My love is just one
71. Journey 1's

Not everyone can understand what we do, the choices we have to make or the decisions we make. It's MyLife. It doesn't matter you don't understand, I'll live with confidence, because I'm the one who went through it all.

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The car driven by Handoyo finally came out of the ship "Kelud" which had crossed from the island of Java to the port of bakauheni lampung.  While on the ship they mingle and enjoy the facilities of the ferry boat by disguising and using makeup, masks and wigs that make the two different.

"Mas Han,... Can we stay in Lampung tonight? " I don't think I've ever been to this city, but if you mind, I don't care if you don't want to be in this city. I can come here myself next time..."

"No problem we stay but I can't accompany you for a walk .. I haven't seen my wife's grave for a long time. tomorrow morning I'll be there for a while before we go back... how's it?"

"Well.. May I come to visit your wife's grave, mas Han ?" Nadia asked quietly and somewhat hesitantly while looking at Handoyo who was still focused on her steering wheel.

"No. You wait for me at the hotel or drive around town in this car ... I was still in the dark and it took me two hours after that we met near the city limits, I'm sorry Nad.... it's not that I'm acting disrespectfully, but my status as an inmate and the people here who know me are being held in nusa kambangan .... could screw up our mission.

"Yes I understand .. maybe I'll just prepare for our trip so we don't have to stop much on the road."  Nadia tried to neutralize the atmosphere. "What food do you like about han?"

"Anything I like is up to you!"

"Mas Han.. can you ask ?"

"Yes.just ask!"

"this is about what you did...emh...have you calmed down more after killing everyone involved in your wife's murder?"

"What do you mean more calmly?"

"I want to take care of someone who hurt me and destroyed me but it takes strength and courage.but. mas Han ..this is my secret. Because you are my partner, then I will tell you , I hope you will answer my question honestly...emh.... When I kill someone the first time, does the shadow of the person I killed always appear ? because I can see it at any time even to my dreams .. sometimes I can't sleep .. emh.... is there such a feeling, Han?" Or am I not talented in this field?"

"Huh... You got like that Nad?" I never imagined a single person whose life I took. I only did it for Lidya... but I just feel empty seeing that there is no Lidya to welcome me after work. Sometimes I don't know why I'm still in this world... but at some point I came to a conclusion that kept me going, Nad. " Handoyo said while occasionally looking at Nadia who was next to him.

"What's that?"

"change your outlook and your life goals, Nad !"  Not everyone can understand what we do, the choices we have to make or the decisions we make. It's the Life we live, it doesn't matter you don't understand and think I'm weird or crazy but, I'm going to live with confidence, because I'm the one who lives it all.... it kept me going and living my life with excitement..."

"Yes, too. mas Han, thank you.. I'll try it!"  I must manage to clear it up and avenge everything!"

"You still have a problem that hasn't been solved, Nad ?" Handoyo asked enthusiastically."Want me to help you?"

"Thank you Han for his good intentions .. If this one, I'll take care of it myself, it's about my pride and honor!" Nor will I be involved in this organization, even if it concerns someone important in this organization!"

Handoyo was surprised to hear that. Did Nadia enter into this organization to destroy the black eagle organization?" Or is there a problem with Stevan? Big Mama's confidant, did she hurt and hurt him. Handoyo just fell silent and tried to concentrate towards the city of Lampung.

They parked their car in front of one of the big hotels in the city of Lampung. "Grand Lampung" is one of the four-star hotels that are quite popular with immigrants who arrive in the city of Lampung. Handoyo and Nadia get out of the car and carry a suitcase into the hotel.

After Nadia did the hotel room registration and they got the room key to spend the night on that day. Handoyo simply followed Nadia's footsteps while pulling their luggage into the room. The room is quite comfortable and has a super large bed. The night was not too late for Handoyo when they entered the room.

"Mas Han... you can sleep next to me or pick on that long sofa no problem either!"

"all right I get it. I'm out for a second, I don't have a car, Nad!"

"Bring the key!" I won't open the door for you!"

"Yes!"

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Handoyo borrowed the motor of one of the employees of the Grand Lampung hotel and paid for it as a rental service. He chose to use a motorbike to get around the city of Lampung. Its main purpose is the tomb of Lidya. He rented it for 5 hours around the city, he told the hotel clerk.

Handoyo did not want his actions to be known to others, especially people who knew him. First he saw the house he used to live in with Lidya. The house belonging to the Lidya family is really in a well-maintained and clean state. He asked for help from the family who lived next door, Mr. Wanto. and his children.

It is true that the family of Mr. Wanto who lives next door to the house is always guarding and cleaning it. They can be trusted and Handoyo was satisfied because he often sent money orders to school children's children's family mr. Wanto's.

Motor driven by Handoyo then directed to the cemetery in Lampung City which is located in the direction of Lidya's house. In front of the cemetery. Handoyo placed his motorbike near the deserted funeral gate. He stepped inside with confidence .

Handoyo's chest felt tight, his eyes glazed over. He remembered his happy time. The pain had not gone away, but he did not regret the murder he committed. It all feels natural for him to have to avenge the loss of Lidya.

"I've always loved you, Lidya" whispered Handoyo. "I'll go away sometime, I'll come back here,"

Handoyo finally stepped back to leave Lidya's tomb and without looking at her again. Lidya was always there at every step.

His journey to the hotel was done by passing one of the houses he had bought but given to a woman who had been an alibi in his murder. Yani is a good woman, whom she makes a victim of her selfishness. There was a bit of guilt, but it was immediately removed. He did not love that woman. He was just pitying and sharing a little fortune with the woman.

The house is a little different now. There is a booth on the front and selling coffee and some food at night. Handoyo parked his motorbike beside the fairly crowded stall.

"Mbak ... black coffee one!" Handoyo ordered coffee to the woman who was serving also one of the other buyers.

"Yes, sir, a minute!"

Not long after Yani came to where Handoyo came while delivering a cup of coffee.

"Please sir.... would you like to eat fried rice too? let's go with that father who's a monk!"

"Gak .. I'm just coffee!" Sahut Handoyo while looking at Yani.

This woman hasn't changed. This house alone is somewhat changed and rather crowded, because it seems that the Yani family does live here. He kept his promise to take care of the house. Handoyo put down some money and immediately left after sipping his glass.

"I'm done, madam.this is the money under the glass!"

"Yes sir thank you," Yani tried to get to where Handoyo was sitting and clean the glass of his former guests drinking but the man was on his motorbike and ready to leave, until Yani's screams stopped him. The woman was reflexively surprised to see a large amount of money so she reflexively ran over to Handoyo.

"Sir.., the money is mostly only three thousand, sir" Yani while running to Handoyo.

"that's for you, Yan...!" Handoyo said a bit loudly and immediately drove his vehicle leaving the coffee shop and Yani.

Yani was surprised when she heard the man knew her and as the motor got further away, she remembered something about the man's posture. Hinga Yani shut her mouth.   He was very surprised to see the man who once fucked him come and see him just buy a cup of coffee and disappear.    Isn't she....?" I must be wrong ! There's no way that guy!"

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