My love is just one
145. Release
Letting go does not mean we have given up, but we have realized that there are things that cannot be forced.
It is easier to love a man who sincerely loves us for who we are than to love a man who never loves us at all.
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Handoyo looked at Nadia who was walking away from their hiding place home. The woman insisted on leaving Handoyo with the fruit of their love. All means Handoyo had done to hold Nadia, but to no avail.
A thousand apologies said by Handoyo but unable to make Nadia survive and choose to leave. The woman was already hurt and felt Handoyo never loved her and took advantage of her stupidity.
One thing that Nadia never thought, that Handoyo was the biological child of Suhartono, the man she was raised with and Handoyo was also the one who ravaged her heart.
Nadia felt sorry for hurting Pramoedya who sincerely loved her. He should go back to that guy. Not because he loved her, but that man loved her too much and it was easier to love than a selfish man.
"If Mas Han can let me go, then I will bring this child to see you one day, then I'll make sure me and this kid will die in front of you soon .. So mas Han, which one will you?"
Handoyo was silent for a moment and was stared at by Nadia who was angry and seriously challenged him. There was no other choice, he had to take it off.
"Go Nad.... do what you want... But if you have relieved your anger.... let us meet again... allow me to see you and our child?" I will always love you, Nad...
Nadia nodded and briefly looked at Handoyo's face before she turned to pick up her suitcase bag and left without looking at Handoyo again.
The woman made Handoyo's leg limp and the man fell on the floor. His heart is broken and wounded. This man lamented his folly and regretted that he let go of the woman he loved.
His love for Nadia, really sincere. Handoyo truly loved the woman and had to let her go from her side. Why does he always say his love is only one to Lidya? His love for Nadia is also a lot, his love for Lidya has turned to the woman who has accompanied his days so far. Nadia, I love you, but why don't you trust me?"
Regrets always come too late. But Handoyo must release the woman for their good .Letting go does not mean we have given up, but we have realized that there are things that cannot be forced.
This turns out to be more painful than the way Lidya left him first. Lidya went from this world by loving her, whereas this woman was still in this world and threw away her love and did not believe in her. It is painful to not be trusted by a loved one.
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In the morning at Alisha's house, he was watching National News Broadcast television, on TVN while peeling mangoes. The television show that usually broadcasts morning cooking shows with "Rudi" the 'star hotel chef, was suddenly cut suddenly with a special broadcast from TVN.
Aleesha queried and stopped peeling mangoes and konsen on the television show.
" Good Morning TVN viewers, I'm Inke Marisa and my colleagues ...
"Said Den Ahmad, will deliver the sad news that occurred in the state palace today. ...
Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un, This morning at 03.15 Our First Lady "Tiara Suhartono, Died at the Hospital We and the TVN family felt a deep sorrow and
"The whole community is now feeling a deep loss for the passing of our First Lady. . Here is the profile of the deceased who has been loyal to accompany the President. Let's see how much he does for this country....
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Aleesha smiled with satisfaction at the news.As per her prediction, there was only one more person she had to solve. Not in vain he lost his beloved Gaffar, at least one person who injured him in the past has been resolved.
"Wait there Tiara after your husband, I'll clean up, I'll also accompany Gaffar there, be patient.We finish our duty there in nature!"
Aleesha was still focusing on the television screen and she was shocked when Nadia and Steven had entered the middle room of her house.
"Mama... " Call Nadia quietly and that was quite a surprise to Aleesha
"Still dare you come here, Nad? "
"Sorry mom. I'm here to finish my job.... Steven's gonna help me again. Please mama!" Let me do it..!
"No... Handoyo who will do it.. Now your job is to pull Pramoedya from the maelstrom of the palace and go missing for 5 years, then you come back to see me... Can you do that, Nad?"
"But mama.. I want me to do it. I hate the man, I was harmed by the man .. please mama "Nadia immediately knelt in front of mama.
Aleesha fell silent and thought for a moment.
"Yesterday you failed Nad. If only Handoyo did not hand you the task that was yesterday supposed to be on TVN news yesterday it was those who died and not Gaffar.. it was all because of Handoyo's stupidity that he dared to have an illicit relationship with you... Now you still want to listen to me or leave this organization?"
"Well mama...but is five years too long?' can it be two years and I go back to the organization ?"
"Not that as punishment nor did you betray Pramoedya... I'll know if you betray him and I'll kill you myself if you dare to betray Nad... now Steven's gonna take you to Pramoedya
"You'll wait where I prepared you. Let Pramoedya meet you. Tell him you were kidnapped and Steven found you... Pramoedya doesn't know the truth!"
