My love is just one
146. Reaping the peace of mind

Understanding is the key to overcoming disappointment.

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Afternoon at 16:00,

Aleesha sits in a restaurant at the Mandarin Hotel in the Sudirman area. He sat down fretfully waiting for Handoyo who had promised to meet him here to talk about everything.Diteguknya orange juice drink in front of him to refresh his throat. It is fresher and makes it able to breathe more easily.

Aleesha really thinks Handoyo is her son who has been entrusted by Yona, the best friend. Although not his flesh and blood, he considers the man to be his son. Likewise Gaffar before he died had considered Adiguna which is the pseudonym of Handoyo as his son.

Handoyo's mistake incised a wound on him and it made Aleesha angry and disappointed. But he realized, who could have guessed that Handoyo could finally fall in love with Nadia and be influenced by the words of Nadia who made their mission half fail.

Aleesha had advised to clear the mission must be done by Handoyo and it should not fail, Nadia is a support team only, but they turned it over so that the mission failed.

Aleesha turned towards the entrance when someone entered the restaurant room which was indeed expensive so that only a handful of people could enter the place. Aleesha's expression did indeed manage to hide and continued to stare at the man she was waiting for.

Handoyo immediately sat down in front of Aleesha, the Big Mama, who had been waiting for him from twenty minutes ago. Handoyo knew his adoptive mother was disappointed at his failure due to yesterday's mission.

"Sorry mama, I was late. earlier in front of the roundabout HI there was a raid.." Handoyo explained why he was late.

"Yes...  Have you eaten?"

"Yet Mama..." Handoyo answered honestly, he was hungry and wanted to immediately enjoy whatever food was provided."

"Well we eat first.I actually ordered earlier and asked if you come, then the food is prepared!"

Aleesha raised her hand and gave the code to the female attendant who was near the cashier. The woman nodded in understanding.

Handoyo returned to talking to Big Mama slowly.

"Ma. I'm sorry about yesterday's mission.I know I was wrong but I can finish it after next year's elections, he asked me to wait.  he's gonna lay down his life on me"

"And you believe him?"

"Yes I believe in Him, Mama!"

"That's one stupidity that Yona passed on to you, Han!" He used to fool your mother and now you let him trick you, Han...!" oh why is stupidity lowered?" Aleesha was seen hitting her head repeatedly with a slight bang.

Handoyo who saw it, immediately pulled Aleesha's hand that would hurt her head.

"It's not so mama.. if General Gaffar is not dead, and Nadia is not injured and is pregnant... but he pleads for the good of our country.it is impossible for this country to be unprepared and there can be chaos everywhere without leaders, I don't want this country destroyed by my selfishness .. I can do it as soon as the elections are held and and the handover."

"What if he turns around and attacks you, Han?" He's a man he can't hold his word to."

"There's no way my mama. I know, she'll keep her word because yesterday when Nadia was shot, I was a little off guard and Ballawa almost shot me. She was willing to be my shield and Nadia ... so I guess, he couldn't have killed me, he must have kept his word, Mama, after all if he wanted to kill me, it should have been done yesterday."

"you're sure he's not drawing your sympathies?"

"no mama.. He did many times what made me believe enough that he cared and wanted to know me."

Aleesha looked at Handoyo's eyes and then their gaze shifted as the food arrived. Two officers arranged the food on the table and soon the food was enjoyed by both of them calmly. The food was warm and arranged attractively so that it immediately aroused the appetite of Handoyo who was hungry.

The clink of spoons and forks sometimes sounds occasional. They both enjoyed the food and enjoyed it.  There was no conversation at first, until a surprising Aleesha question, and made Handoyo pause for a moment.

"Yes.it's mine... Pramoedya had never touched Nadia during their marriage because Nadia was giving her medicine, he's gonna kill himself with my son. I have to let him go, Mama!"

"It's good that Nadia finally realized her mistake .. Let your son be Pramoedya's son. You're wrong, Han!" If you told me before they got married, that you loved each other, then I could cancel it!" in this position you're wrong to keep wanting Nadia back!"

"Mama... At that time I didn't know that I loved Nadia, I just realized I loved Nadia when they got married and I was angry and that night too ... I fucked her and we did it a few times...Pramoedya always made unconscious and did not know that in the womb Nadia is my son mama. so I should be with Nadia!"

"You owe Pramoedya too much, Han... " Aleesha replied calmly. "This is the will of the Almighty.You were exchanged to be saved by Kiyai Umar and your Mother and shown to everyone is Pramoedya...  and he replaced you for several years as a victim of Tiara, .. So I guess, this is when you pay your debt to Pramodya ... he'll be great with being a successful kid and they'll be happy."

"Now I love him and I want to be with my son, Mama ."

"If he's with you, then you can't be happy and maybe that kid will suffer like you... you want to give your son the best, don't you, Han?"

Handoyo fell silent and looked at Aleesha, who was her foster mother. If she can choose, she wants to be the one to raise her child with Nadia. But the problem is that he is not willing to let go of Nadia and the fruits of their love.

"Why can they be happy, whereas I can't, Ma?"

"Your line of destiny is not with them. You will replace me and raise the "Black Eagle." organization." Aleesha said as she put down her spoon and indicated that the meal was over.

Handoyo let out a long sigh, he felt he had no choice and leaned back on the chair he was sitting on. " I was wrong.. I realized too late that I loved her, so Nadia did not believe me and all my explanations, ma....but if Nadia asked me to come back, may I come back to her?"

"Yes, if it is Nadia who asks for it and you are ready with all the risks .. But you must not interfere with their lives or appear in front of them, let Nadia and your son find you, but if none of them come to see you, then never see them, just look from afar!" Can you do that, Han?"

"I'll try, Mama!" Handoyo replied with a bit of confidence.

"That's not the answer, Han!"

"Why did mom force me?" Handoyo is not happy, because he feels that Big Mama is a little unfair to him and tends to defend Pramoedya.

"I've met Jessy. I already know about her and her greatness, even Nadia has told me the contents of her prophecy if you are together and it will harm your child ... Nadia it is not your soul mate and also. I do not like you snatch someone's wife. Don't do it like that, even though our work is dirty but only for certain cases, but only for certain cases, not hurt people who have done us good in the past. You know Pramoedya without realizing it, has sacrificed a lot for you... I think it's your time to reap the peace of heart by letting it go"

Handoyo was still silent and digested Aleesha's words. The woman continued to stare at him intensely.

"Ha..  Jessy says you're gonna lead and raise this organization until your soul mate comes to pick you up, and then you let go of this organization and give it to someone else."

"Why do you believe Jessy's prophecy!"

"I used to be just like Jessy and I threw away my abilities. After meeting Jessy, I finally felt the ability to return and before Gaffar died, I already knew it... Han... release Nadia, your soul mate will meet yourself and you will be happy together!"

Handoyo was silent for a long time.

"Han.. It's fine that you trust Jessy, but I want you to let go of Nadia and Pramoedya!" We focus on our organization!"

"I will try, but if Nadia and my son, are hurt by Pramoedya's actions, then I'll take it and give up my promise to you, but if they live happily, then I will, then I'll stay away and forget them, Mama." Handoyo eventually relented to Aleesha with legowo.

'Thank you Han.. Now let's discuss our mission after the election!"

"I make sure you won't be disappointed again.please be patient."

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