My love is just one
55. My happiness is just the same as you

I know today is not a good day for you, because you who are always strong and independent must let others see you lying weak helplessly, he said,  but please don't do anything stupid for me because we're over.

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Ballawa was lying on one of the long sofas in the room. He refused to be given any action by the medical team provided by the police. Team 5 from Jakarta and the Ballawa family are not present yet.  They're still on their way to Cilacap.  The Cilacap police eventually took the decision to wait for team 5 to be present in Cilacap and helped persuade Ballawa to be given medical action to stop bleeding in his legs and arms.

Fortunately, Iptu Supriyanto managed to persuade Ballawa to communicate, so the police who became the main suspect of the shooting Alex was willing to ask for help on Iptu Supriyanto pick up Jessy who was with Alex.

Jessy's heart thumped up the 2nd floor and followed in Iptu Supriyanto's footsteps. Is Al really critical? Why would Al hurt Alex?  Isn't this what Al wanted that he should find another man so as not to wait for Ballawa to come back with him.

The thought made him almost hit the body of the police officer in front of him when the policeman suddenly stopped in front of a wooden door.Iptu Supriyanto opened the door of the room and gave the code for Jessy to enter the room.

"Come on Jessy's mom, she's waiting for you and please persuade her that she'll be operated on by a team of doctors, we're overwhelmed to persuade her!" he said he just wanted to talk to mom and just wanted to die afterwards.I'm sorry my words were a bit rude, that's his message earlier.... we are waiting here with a team of doctors who are preparing to take action.

Jessy just nodded without being able to say a word.

He saw the man who had filled his days and hurt himself so badly.  The man looked weak and helpless. The man who had been so strong and held by Jessy when he felt weak and helpless. It is fitting that he felt uncomfortable when accompanying Alex in surgery. Did Ballawa call him back?"

Why does Jessy feel Ballawa is alone? Why did he feel the always cheerful Ballawa became drastically changed. The man became a quiet man and had nothing in his soul. Ballawa was just like her who suffered from their separation.

'Al...  "Call Jessy to Ballawa.

The man only opened his eyes when he heard the voice Jessy had present next to him. Indeed, the pain of the shot was getting more and more felt and continued to attack all over his body. But he only felt he could no longer live if he who had failed Jessy still had to see Jessy marry a man he considered unworthy to accompany Jessy,

"you've finally come, Jessy!'

"Al... Why don't you have surgery? Diobatin huh?' Where's Al sick?"

"I'm not okay-why, Jessy... how is the villain? Is he dead from being shot?"

"Villain.. Which criminal is Al?"

"He's the one who wants to marry you. He's a criminal, Jess!" If it wasn't for that, there was no way I could be this close, I did it to protect you. I don't want you to marry the wrong person, Jessy.. I want to see you happy with the right person.

"Al.. my happiness should be with you, not with anyone else...even did you know that Umai came to see me when I was in the hospital.he said that you are not my soul mate and I have to let you go, Al... indeed he stressed that we must separate and we have no soul mate.

"Is Umai really coming to see you?" why didn't he tell me?" Ballawa asked in surprise because her mother came to see Jessy without telling her.

"Yes, when I was in Al's hospital, if I could replay it, I wanted to not know you, but we couldn't change fate if I could be selfish, I want you to be with me but I can do what if the whole world is against us.By me it's just you, but if I force it means I'm an evil and selfish woman, Al!"

"I'm sorry Jessy. I'm not forbidding you to marry, Jess!"  did you know that the man you are with is not a good person, he is part of the Handoyo team...

"I know... but he's always kind and willing to sincerely love me and marry me... Please let me marry him, let me be able to forget you, Al?   Al...you are also the one who said I should learn to let you go. Now please let me see you live with that woman and live your choice, let me see you succeed as your friend ...

"Okay, but if the criminal hurts you, then I'll kill him right in his heart and you can't hate me.... Jessy .. If I'm being honest, it hurts my heart to see that she can hold you and laugh with you. It hurts me so deeply, it hurts me so much from this bullet in my body!"

"Al...

"Jess, have you ever felt this way?"Tell me the truth, Jessy!"

"Verily every night I think of you Al.I think of you hugging and fondling your wife.I almost go crazy because of you, therefore, I want to try to accept others.  It was Jenny, Mas Handoyo and Alex who took my mind off you... but I have to do it if I don't think about taking you away from her!" I'm like you, too, Al. But what can I do?

"I'm sorry, Jessy.I should have told you the truth a long time ago.but I can't tell you the truth about my situation..... I'm sorry, Jess!"

"I can be friends with you but not with that criminal who became your husband!"

"Please don't hurt him, Al .... Alex is a good guy, Al!"

"Well, if he's a good man, then I'm the villain, Jess, go!" Let me die .. I've seen enough of you...

"ih ... what the hell..you used to dong, Al!" Jessy was a little angry. "You have to have surgery and I'll call the doctor, Al I'll wait for you to be operated on .. emh... This is actually your wits right?" You're afraid of surgery, aren't you?" I'll call the doctor first!"

Ballawa closed his eyes again and pretended not to hear Jessy mocking him and the woman walked to the door to call the doctor for surgery. It felt like he had never felt this weak before. And he really hated this feeling of his helpless self.

Is it true that he who had been brave is now afraid to face surgery. Not because of the operation. For him it is not a problem to have an operation.  Oh certainly not not afraid, just not ready for surgery. Stupid me, why can't I avoid Handoyo's shot. The man outside his expectations.  The handoyo was a real sniper.

The movement of the team of doctors who moved Ballawa's body to the treatment bed was felt to shake the pain in his arms and legs when he was closing his eyes.

When the doctor was about to inject 'em, Jessy asked the team leader for a minute to talk to Ballawa so that the team doctor would step aside for a while and let the two talk.

"Al...

"Hem...

"If your wife isn't here after you've finished surgery, then I'll see you?" Can I do that, Al?"

"There's no papa either. You're here."Sahut Al slowly.

"really ?"

"Hmmm... "Tell Al with still closing his eyes

" Al, I know today is not a good day for you, because you who are always strong and independent must let others see you lying helplessly, but please, please, Al don't do anything stupid for me anymore because between us it's over, but before we're really apart, there's something I have to tell you... "Tell Jessy quietly and whisper in the man's ear. "my love is only for you forever, Al. So you have to fight and stay alive and please hold on to my secret. Thank you for always trying to protect me."

Jessy smiled seeing Al open her eyes again. He took Al's right hand fingers, and frowned at the back of the man's hand.

Al just fell silent and choked to see Jessy's actions. Until the woman releases her hand and leaves. Al's consciousness finally came and instantly moved quickly. She pulled out the woman's body and hugged her tightly.

"In this world, I just love you, Jessy.

The shocked Jessy was drawn into the arms of the man who was previously lying on the bed. The man suddenly hugged her tightly. Al's words seemed to stir up their past. Until the man kissed her right on the lips. Their hearts become warm. This is the sincere kiss of a farewell. Jessy's eyes shed tears. He knew it was wrong but he missed Al. They are sick but they have to separate.

"I'm sorry too, Al.!'

The doctor who will be preparing to perform the operation is only able to shake his head and lyrics to fellow doctors. Jessy let go of the hug and ran away from Ballawa. His heart was not as painful as it was. They realize that they no longer have a chance together but they love each other but there is a gap in front of them .

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