Pursuing My Husband's First Love
Mariam's Wishes

"Are you not a good woman? The sholeah wife? Angel-heart?"

"Now I have one request, which you must make!"

"What is that, Mba?" medina asked doubtfully.

"Please promise, you have to do it!" Medina hesitated.

"Give me back my peace of life!" mariam said firmly.

"What does Mariam mean?" ask Medina.

"I used to. My life was happy, right before you two came to this place, before you ruffled my life." Mariam tried to explain.

"Now, look! It was all painful, even the air I breathed in felt like poison suffocating me."

"If the deceased Biantara is not buried here, I will leave with pleasure. But, understand! How precious this city is to me, all about the Biantara is here."

"Ask your husband to go and find another city, or just walk away from my life a little" Mariam said.

"Mba?!"

"I beg you, Din! Aren't you a good person? Persuade husband! It's too crowded for me to keep breathing the same air as you."

Medina flicked her weight by sitting next to Mariam's bed. The words that came out of Mariam's lips really took her by storm. He thought hard and tried to digest it.

"Don't tell your husband this is my request, ask him for another reason, make your own excuse" Mariam said.

"Look at the sadness you both have given my life! Every single piece of my heart collapsed slowly to the point of breaking everything apart without any residue."

"Din." Mariam grabbed and clasped Medina's hand which had just been silent in shock.

"I beg you, go. Give me a chance to live a quiet and fine life again" Mariam said, looking at Medina expectantly.

"Is that our fault in your eyes, Mba?" ask Medina.

"Is it true that everything Medina tried to do meant nothing at all?"

"Is it true that Mba Mariam threw Mas Musa's feelings so cruelly?!"

"Medina regrets giving you Mas Musa, Mba!" medina was full of disappointment.

"Finally Medina knew, the real problem. Well, Medina and Mas Musa will definitely disappear from the life of Mba Mariam. And Mba Mariam will be sorry for underestimating Mas Musa's great love for Mba Mariam!"

"I've let go of Mizan from Din's past, the breakup that once turned my life upside down, and Biantara is the one who managed to lead me to see life from a better perspective." Mariam said emotionally, everything she felt as if she was jostling to force want to be uttered.

"Regardless of still or not the love in my heart for her, but I have decided to let go. So don't push my heart out, love or not, it's none of your business! Because I've really taken it off and really want to get away from it!" mariam said with sobs and tears.

"Din, all the time I keep thinking. What exactly is your reason for wanting to reunite Mizan with me? Why is your determination so strong? I kept thinking and just found your selfishness there, even when Mizan and I were both letting go, you were sticking to your wishes, no matter what we wanted or not, no matter if we were happy or not."

"My love for Mizan is not a love that wants to have. The taste is buried far away."

"I'm sincere she's happy with you even though Biantara is no longer by my side."

"I'm sorry Medina Mba, Medina promised to leave soon!"

Medina tried to drag her waving legs away, all Mariam's words so hard that she was heartbroken. Right after the door closed Mariam shed all her tears. His hands no longer beat but now he hugged his own stomach.

"I'm sorry your mother, son! Believe this is best for us, "weep Mariam.

Shortly afterwards Desi Tea re-entered Mariam's room with a face full of questions.

"How, Mba?"

"I'll keep everything until the end, Medina and Mizan will never know where this child is."

"Mba, sure?"

"Related."

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Medina felt very sad, guilt really infiltrated and disturbed her heart.

All the frontal words of Mariam really made her disappointed and angry with herself, it was only natural that when Moses finally divorced her, Mariam never opened her heart.

Medina looked at every corner of the house, while continuing to dissolve in her mind.

"Sir, why are you daydreaming?" ask Moses.

"So Mba Lastri said you saw Mariam again" Moses continued.

"Yes, Mba Mariam is sick" Medina said.

"illness?" moses was surprised.

"Yes, Medina was already nengokin earlier, he said exhausted. Mas Musa did not have to worry, and did not need to nengokin Mba Mariam, he was better," said Medina.

"Yes, Mariam is not a muhrim mas anymore, everything has become the responsibility of Mariam herself. I've no responsibility for him anymore, Dek."

"How was your trial?"

"Temen mas ngurus, Dek. Accept it in order. Can't rush it either, having to go through a lot of procedures to qualify."

"How long is it?"

"Mas doesn't know for sure either."

"Ask, Mommy! Let it be clear" said Medina.

"Yes, I'll ask. What the hell are you doing, Dek? Tumben your attitude is like this" asked Moses.

Without answering Medina slammed into her husband's arms.

'Forgive Medina Mas, Medina misjudged Mba Mariam. It must not be easy to deal with it all this time, sorry for the stupidity of Medina, Mas Musa had to undergo a difficult situation, ' Inner Medina.

'If Medina knew, Mba Mariam trampled on Mas Musa's love so cruelly, Medina would not be willing to give Mas to her.'

"Why are you, Dek?" moses asked with Medina's embrace.

"No papa Medina is missing" replied Medina.

"Is this the dede's?"

"Not ... Medina who misses Moses."

"What's the naughty dede today? Did the kick start hard?"

Medina shook her head and released her embrace, she looked at Moses warmly.

"Medina was glad that Musa finally parted with Mba Mariam." Moses knitted his eyebrows at Medina's words.

"really?"

"I'm sorry Medina, Mas! From now on Mas Musa could only be loved by Medina, and Mas Musa could only love Medina. No more sharing hearts or sharing husbands."

"Yes, Deck!"

'Only Medina Mas will love you without ever humbling you like Mba Mariam, Medina Mas Promise!' inner Medina.

"Mas ... How about we start a new life?"

"New life?"

"Medina must be awkward living in the same neighborhood as Mba Mariam after all this. How about we move somewhere else?" medina Mo's.

"Moved?"

"Yes, Medina wanted Mas Musa more cepet mengelupain Mba Mariam. Medina knew how good a farewell would be to leave a wound, Medina wanted Mas Musa to heal from it."

"We get our business done one by one, Dek!"

"In addition to this trial we must also prepare for your delivery, Dek. We'll move in as soon as our son is born, how is it?"

"But Mas-"

"Trust Dek, mas has more sincerely released Mariam. The old feeling no longer exists. Seeing Mariam happy with her independence made the mas self-conscious and untied with Mariam."

"Mas will only love you, Deck. Mariam is just a memory, we were beautiful in the past but we were not created to be together in the present. We just hurt each other."

"Mas .. if Medina had not been rash to ask for Mariam's marriage, surely none of this would have happened."

"No, Deck. Mas understand your actions, however the wrong mas because it has not been able to release the feelings of mas in Mariam. Mariam was not Mariam now. I've had a lot of self-reflection and introspection, and that's the result."

"Stay only Medina who played the first role when applying for Mba Mariam," said Medina.

"Second, sometimes we have to be wrong first to be able to know what is right and what is wrong. If the marriage of mas and Mariam never happened, surely mas will forever be trapped in the old Mariam. Without realizing that time had also changed Mariam."

"What Mba Mariam does not love Mas Musa anymore? Is that why I finally let go?"

"Mariam loved the late Mr. Biantara, Dek."

"Mariam has managed to leave all in the past and start her new life. While still trapped without daring to open your eyes and try to get out of the zone of memories."

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