Pursuing My Husband's First Love
Trying to See Mariam's Point of View

"Tante Medina why? Why would it be here? Aunt Medina alone?" Desi tea was anxious and furious to see the person Mariam was avoiding.

"Hhhhiiiiiissssskk ..," Medina's cries began to burst out in a normal voice, no longer choking as before.

Desi tea reflexively hugged Medina, she understood, this situation not only made Mariam hurt, Medina was injured if she could read all the circumstances before her properly. Desi Tea's dilemma, what should she do now?

Fortunately, Mariam did not wake up, because she was still under the influence of drugs that required her to rest in full.

Medina didn't care who she cried at, she just had to let out all the tightness in her heart. Desi tea was silent to let Medina let out her tears.

Medina cried for a long time, before Desi Tea finally gave her another glass of water. Desi tea felt compassion for both, Medina's stomach was indeed bigger than Mariam's. But, the father of the child they bear is the same.

"It's quiet now, Tan?" asked the Desi Tea again, Medina simply nodded.

"Tante Medina is alone?" Medina nodded back.

"Why can pregnant women walk alone?"

"Teh .. Can Medina ask you something? Can Medina get an honest answer?" medina asked intimidatingly.

"Ehm .. What do you want?"

"How many months is Mba Mariam's pregnancy?"

"What?!"

"How many months, Tea?"

"Ehm .. i-it is not your right to answer such a question, please Aunt Medina understand."

"Who should Lantas Medina be the same? Answer Tea, it's free to lie now," urged Medina.

Desi tea takes a deep breath and exhales it.

"It's been 5 months."

"Why? Why Tea?" medina asked again, still trying to strengthen herself.

"Mas Moses? My husband's? What know?" medina asked in a voice that grew louder.

"Jawab, Tea!" ask Medina again.

Desi tea just shook his head.

"Astaghfirullohaladzim !!!" peekik Medina's.

"What is Mariam Mba really doing? What Tea?! Why would he like to act so out of bounds like this?"

"And you all conspired? Help Mba Mariam hide her pregnancy?" medina asked with emotion.

"Mba Mariam continues to feel guilty for having to be present in your household Aunt, Mba Mariam tries to leave and wants to continue her life without frills the second wife of Aunt Medina's husband," answer Desi Tea at the end.

"Mba Mariam only found out about her pregnancy after Mr. Moses dropped a talaq on her." Medina was shocked, until she rounded her eyes.

"What?!"

"True, Mba Mariam found out after the talaq fell. She was so shocked, frustrated, and confused."

Desi Tea breathed heavily, while continuing to try to calm down the shocked Medina.

"Tante .. try to look at this issue from the point of view of Mba Mariam. Not that she hid all this, but Mba Mariam did not want that because of her pregnancy she had to be re-shackled by the marriage bond with Aunt Medina's husband."

"But Mas Musa had every right to know that he too had a son in the womb of Mba Mariam, and the right of that child to know who his father was."

"Mba Mariam only intended to hide it temporarily, until their divorce was decided and there was no chance to tie it back."

"What?!"

"Why is Mba Mariam so anxious to split up? He couldn't have lied if he didn't love my husband at all. Why is he so hypocritical?"

"Tante .. calm down first, listen to Mba Mariam's real screams. The little guy who was a witness. Mba Mariam's heart is not what Aunt Medina thinks."

Medina regained her composure and tried to listen to Desi Tea.

"Maybe Mba Mariam does still love Mr. Moses, but Mba Mariam's heart is still sane enough to know the limits. Although they eventually married, not necessarily make Mba Mariam happy, she felt uncomfortable because Mr. Moses had to pray for her love. He can't be happy on top of your sacrifice, Auntie."

Medina listened carefully.

"Teteh who witnessed how Mba Mariam's life before this, he was so happy and loved the late Mr. Biantara. Regardless of the corner of his heart that still holds the story of his adolescence with Mr. Moses, but it is only a piece of the past. The lives of Mba Mariam and Pak Bian are not affected by the story at all, in fact Mba Mariam's love for Mr. Bian can not Aunt Medina even be a trivial."

