My love is just one
85. Love is complicated

Surely the feeling is never complicated, but it is the people who make it complicated and convoluted. I wanted to be the old me who trusted him so much, but I couldn't.

I can't believe I ever loved her so much and now I hate her.

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Handoyo and Nadya smiled when finally their car entered the parking garage of a large house in Central Jakarta. Nadya immediately got out of the car and reported her arrival, while Handoyo tried to calm her heart by taking a deep breath when going out of the car.

"Welcome to the Day Nadya, finally nyampe too.. want to see Alesha's mother now?" But the same mother again I met the family of the father from Surabaya, so maybe a little long wait first yes, mbak!"   Greet the officer who was sitting on the terrace and record every guest who came.

"Welcome to the Day Mr. Pram.this would like to meet my mother who took my friend who brought the order mom anyway, so wait for mom to finish her business, ntar we wait on the side porch huh sir?"

" Good Madam Nadya, Out of duty outside the city huh mbak?"

"Yes, the mother's company wants to add production and wants to open branches in some cities the plan," Sahut Nadya told the officer

Nadya had been waiting for Handoyo on the terrace of the house where two housekeepers were standing waiting for her presence impatiently because Handoyo had not come out of the car and pulled out some items in the box of Kiyai Umar's pocket.

"Mas Handoyo, should I help you?" Nadya offered because she saw Handoyo carrying two large boxes.

"Thank you Nad, not heavy anyway, but it does look big dus so.. just relax!" Handoyo said as he brought two dus kiyai for Big Mama.

The boxes were placed on the side tables of the two officers and made the two officers ask what the contents were. Nadya and Handoyo were looking at it and they were thinking about the reason given to the two guards.

"Sorry Madam Nadya, this item must be opened here? Since the General doesn't want us to receive an unknown item, what if it turns out to be dangerous for the mother's family and we don't know her anyway?" The Guards' call prevented Handoyo from entering.

"But these items were taken by Kiyai Umar who was Aleesha's mother's confidant ... what if one of you reported my arrival and told Aleesha's mother that I was carrying a deposit from Kiyai Umar?"

"Well, you guys just wait here, I'll report to mom ."

Not long after Pramodya entered the official house owned by General Gaffar, he returned again and asked the two to enter the house and bring the items to the living room .

Nadya and Handoyo enter the house and follow Pramodya's steps. Arriving at home, there was a cheerful greeting from General Gaffar.

"Ah... Nadya, I think you went where, never seen accompanying my wife, turned out to be out on a trip to Bengalis ,.." How is kiyai Umar?" You should have told me, , , who is this emh? Looks like I just saw it," General Gaffar looked at Handoyo with a probing gaze.

"Ah... brother Gaffar..., he is one of the students of kiyai, he will work in my office, his name is Adiguna .. oh yes Nadya, he will work in my office, try opening the shipment from kiyai for us !"  Aleesha interjected trying to help Handoyo and stopped her husband's investigation into Handoyo.

Nadya opened the first cardboard which turned out to be some of Aleesha's belongings in the pesantren while still studying there. Inside the box there are also 3mpat frames containing photos of Aleesha and Gaffar who are hugging from various styles. in addition, there are photos of Aleesha and Yona, friends who are embracing each other tightly.

The two couples looked at each other and Gaffar tried to take the frame. Over the past few years, the relationship has cooled and rarely talked to each other. They are only together when there are needs related to the service or there are distant families who come so that they make a show in front of everyone.

Handoyo noticed General Gaffar's gaze on the photo in the frame.  I had no idea what the man was thinking and kept looking at the photo in silence. Maybe they remember their past. Aleesha spoke out to stop her husband's daydreaming.

"You two get out, let me help Aleesha.. !" General Gaffar said with full decisiveness and it made Nadya stop her steps that would open the other box.

Nadya waited for approval from Alessha and the woman nodded. Nadya immediately took the handoyo out of the room leaving a married couple who would open souvenirs from their teacher at the boarding school.

"Sha... Do you remember this photo?" General Gaffar showed his wife a photo of their youth. Gaffar's eyes sparkled at his wife.

"Yes, it's all the past."

"You think, why did Kiyai Umar give you your stuff from the boarding school?" Does he know our problem? "

"Let's know, but as I know, kiyai Umar had sharp eyes.The last time I visited Bengkalis and did not stay overnight because we did not come together, indeed he was suspicious..."Aleesha replied slowly.

"Sha...

"Yes...

"I miss this Aleesha who always smiles kindly, who always waits for me if I go home from work, who always listens to my every complaint.. Can we go back to that time , sha?" Gaffar shows a photo of the two of them .

"You don't trust me yourself. You choose to trust others...!" Aleesha said slowly. "If you believe me and are not evil to me...

Gaffar fell silent and he opened the second box which was brought by Handoyo . Dus contains potato chips, banana chips and tengginang.This snack is the production of pesantren.. Every time they visited Bengkalis, Gaffar always ate it and made his wife overwhelmed because he could eat the snack a day up to 5 jars and he had to go back and forth to buy at a cooperative that had pesantren.

"Why can I not trust you, Sha... when you are the person I love the most and will never let go... I do not want to lose you... But why did you betray me, Sha?"

"bang... I never betrayed you though. You should know me, I love you very much. As long as you go through that distant task, I miscarried and to comfort me, I did, I raised a child, and that's what really happened .. , I never got pregnant from another man and the child I left behind was just a foster child, why do you trust Setiono more than I do ?"

"Come on. Now Setiono is dead.no one can argue with you, Nad !"

"I will never betray you, but if you never believe me, then our relationship will forever be like this!" Aleesha started to get emotional at her husband.

"Find me with the kid and we'll take the kid's blood test, I'll believe if the test results do prove it's not your flesh and blood...., you never showed me that kid, Nad!" tell me, what is the reason for all that!"

"whatever, if you still don't want to hear my explanation Bang... !" It's free to talk again.I want to go to the company!" let it be, you accused me to death, I will never explain anything to you!"

Gaffar fell silent and let Aleesha leave. The woman brought other pictures. In his hands were still the past photos of young Gaffar and Aleesha.

Indeed, the feeling is never complicated, but only the people who make it complicated and convoluted. I wanted to be the old me who believed so much, but why can't I now. "Aleesha. I've always loved you!"  Gaffar Whisper.

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