Pursuing My Husband's First Love
Something that looks beautiful because we don't have it

"Are you guys conspiring? Are you all playing me? Including you, Pah?" mariam asked in annoyance.

"Mba, once in a while a big fight is necessary after that we will make up, rather than we continue to pretend to be okay but each of us keeps what is the problem, he said, instead it will be a prolonged su'udzhon" explained Medina expressed her opinion.

Mariam ignores him and chooses to look Bian in the eyes full of intimidation, Mariam asks for an explanation for everything Bian decided without asking for her opinion first. Medina realized her presence was misplaced, so she went out and sat down with Moses.

"That? What'sthis?" mariam asked who seemed to not understand her husband's way of thinking.

"You know, she's the one you've ever loved" Bian said.

"I never even mentioned that his name was Moses/Mizan" Mariam continued.

"Yes, but someone who went very far to study, I thought he was Mr. Moses," Bian replied with confidence.

"Don't I ever even tell you which graduate Mizan is?"

"Yes, but last night Papa met and talked with Mr. Moses so papa nebak he is the person, unusual gelagat mama also pointed out that he is the person."

"Hmmm, but still Papa can't do anything at will."

Bian then approached Mariam and started massaging her shoulders from behind, she was well aware of what Mariam was feeling.

"Relax Mah, listen to me first."

Mariam just quietly enjoyed her husband's massage, the emotion in her heart was still high would be better for her to be silent than to mispronounce.

"In the past, when Mama has not received love papa, papa ever promised that Mama to nerima love papa, papa will find the figure of Mama's first love, papa never promised that, papa wants Mama to finish everything that is still stuck in Mama's heart,"

"You're not funny, Dad!" mariam replied in a jutek tone.

"Papa know how the quality of Mama, but how great our love will now still be imagined love that can not be owned, not because our love is not special, not Mah, trivial really, really, just because love can't be had is most beautiful when remembered and daydreamed."

"I don't know what you mean, Pah, just talk mutter-muter!"

"Look how Moses looked at his wife! It's not that his wife, Mr. Moses, is special, is it? Because he exists and is owned. But look at the way Mr. Moses looked at you, baby! Because you can't have." Bian tried to give Mariam an explanation.

"So what did Papa mean? I looked at Mizan too unusually, because she couldn't I have?" Mariam tried to see the implied intent of her husband's words.

"Papa didn't say that, just maybe." Bian slightly covered his point.

Mariam grunted, her right hand massaging her own forehead. Bian's massage didn't help her overcome her frustration at all.

"Listen Mah, since papa promised himself, papa will surpass all that Mama's first love did for Mama." Bian continued to try to convince Mariam.

"But this isn't something I want, Pah."

"But Mama needs it, neutralizing the feeling of 'it' to be able to have the usual feeling. Mama no longer need cats with Mr. Moses or his wife, and do not need to suddenly upset if their inget."

"I don't understand the way Medina's mind that instead of staying away from me even trying to get closer to Mizan, Mizan and I never have a sense that can not be underestimated, he said, she should have been afraid that me or her husband would be happy and love each other again. Uh, now my own husband is doing the same crazy thing?!" mariam said as she crossed her arms to her chest while shaking her head.

"Keep now Papa wants me to reminisce with Mizan, do you?"

"Hemmm, let's try Mah first!"

"I'm not as crazy as your rich Pah, is Papa not jealous at all? Papa isn't afraid I suddenly love her again?"

"Papa is sure Mama actually understands papa's good intentions, but Mama herself is not ready to face it."

Meanwhile, Moses and Medina begin to feel uneasy hearing the buzz of Bian and Mariam's debate from within.

"Would we just go home, Dek?"

"Wait for me, maybe soon, we'll be here anyway."

Unexpectedly Mariam finally wants to talk to Mizan and Medina about the past, Bian who walks behind her smilingly tells her success persuading Mariam.

"Egemm .... " Mariam sat down and cleared his throat. Bian coded Moses to speak immediately.

"Sorry that our arrival made you uncomfortable Mariam," Mizan tried to ventured into the conversation.

"No, don't worry, so how? Which part made you bother coming here to see me?!" Bian clasped his wife's hand hinting to slightly keep his tone.

"I want to apologize directly for my selfishness, which all makes you hurt and sad. Honestly, I have not been able to forgive my own mistakes, my wrong decisions, my ambitions that made you a victim, and your time wasted ... "

"My feelings and my life just missed waiting for you!" cut Mariam.

"Hhhh, stop! I'm actually depressed about having a bond with you. I realize I only come from an ordinary family, simple and have no position, while you come from a distinguished family, he said, anyone who hears the name of your parents will immediately bow down to respect you wherever you are. Look, you're so worthy of Medina, your family's worth it." Mariam started out smooth and open.

"If it were just to wait, I wouldn't just give up, I backed off because I realized there would be a lot of inequality later if we were really together, our degrees were different. I'd be overwhelmed if I had to get into your neighborhood, and it would be a huge burden on my family if it was different with your family."

Bian, Moses, and Medina enthusiastically listened to any outpouring of Mariam's heart without daring to interrupt. Moses got the answer and reason for Mariam's departure.

"Look, I found Mas Bian as my soul mate. An ordinary person with an amazing heart for me, my life is calm with love and feelings that flow so naturally without fear of thinking about the burden of status and degree. I'm sorry, I wasn't able to fight for you any further, sorry that I might have hurt you, and also sorry that if I was ever present in your dreams, it was absolutely not my wish, but because the story that makes you bound just out of curiosity and full of questions what, why, and how, I hope it has been answered now," concluded Mariam.

"I ... didn't know your mind was that far. If you talk first, I will explain so that your heart does not need to guess."

"Here you go, I've been sincere about the feelings I used to have. The shouting has given me a chance to tell the truth."

"Thank you also for your availability to tell stories, now I will try to be more sincere in accepting the situation."

"And for you Din, stop trying to be me, be Mariam. Be yourself until Mizan can love you, not the shadow of Mariam you purposely built into your character!"

"Okay enough, excuse me!" Mariam hurried to leave them and went inside.

"Mariah ... !"

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