"Good mama..." Nadia got up from her squat and stepped out of the room with Steven.
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The whitewashed and brown wood-fenced house on the edge of Pemalang is not big. There was only a small courtyard planted with flowers. Not fancy and not too simple. It has been three weeks Nadia tidied up the house alone and began to get to know the neighbors around the house.
Who lived next door to his house was the husband and wife of a retired teacher who was kind and had a vegetable garden, so he often got vegetable shipments from them. It was enough to make him calm because he during pregnancy is lazy to eat vegetables. Somehow he missed Pramoedya who always took care of him and prepared milk for him.
Steven just told Nadia when he drove her to this house so that , wait here and do not do any flashy activities, let Pramoedya who followed here. Lonely and sometimes longing for Handoyo but resentful of the man's origin. Nadia tried her hardest to forget Handoyo and divert her mind by doing household chores.
Like most people who live in the area, Nadia reported to the RT chairman that she was married and her husband worked in Jakarta, and will be home soon. there were indeed neighborhood whispers that he was a mistress of wealthy officials in Jakarta, but Nadia tried to ignore him.
It's a risk, but he doesn't regret it. Nadia just needs to focus on raising this child alone. The money saved quite a lot if he lived in Pemalang and raised this child alone for the next ten years. No problem Pramoedya did not follow him here, he could raise this child alone and maybe after five years, he will go to Jakarta and maybe meet Handoyo.
Nadia took a slow breath and read the old edition of "Kartini" magazine in the house. I don't know who owned this house before. It's great that Steven chose this house and made it comfortable to live here. All the furniture is already there and there is only a motor to help him activity, no problem also for him, he also does not like to go far.
In the morning Nadia had cooked and it could run out until later in the afternoon, Nadia felt sleepy after eating and she chose to lie on the sofa of her home television room while watching TV.
The knock on the door of his house repeatedly seemed to be ignored because of his great drowsiness, until the knock on the front door was getting louder, and it made him get up and go to the door of the living room.
"Yes for a moment" Nadia's voice woke up while walking towards the door and when the door opened a little, the woman was flabbergasted and still surprised to see the guests coming.
"Nadia... I finally found you. baby !" Pramoedya pulled Nadia into his arms and hugged her for a long time.
"Mas Pram... Are you coming?" You've finally come..." Nadia said softly and seemed to be almost crying.
"Yes I'm coming. I want to pick you up .."
"Mas.we talk inside." Nadia pulls Pramoedya into the living room of her house. "What would you like to drink? Oh yeah I'm just here with hot water and no fridge, 'cause I've never been out of the house and gone all the way.."
"Nad, are you okay? Why don't you call me and let me pick you up.. I'm looking everywhere, baby?"
"I don't know. that night , the palace I was kidnapped, smothered and I don't know.. I think I was thrown into the abyss. I was rescued by the people near the prince's rock, Bandung.... fortunately I gk why-why... so I choose to hide here and do not do any activities...but from where do I know Pram, I'm here?"
"Mama Aleesha told me to accompany you here."
"Will Pram stay here with me?"
Pramoedya frowned and looked at his increasingly beautiful wife. Nadia's cheeks slowly
"What do you think I'm here for?" I'm your husband who will accompany you at all times."
"But I don't want to go back to Jakarta right now.I'm still afraid, Pram mas.."
"I'll accompany you here, baby, don't worry anymore.I'll take care of you and my son." Pramoedya hugged Nadia back. "How's my son doing? Is he fussy? you must be as long as I don't ever drink milk again right?
Nadia nodded in Pramodya's arms. "Yes, I don't buy milk, I just shop at the greengrocer every morning."
Pramoedya jerked." Tomorrow we go shopping... We buy into the city various household supplies and needs of our child .. emh, Nad ... now I can kiss my wife?" I miss you so much..."
Nadia surprised. All this time Pramoedya could never touch her even he never allowed this man to fuck her as long as they were married and now this man must have asked for her.
Nadia still did not answer, but the man has already********** with passion, At first he was so surprised and almost encouraged, but Big mama's message to hold Pramoedya next to him, making Nadia relented and letting the man channel her passion.
The man's treatment was a little savage in crashing him and sometimes did a gentle touch until Nadia was lulled for the first time by Pramodya. She enjoyed her first husband's treatment and without realizing it, she stroked and continued to enjoy it and allowed him to spill his liquid and enjoy the afternoon with sweat.
"I miss you, Nad...
"I am also... "Whispering Nadia slowly and a little sad, she still imagined Handoyo, but she enjoyed treating Pramoedya with her now, I don't know what's going on in her heart now.
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