lose you again Sakha, help me!" I said sobbing Isak. And he just kept quiet.
" No Estu, I cannot guarantee the happiness of your Heart. I'm like this and surely you know me?" he said while trying to let go of my embrace.
" No Sakha. I want to be with you." I said full of pleas, but she tried again to let go of my embrace. Then she stopped after many times trying her.
" I want to obey you, appreciate you more, love you with your family. I want to improve myself for you Sakha, but please don't leave me!!" my word.
" If I say, I have another daughter!? What's your response?" said.
" No, you're lying, you're just lying, I'll let you go." I said in tears.
" I'm not lying, I have a daughter!!" said.
As my feelings grew more and more broken, the grains of Sand on the beach swept by the Wind.
I don't want it to happen. I don't want her to have another daughter. I don't want to! My inner words scream.
I cried while hitting his chest irritated, pulling his t-shirt over and over again. I cried Pilu, All Pain becomes one.
as if not for another woman.
She held my hand.The shirt she was wearing looked torn. He hugged me Erat.
Brushed my hair, then kissed her.
" Sorry Estu. I didn't know this before.!!"
" I'm a man who doesn't deserve you!" He said he could hold back his crying.
" I leave the child with you. Please educate them, Don't let them be like me!" said
My feelings are getting broken. It was like falling off the roof of a tall building. And it happened a second time.
I was crying looking at Sakha. He was hiding his tears.
Slowly, he let go of his embrace. I'm not willing, and I can't afford to part with her anymore.
I still love her so much. Loving her In my naivety.
" I Love You Sakha, Help me." I said crying while crying to him.
" myra..Mirah!!" he said he shouted at his sister.
" Hayu..!!" he said while releasing me.
My cry is becoming. My dekapan is getting tighter.
" Sakha.." I said in a cry.
" Don't leave me the same Kids.!" I said pleading in tears..
" A.a..." Said Mira calling her while following her shed tears.
" Take off me Estu....Off!!" he said he snapped at me.
The scream woke the child. Danesh and Lio's crying voice led us back into the room.
He sighed heavily while looking at me.
****
" I have to pay the therapist at home. My mother has Sakha's cancer!" Said.
" Pay for Hospital, Medicines, home nurses and more.!"
" I'm an only child to him, who would have to bear with him if it wasn't me?!" said again.
" I've never done anything with anyone but Sakha you.! I swear in the name of my God!!" he said seriously.
" Yes.yes.yah! it's up to you to tell me what the truth is we're done!" I said Sounds stupid.
For a moment she laughed.I looked at her in wonder.gulped my saliva a little.
" this... Inii !!" he said while pulling out his phone and giving it to me. I looked at the picture of the little boy on his phone.
" He's your son!!" he said it sounded firm.
I looked at him in disbelief. He looked back at me sharply.
" I'm tired of ringing it straight from you!!! do you think my life is just happy!!" he said he looked upset.
" He's my son? Where's possible?" I said I don't believe him.
" You can't see his Sakha. His eyes, his nose.all look like you! You can still deny it?!" Said again.
" But Rudi said you miscarried?" i said wonder.
" That's a diversion, a diversion from my extended family so as not to suspect I have a child from you, Tau!!"
" If he's my son, show me where he is now?!" I said.
" He's in Surakarta. At the orphanage, my friend's in care. As long as you know, your son is sick from Little. If not me who else takes care of him?!" Her word.
" If he's my son, why didn't you tell me from the beginning. Why don't you want me to marry you?!" I said.
" You know what Vanus is? Then how the hell are we!!"
answer her.
" I want to tell you too, Free!!" said.
" Your little son has a heart defect." He said it sounded raucous. He seemed to want to cry.
" However he's my son, even if you don't want to admit it or my extended family."
I'm Just Silent.
Shut up in my ignorance, I think fucked up. It doesn't feel like believing. Between possible and impossible. My daughter is under the age of Arcelio. Exactly the same as when Livia disappeared from my life.
Is he really my son?
****
I woke up from my daydream. My eyes reddened, resisting my drowsiness.
Lio hugged me. While there, Danesh is seen sleeping with Estu.
Never mind, I thought, closing my eyes.
**
It was so tired, I said, looking at my eyes in the glass.
I really want to not go to the office, but I have to do it.
I saw Lio who was sound asleep on top of his Papa Chest. Sakha herself sleeps snoring quite loudly, not making Lio feel disturbed.
Lio's full-looking diaper did not bother Sakha from her fatigue.
I know, he's tired of all this. Tired of me and all our problems.maybe also he felt tired with his day.Then his mobile phone vibrated, there was an incoming call from his girlfriend, shortly thereafter a call from the woman.
I took a breath and left.
My son Danesh already looks better than last night.warmness in his body has been reduced. He was already watching his favorite cartoons while holding a crayon with the picture book that was before him.
I thought if Sakha would leave us, that's it. I can't hold her back.
there is still Ms. Yuti who helped take care of my two children.
I say goodbye to Mira. Saying ordinary things, while apologizing to him.
He cried at me, apologized if his sister was being rude to me. I just smiled at him. Then I'm leaving.
" myra... Estu tea works Atawa kamana?" I said as I yawned and stretched my body.
" Uhun Aa. Estu tea picked up Damel's tea." I saw the wall clock at 09.30am.
" his Geus, Pang mandiken the Lio. Aa Arek kept bathing outside sob." I said as I left her.
My online object stopped at the address I was heading to. I visited Livia at Richard's house.
I waited for her to open the door. Not long after that he opened it.
" Mama, this is Sakha Livi's friend" she told someone sitting in her wheelchair.
I touched her cold hand.
She smiled a little later.
" He used to be Rudi Ma's office mate??" livia said again.
" Ooo..His friend Rudi.ok is not working now??" ask her. I just smiled.
" I've resigned Auntie. already out of the office." I replied.
" Well, why'd you come out??" ask her. I smile back.
" Aunty can't do it, working in a stressful office." I replied with a small laugh.
" Ooo... yes already.something that is forced is not good???" he said with a small laugh.
" Is she married??" her question arrived.I looked at Livia for a moment.
" I'm Single with Two Aunts??" I said honestly.
" Oohh, then what's the relationship with Livi??" asking is like interrogating.
I looked at Livia again.
" Mama.., I asked her so anyway" said Livia a little business.
" What better question than wonder, right??" he told me I just smiled back.
" Well, Auntie is okay." I said.
" I'm close to Livia Auntie." continued my heart.
" How long has it been??' said again.
" Eee... I've known Livia for a long time, but just reconnect now." Answer me.
" I'm sorry mas, mas this is close to livi as what if I may know?" ask her again.
" Mama...why talk like that anyway?" livia said to her mother.
" Livi's not open to me about her boyfriend right now.!"
" He's been closed since living in Jakarta, I feel strange and worried about him" he said.
" did Livi tell mom that Livi's busy at work there's no time for anything like that??" livia said to her mother, I just smiled at the two.
" Well, he always asks when am I getting married? it's always been that way" Livia said after dropping her mother back into the room.
" That's natural" I said to him, he looked at me.
" Where's Vanus speaking??" ask me.
" He's going to Surabaya, are there any relatives who got married there??" he replied, Oohh, it is appropriate that he would dare to invite me here, I thought.
" Mommy has breast cancer. it's stage 4. so have to stay here, to be closer to the Cancer hospital" Livia said.
I just kept quiet.
