My love is just one
73. Journey 3's

Don't spend time avenging others who are evil to us. Learn to forgive those who hurt us.  It's not easy to forgive someone, but you can learn!"

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Nadia and Handoyo are still on their way. They had almost entered the city of Bengkalis. And the journey was silent, until Handoyo started the conversation.

"Nad... I just remembered, while in Semarang, Steven was telling me .., he told me to approach a kyai in Bengkalis before Pekanbaru City .. ..he said that kiyai would show the way to find my mother's tomb, but he only said that kiyai was the leader of Al Hikmah boarding school... but I was only allowed to show photos to anyone before the kyai met me," Handoyo said as he glanced at Nadia who had remained silent since noon and often slept on the way.

"Nad... Can you help me ?" how's it?" Handoyo said softly and glanced at the occasional woman who seemed to keep her distance.

"Yes.. now we look for aja pesantren .. ntar in front there stalls we ask the way to pesantren Al Hikmah " Nadia said rather hoarsely because she had just woken up for a while.

Handoyo sidestepped his car and let Nadia down and asked a group of residents who were sitting in a coffee shop on the side of the road. When entering the car, Nadia brought info about boarding school and two hot coffee cups in plastic to refresh their trip.

"Four crossroads we take to the left and after that just straight until we meet the boarding gate. The leader of the boarding school was named Kiyai Umar. he said he was old and rarely met guests!" Nadia said while handing over plastic containing hot coffee tied up and there is a straw making it easier for Handoyo to drink coffee while meyedot hot coffee.

"Great you, get the information quickly!" But you're sure the information is accurate?'

"Yes, they won't lie. I said, so to them, I want to study religion and my parents told me before they died to meet the leader of the Al Hikmah boarding school, so they immediately answer it and look enthusiastic, there is no way they are lying and even they offer to take us..."

Handoyo was amazed by all of Nadia's skills in finding information quickly. He smiled and followed Nadia's direction in driving towards the pesantren. Not until thirty minutes the pesantren gate was visible and the car that Handoyo then entered the pesantren gate.

"Assalamualaikum sir.. Can we meet Kiyai Umar?" Say a handoyo to the gate officer who stopped him, and he opened the window of the car next to him so that the guards could clearly see the guests who came to the boarding school.

"Wa'alaikumussalam...what are the needs, the nights of finding kiyai Umar?" One of the guards answered kindly to Handoyo.

"Look sir, I asked my parents to study here, but I had to ask first with kiyai Umar because of my parents' message, he knew my parents before they died,"  Nadia said in a clear voice. "Can the fathers help us?'

Nadia leaned her body towards Handoyo so that the guards could see Nadai, They finally asked for the identity of one of them to be recorded before allowing the two to enter.

After meeting with the guard and staff of the boarding school, they were both allowed to meet tomorrow morning with the head of the boarding school.  Because it was late at night and they were both allowed to wait and rest in the pendopo in the pesantren where the room was very clean and comfortable.

There were also some people who were resting waiting there. Because he was tired of driving all day, Handoyo immediately fell asleep that night without cleaning himself. While Nadia got a resting place in the women's room which was separated from the pendopo but located not far from the pendopo and comfortable enough for her to sleep tonight.

Morning at Al Hikmah boarding school.

The sound of I looked at Azan Subuh woke up the guests in the pendopo and the nearest room.  All residents of pesantren without gathering in the mosque in the middle of the pesantren complex have to wake up to pray jama’ah in the mosque.

The shady and shahdu atmosphere did not escape the attention of Handoyo and Nadia.  Many old, young, and some small children lived their activities with great reverence for the Almighty.  Completed shubuhan activities, the residents of the boarding school studied at the mosque until 5:30 before returning to their respective dormitories.

Handoyo was uncomfortable with himself. He is not the type of man who easily gets along with anyone or mingles in a new environment.  Handoyo took a deep breath and tried to calm his heart thump and chose to go to the bathroom before he met the leader of this pesantren. Am I so stupid of God? Why am I like this? Why don't you move my heart back to you?"

