For Redanya Rain, You & Mau.
Episode 101's

" Mom Estu, how could you do that to me? Did you deliberately take revenge for what I used to do the same?" I said I tried to hold back my emotions when I talked to her.

" If Mpa was not finished with Sakha, why did Mbak not want when he invited Mbak to refer or Do not want a divorce.!?"

" Now when he's the same me, Ma'am Deketin Sakha again, on the grounds of the children!!"

" That's a big bitch, huh!?" I said to him, who had been silent.

" It is a loss that I married Same him, here he is still playing and not finished the same past. there he was tempted by young women.!?" I said cussing.

" If I don't already have a child with him, I better not marry him.!?' I said.

Almost just crying.

" i don't mean that Livia is the same as you, which happens it's very fast and unplanned.?" he said defend himself.

" there is no intention from me to take revenge on you that happened so?"

" it happened so you said?! I'm not sure if you don't have any intentions or don't have the same heart as him!!"

" Sakha still likes it, is she still in love or still hoping to live with her again? yes!". I said sounding angry in a slightly higher voice.

" Livia it's hard for me to ask myself, I still like Sakha or not! what happened yesterday is out of your control?!" he sounded denying.

" That means you two are in a trance, ***** and want n******!! Bullshit is your talk Ma'am!you two are the same.!" I said angry.

" I know, I was wrong and I deliberately walked out of both of you're lives even though Sakha invited me to get married.!"

" I still think about the fate of Mbak the same children mbak. still think of his feelings Mbak?!"

" I don't want to be a destroyer in your relationship.?!"

" As Mbak already feels at peace with the past, he should not be once close to Sakha or have such feelings!!"

" I'm sick Ma'am! I don't accept the same treatment as me?!" I said while crying.

and he just kept quiet.

" Livia I'm sorry, if you want it that way let me get away with my kids.did I stay away from Sakha?" said later.

" Free Ma'am, if you want it like that. it should have been since a long time ago not after I knew you were as perky as him.?"

" Even if you stay away from Sakha, the same children mbak. Did Sakha suddenly forget about Ma'am and the kids just like that?" ask her.

" Mr Estu must know the answer for sure. Sakha can't do that to you."

" Sakha is a typical man who is more willing to fight with his partner than to have to part with his child!"

" Don't know how hard Sakha is. Moreover, it was regarding his obligation.!" I said a little bit to her.

" If you want to marry Sakha again, please. It's better that I retreat with my son.!"

I said crying a little sobbing

" Livia doesn't have to be that way either, if Sakha can't be separated from arcelio and Danesh, that's the case with Kylie too.!" said.

" He loved his children so much. After he was born, you know who he loves the most now?" said me.

I looked at him with tear-filled eyes.

" But can't Ma'am, me or you share a heart for Sakha or Sakha with us. I don't want to feel the love!!"

" Sick Ma'am. I think you've also felt it even though it was because of me.?"

" Levia, please don't back down. Let me just because I'm wrong now.?"

For a moment we were silent to each other.

" To be honest, Ma'am, how do you feel about Sakha? I don't want to guess.!"

" I want to know and hear directly from you I said.!"

And his eyes on me were like they were cornered.

" Without explaining it, you know for sure Livia. I don't want to speak frankly with you, it hurts you!" said me.

" I was planning on taking Kylie away from him." I said later.

" Livia please don't do that to him, it's causing another problem.?" I said.

" You know he always needs the support of his wife and children. Don't let him feel crushed back.!" he said to me again.

But I didn't budge and thought maybe that was the reason why Sakha might be like that. When she found a new woman she would forget the others.

" If you can't be separated from your children, wouldn't it be the same if I didn't want to part with my child?" said answer.

For a moment we both kept quiet again.

" He still needs support from you Livia, as his wife?" said slowly.

" After he got divorced from me, you must know how hard it is for him to rise up to come back to life?"

" His Life Trial comes over and over. Please, even if it's your right, take care of your actions for now. I promise I'll be away from him?" he said slowly and felt sad.

I know for a fact that she still loves Sakha even though it's wrong now.

***

" Hold a minute, I'm There now!!" I said as I rushed into the car.

I hurriedly started my car and gassed it immediately to get to Ayu at his friend's rental in a place a little far from his old contract.

I hurriedly called Arya.

" hello Arya you know not the nearest maternity clinic here where?" ask me.

" you don't have to ask who I'm in a hurry to hunt the dead!" I said later.

Soon she said a maternity clinic owned by her friend was located a little further from the city.

" Arya, help you keep this a secret from Mira or anyone else, and please call your friend who has a maternity clinic, that I'm your friend.!!"

I said a little pressing him.

" In a hasty move I went to the contract where Ayu was.

After I opened the Door, Visible Ayu with a pale face endured the pain while pressing on her stomach.

I'm carrying him, getting him in the car right away. My hands are like touching the liquid coming out of his body that smells fishy.

which turned out to be blood.

" Please hold on Ayu, be patient. Soon we reach the hospital I said in a panic.

" Sick mas.." he said over and over while clasping his face getting pale, I trembled.

over and over I watched her with anxiety, but I had to concentrate on carrying my speeding car.

When I got to my destination, I screamed for help. Shortly thereafter the nurse came and brought Ayu immediately for action.

I followed him while holding Ayu's hand.

I looked at his face that was getting pale his hands felt cold grasping my hands firmly.

" It hurts.." he said over and over again while enduring the pain.

I couldn't bear it and almost cried.

then I was asked to wait outside the Room.

" Sir,?" said one of the midwives who approached me.

" Mom How is she?" I said Panic.

" This is your husband? ask her again.I hurriedly nodded reassuringly to her.

" Yes my mother is her husband, How is my wife?" I said.

" I'm sorry, sir, your wife had a miscarriage and we did a curettage to her womb" he explained.

Instantly I gulped and felt a great sense of nervousness.I was very afraid if anything happened to Ayu.

" How is she doing now, Mom?" my many.

" Now the wife of Mr. We have moved to the room.and for the curette process to run smoothly, Now it's just waiting for the recovery of the wife of the Father!" said again.

There was a slight feeling of relief and fear that deepened my chest, and then I rubbed my face with my hand.

" Is my wife welcome now?" ask me to the midwife.

" Ooh, please. but first you finish the administration at the Cashier for treatment.?" said later.

I just nodded and thanked the midwife.

I stepped my heavy feet towards the room where Ayu was resting.

I thought about all the things I've done to her?

Ayu is pregnant with my son, I know for sure.

Then what now should I do to her, to the woman who had conceived my son and almost died earlier because of his womb?

I sat in a long chair, thinking about what had just happened. I'm trying to calm myself down. Trying to breathe calmly.

I lowered my head, hiding the cries that came out of my eyes.

I thought back to Estu's words??

What kind of response will I give Ayu and her family.??

What if mas Bandi knew this problem, or even his entire family. And the Family of Linggar.

I feel guilty, I'm really someone who's amazingly badass.

Oh God? I feel very guilty towards all the people I have been fooled by my actions.

I feel so guilty for Livia and my son.

I would be so guilty of them if they knew this. I have to How do I think??