"In short Mba Mariam does not intend to have Mr. Moses again, her love is not love that must have, only the grapevine of taste that has passed, do not be revealed."

"Hhhhhh ..," Medina exhaled violently.

"Let Mba Mariam be happy, Auntie," concluded Teh Desi.

"I'm out of words here, it turns out right, from Mba Mariam's point of view I'm the one who's wrong, it's appropriate that Mba Mariam hates me so much."

Desi tea was silent as if to justify the revelation of Medina.

"Mba Mariam wants Aunt Medina and Mr. Moses to be happy too. Especially with the pregnancy of Aunt Medina, Mba Mariam is increasingly convinced to leave. Don't force something that shouldn't be united."

"But Tea, Medina could not have kept quiet and helped hide Mba Mariam's pregnancy, even though Medina's heart was painful and sick, but this was the right of Mas Musa and the future child."

"Medina chose to face all these harsh realities rather than sinning in silence" Medina said.

"Wait for the right time Auntie, Mba Mariam is certainly more entitled to say everything to Aunt Medina's husband."

"Hem .. fine."

"Then, what happened to Mba Mariam and her womb?" medina asked as she looked at Mariam who was lying weakly on her bed.

"As I said earlier, Mba Mariam did not know she was pregnant at all. She ... continues to work hard with us, all the signs of pregnancy are ignored, she is just focused on her efforts that have just stepped into a new chapter."

"Mba Mariam is exhausted, her body condition is not good. Plus the psychological and mental burden that Mba Mariam received during this divorce, Alhamdulillah, lucky enough to survive. Now Mba Mariam has acute anemia and has to get a transfusion."

"Mba Mariam had a hard day but she tried to remain silent" Medina said.

"They can't say anything. But, if you can just ask Aunt Medina not to burden Mba Mariam again, do not ask the reason, or Aunt Medina can pretend not to know and never come here."

"If even Mba Mariam was rude and cold to Aunt Medina during this time it is actually a form of self-defense, the way Mba Mariam protects her heart" said Teh Desi.

Medina fell silent to the story of Desi Tea. He got up and approached Mariam. Someone he once simplified his feelings to easily implement one of the religious shari'a, but in reality Mariam's heart was more complicated than he thought.

"You make me feel bad, Mba. Get up, and recover. Mba Mariam has to explain things later."

Medina's heart was sliced, the moment Mariam bought her the testpek when it turned around again. Mariam did appear to be happy with her pregnancy at that time, although after that she returned to being cold and mysterious.

Medina went through her pregnancy with the care and affection of Moses. Mariam, meanwhile, fought alone. Every night Moses rubbed Medina's stomach, reciting Joseph and Mariam's letter, while Mariam rubbed her stomach alone while enduring the pain of a long day at work.

"Son, don't blame me if while in the womb you lack the affection of your father. All because of the steep road your mother chose." Medina spoke to Mariam's stomach.

"You two brothers are not as conceived" said Medina in tears, one hand holding her own stomach and the other hand placed in Mariam's stomach.

"Yes Alloh .. If this is my path of destiny, I am sincere. Rest assured Mba Mariam, and the child in her womb," said Medina while trying to stop her crying.

"Son ..my father and I will love you with all our hearts, pray that your mother and we can love each other. Aamiin's."

"Teh ... Medina said goodbye, tell Mba Mariam the truth that I've come and I know."

"But-"

"Trust me, we must cover up a lie with another lie, but Medina won't."

"Hem .. fine."

Medina left the hospital, not forgetting she stopped by the super market to buy some things so that her mother-in-law was not suspicious.

"Why so long, Nduk?" ask Ms. Aini.

"So it's jammed, ma'am," Medina replied reasoned.

Medina immediately went into her room, seething with great guilt that infiltrated her heart because she had to remain silent after discovering a great reality.

Medina continued to imagine, what would Moses do if he knew Mariam was pregnant with her child? What would Ms Aini's attitude be if she knew she was going to have a granddaughter from her former daughter-in-law?

Can Moses keep his promise not to return to Mariam?

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