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Handoyo and Nadia headed for the special pesantren's living room at exactly 08:00. They were promised to meet Kiyai Umar around that time. Handoyo excitedly entered the living room and chose to wait in one corner.

Luckily at the pesantren, they got breakfast for every guest who came and stayed at the pendopo. Breakfast with the same menu is also enjoyed by the residents of the boarding school. Fried rice and omelet. All residents and guests get the same menu and there is no class difference whatsoever. They don't have to go out for breakfast. Truly a friendly host, Handoyo thought in his heart.

"Mak Nadia and Mas Handoyo.. Can you follow me to the room where Kiyai receives guests in the back garden?" The voice of a fifteen year old young man

"Oh .. alright, please show me the direction," Nadia's answer gently.

They stepped following the young man who was walking a few steps ahead of them. This pesantren is very spacious, quiet and clean.  Handoyo was amazed at the education taught here, surely everyone here is a good person all. There is no one like him who is a sinner.

"Please. kiyai is waiting for you two," The boy asked Handoyo and Nadia to approach where Kiyai was sitting and he left his two guests without worrying.

"Assalamualaikum kiyai Umar"

" Wa'alaikumussalam, .. Come here son!"   Are you two looking for me at night ?"  The man's voice seemed very friendly and it was different from his appearance that seemed fierce and firm.

"True kiyai. if we are interrupting kiyai time, but we are confused.... "  Nadia tried to pull out a chair and sat down beside Kiyai and Handoyo chose to sit next to Nadia.

Handoyo is seen sitting quietly and staring at kiyai Umar but his heart is pounding.what if kiyai is his family, and what if he finds out that he is a murderer. How ironic. What if this man was his grandfather, was it worth him to be his grandson. Akh. This must be just a fantasy of him.

'Say son... don't be quiet... I know, actually the one who's looking for me is this guy, you're just his friend right?"  Kiyai Umar was already staring at Handoyo and Nadia sharply back.

Handoyo flinched for a moment before answering Kiyai Umar's question. It seemed that this old man had a strong premonition. Nadia nodded her head as if to code Handoyo to answer honestly.

"True kiyai... I want to ask kiyai. may I take out some photos, hopefully kiyai can explain it.. I get info that only kiyai can show my mother's grave,"

Handoyo took out a brown envelope from behind her jacket. Kiyai's eyes widened and he immediately raised his hand. The seal on the envelope was enough to explain why this young man was looking for her at night.

"Finally you came too. I've been waiting for you for so long. Don't take out those photos, I know who you are by looking at the sealed envelope, ... I think I know who you are "Kiyai Umar said softly and smiled bitterly at Handoyo.

"Certainly kiyai?" Nadia asked excitedly.

"You guys are "Big Mama , so that I can only tell two people that is the person you call Big Mama and also to you, Handoyo.... After I tell you everything, I can die peacefully!"

"Kiyai.... " Nadia asked in surprise.

" I owe my life to your mother, Handoyo, but I beg you to repent and learn to forgive all your enemies... . at first I was suspicious to see your Yona-like way of walking, but I was all, no way, you're the one, considering you should be in jail!"  Kiyai said as if whispering to Handoyo.

"Big Mama set him free, Kiyai!"  Nadia answered Kiyai lightly.

"Hemmm. means he still has a grudge, and when I meet you, ...then I think you guys will be clop, so that you can live quietly and not regret. The same message I once gave to Yona and the woman who now just wants to be called Big Mama. Stop taking revenge!"

"Sir kiyai can explain my background and why I can become a kara and have to live in an orphanage...!" How did Yona die and who was my father?"

'of course everything can and that's part of my promise to Yona... but can you promise me also later after listening to my story not to spend time by avenging others who are evil to us. Learn to forgive those who hurt us. I want you to not take another step wrong, Han?"

"sorry sir kiyai, I can't promise you anything I don't know yet..." Handoyo replied slowly. He felt bad arguing over older men and respected people including BIg Mama class.

"I'm guessing..you're exactly like Yona.. but what if the impact would hurt yourself ?"

"I will bear it kiyai," Handoyo said firmly and looked boldly at the kiyai.

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