Pursuing My Husband's First Love
Second application for Mariam

Loving two hearts at a time, what could possibly divide them in equal portions? Without leaning into one? I was indeed too inclined towards Mariam, because she came long before I married Medina. Our story that ran aground actually made my feelings grow deeper.

My hands hurt a little, but I was satisfied. Can I just be in the khilaf once? I don't hate him but wouldn't it be natural for brothers to fight occasionally?

Medina heard Mas Harun's voice coming through our room, she was still trying to show my mother that she was worthy of Mariam. Maybe Medina was surprised by the figure of Mas Aaron, but that's how she was, always wanted to be in front of me, even wanted what I wanted.

"Leave it, Deck, that's how Mas Aaron is." Medina turned to look at me.

"Mas, did Mas Aaron really want Mba Mariam? I mean love her?" ask Medina riled up.

" It was then that Mas Aaron approached her Deck, but Mariam did not respond."

"What does a crying girl on a peach mean, Mas?"

"When the reception of the new students of the school held a camp, it was usual, Mas Harun was present as DK because he was also an alumni, Mariam did cry because of fear of being bullied by seniors." Medina nodded in understanding.

"So, since a long time ago you, brothers, liked the same people?"

"Perhaps, I didn't know Mas Aaron really liked it or just messed around with what I had."

"Now what about mom's decision, huh Mas?"

"Whatever the decision, I will still propose to Mariam, with or without her mother," I replied, Medina looking surprised to hear that.

"Dek, thank you, yes" I said as I stared fixedly at his face, a face that pretended to be firm, but remained committed to his choice.

"Together, my mother."

"Why did you choose the hard way, when you could have told me to forget Mariam?"

"What possible? What can, Mas? Forgetting Mariam is almost impossible, isn't it? Medina did not want to do anything in vain, false hope is the same as false happiness, better ... Medina accepts reality."

"Mas has done so much wrong and hurt you, Dek."

"The heart that is in love, will always forgive, Mas."

Tok .. tok.

"Mas Musa, Mba Medina, is called Mother" cried Mr. Iwan from behind the door, it seems that Mas Aaron is finished and mother has made a choice.

"Excite, Sir!" I answered, I looked at Medina again, she reassured me.

I rushed out with Medina, Mas Harun sat face to face with mother, in a position that looked uncomfortable and looked a little annoyed.

"Let's get ready, let's go to Mba Mariam's house!" mother's orders, when I was just about to sit down with Medina.

"But, Ms ...!" as if.

"Come, your Mas has already given up, before your Mas changed his mind."

We immediately changed clothes and prepared to go to Mariam's house. Mas Harun and Pak Iwan also participated.

Marian. The woman who became my first love, the love that grew when I was still unstable and did not dare to take risks, but I was carried away to love her. I never imagined I'd have her back, even in my dreams. Now, I came to her to ask her to be my wife.

Alloh paved the way to make you my soul mate, when I just felt sincere to have let you go. Honestly, I won't be able to surpass Biantara, but I will try.

"Waalaikumsalam ..." replied Ms. Sri, her face showed doubt when she saw us coming, but she still greeted us kindly.

"Monggo please come in Miss Aini." We were welcome to sit down while she called out to Mariam, the selitas heard Mariam's voice questioning our arrival with a slight annoyance.

My heart was pounding and my hands were cold, Medina tried to smile and clasped my hands. His hands were just as cold, signifying the same nervousness. My mother looked agitated, but she did what was best for me, for my happiness, because this was the first time something went my way.

Bu Sri again emerged from behind the curtain connecting the living room and the living room with a tray containing drinks and snacks.

"Monggo Ma'am, Mas-mas, Ma'am ...." Ms. Sri went back inside and we waited for quite a while before Ms. Sri came out with Mariam.

His face looked more firm, although the mellow and aura of sadness was still clearly visible there. Mariam, you are still grieving, is it possible that she will accept my proposal?

Bismillahrrohmanirrahim...!

"How are you ... Mariam MBA?" My mother reopened the conversation.

"Thank God, we're all good, Miss Aini. Hem ... What is it?" asked Bu Sri, while Mariam looked cold.

"Bismillahrrohmanirrohim, this is the intention of the arrival of the family mother to ask again about our conversation the other day, ehm ..we are still waiting for Mba Mariam's answer," said my mother without further ado.

"We, coming with intent and goodwill, remember my son, Mizan, had long had feelings for Mba Mariam, and my daughter-in-law Medina as the first wife had already approved, she said, so I represent my son wants to propose to Mba Mariam." My heart was pounding, completely different when I proposed to Medina first.

Mariam remained silent and cold, only Bu Sri who looked unwell. While Mas Aaron looked at me as if waiting for my failure.

"I'm not interested in sharing, are you willing to leave your wife?" asked Mariam breaking her own silence, Ms Sri was seen slightly patting Mariam's leg.

"Hem .. sorry Mom, Mas, Mariam just spoke."

"I'm ready to part ways if Mba Mariam wants to." Suddenly Medina says something beyond our agreement, all eyes are now looking towards her, including Mariam who feels her challenge was welcomed by Medina.

"It can't be, Mba." Ms. Sri is back to try to fix the situation.

"It's okay, Mom. Mba .. I am nothing compared to your beautiful past, your deep story, and everyone's touch. But, I also do not want to live in falsehood, Mas Musa loves you Mba, maybe he will love me too but it takes a very long time, Mba, I wouldn't lose much if Mba wanted me to back off!"

"Dad!" as for me, I feel cheated, this is beyond agreement.

Mom just stared at her daughter-in-law's courage, without trying to prevent it.

"Sorry .. I have no reason to accept this proposal!" mariam replied, she started to back away from the challenge she had made herself.

"Mba still loves my husband, right?"

"Losing does make people look more meaningful, Din. Just because I lost Mizan, she became meaningful. Look now, I've lost my husband, my life, my future, my strength. I get it, the real meaning of loss, Biantara is everything. I can't accept this proposal!" reject Mariam.

As Aaron looked at me triumphantly, Mariam rejected me.

Actually, I know it's gonna be hard to melt Mariam's ice when she's heartbroken. It was easier to touch his heart the first time, because the second time, his heart was already wearing more protection. This freezing is Mariam's protector.

I know his heart is weak.

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