My love is just one
75. Journey 4's

It doesn't matter that I'm considered a nobody. If my presence is not important to you, I will make you all look at me and regret ever ignoring me.

That love, love, friendship and caring cannot be forced, just let them grow naturally.

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Nadia was eating meatballs bought in front of the boarding gate. He enjoyed the meatballs with the boarding students.

The connoisseurs of meatball food are so comfortable under the banyan tree on the edge of the field near the pendopo where Nadia stayed overnight. Until Nadia realized that Handoyo was stepping out of the administration room where they were looking for Kiyai Umar.

Nadia put down a bowl of meatballs that were running out and carried a plastic bag containing meatballs for Handoyo's lunch. He returned to the man.  Nadia smiled at Handoyo but the man seemed to have a blank look, lethargic and did not return her smile.

"Mas Han's... " Nadia half ran over to the man, but Nadia finally realized this man seemed really sad and lethargic.

"Mas Han... has he finished his meeting with Kiyai Umar?" Nadia ended up next to the man who was still impressed unaware of her presence "Is there a problem from the story, mas han?" Or is Pak kiyai's story not about your family?"

"Ohh... Nadia... I'm sorry I didn't hear your question?" Let's continue our journey.I've visited my mother's grave.I'm sorry I didn't take you earlier, because kiyai Umar directly invited me to nyekar there and there are indeed some things discussed on the way there!" It is located in the complex here as well and is indeed closed to the public. "

"Father, Handoyo... Are you okay?"

"Yes... I'm fine... Why is it?" Handoyo asked while looking at the worried-looking Nadia.

"I'm just worried. You seem a bit sad, '" Nadia tried to be honest about her views on Handoyo. "Jeka is a secret, it doesn't matter you don't tell me, but if you've seen me to be trusted, you can tell me and share your burden with me," Nadia walks Handoyo to the car park near the compound's security post.

Handoyo turned to hear Nadia speaking as if sincere as a friend. What Nadia says is true, in starting a friendship or relationship that is more than a friend, is needed is a trust. That love, love, friendship and caring cannot be forced, just let them grow naturally.

In front of their car, Nadia asked Handoyo for the key this time to drive and asked the man to rest on the way to Pekanbaru City. Finally Handoyo let the woman drive, because in addition to being physically tired, her heart was also tired and a little hungry also approached Handoyo.

"Mas Han... earlier I bought meatballs, you eat gravy meatballs packed with plastic can you? " Nadia said casually as she drove the vehicle away from the boarding school.

Handoyo did not answer Nadia's words, but she was now opening the plastic package that Nadia had brought and contained a sauce meatball. He was a little confused about how to eat meatballs but there was no bowl or place to pour the food. But Handoyo tried to enjoy the still-warm gravy meatballs from the plastic by pushing the meatballs into the plastic tip and putting them directly into his mouth.

"It's my first experience eating meatballs do not use a bowl. There's-there's a hell of a nad, how to eat this meatball...but quite also make a wimp stomach, Nad!"  Handoyo said as he chewed on the meatballs . "do we not stop at one of the restaurants on the street?"

"I have often eaten meatballs in that way, if indeed we are pursued time and indeed can not use a bowl and that is a practical way...let's have dinner in Pekanbaru!"

"Nad.... How long have you been in this organization?" Handoyo asked as she finished a pack of gravy meatballs and let Nadia continue to drive.

"Maybe about three or four years ago .. I was at the beginning of this organization was formed .. I saw how Big Mama woke up protecting this organization until it became strong and started to count, we are on opposite sides with the Commander and until now the Commander does not know that the supreme leader of our organization is his wife. .... I don't know how you'll be introduced by Stevan in organizations or companies, I guess you'll use a new identity because your face is familiar if circulated and open."

"Why is the relationship between the Commander and his wife like that? " Do you know that, Nad?' Handoyo tried to find information about the dispute between the Commander and Alessha who was his mother's sidekick.

"Based on the story I heard from several sources including from the commander-in-chief staff as well .. They had a big fight and almost the Commander killed Aleesha a few decades ago... The commander suspects his wife is having an affair and has a child from another man, he said the child was in the city of Lampung or Pekanbaru so, and on that basis that's what made Big Mama create this organization!" Jealousy can darken the eyes, but according to the doctor, after giving birth to their first child, Big Mama can't give birth anymore, so no child is born by Big mama or the affair!"

Degs....

Handoyo was silent to Nadia's story. Was the Commander-in-Chief involved in the murder of Lidya and her family in Lampung ? Did the Commander ever tell General Setiono and his son to finish off his family? Does the Commander know the secret?"    Why was the organization formed at the same time as the death of his family? Is there still something Big Mama has hidden in her?"

So many questions sprung up in Handoyo's head and made him keep thinking hard until Nadia spoke again.

"Actually the Commander is very good to his wife, but Big Mama if already angry a bit difficult to talk to. Oh yes Big Mama's company name is "Aleesha Company"..We just call Mrs Aleesha when she asks us to meet her at the company, besides call her "Mama", yes Mas Han... don't get me wrong!"

"Ever again, several times this year, when there are events in the office and at the state palace.You know sometimes we are asked to help the Commander in charge of maintaining the security of the President, he said, considering our President often gets threats," Nadia again explained her activities and it made Handoyo turn to him.

"State State?"

"Yes.the President's workplace.I can even meet with the President's family, too," Nadia added slowly.

Handoyo noticed Nadia who kept driving the car.  Thought Handoyo, I'll have a chance to see it in person. The man my real father told me about. All this time I only saw it on television when state events and covered by national and private television stations.

People I never thought of.  Important people in this country.  I don't mind if he doesn't recognize me, he just considers me someone else. I just wanted to make her regret hurting my mother!"  I have to avenge my birth mother's death and why she ignored my mother and let that cruel woman shoot my mother dead!"

It doesn't matter to me that I'm considered a nobody. If my presence is not important to the man who should be my protector because he made my mother pregnant and died without being able to take care of me, I will make you all look at me and regret ever ignoring me. Whisper Handoyo's heart and he closes his eyes to fall asleep on the way.

"Mas Han.if in public, Big Mama always behaves respectfully and obeys all the words of the commander, but he never returned to the official house of the Commander... unless there is an official event and it always comes home to the original in the purchase of the Commander when married.so please, do not ask anything to Big Mama about his relationship with the Commander."

"Well thanks for the info, Nad" Handoyo said as she kept her eyes closed.

Indeed Handoyo is not sleepy but he is tired after hearing stories that make him surprised about his past.he once thought first, that he must have been dumped by his family and did not think his family problems were so complicated.

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