My love is just one
134. Self Conscious

The first thing you need to understand is your current position. You are the second choice of my. You can't ask her anything anymore.

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After bidding farewell to his adoptive parents, Adiguna chose to go home to the house the company gave her. Tired of running errands today but it feels quite comparable to what he got because at least he can talk and do activities together with people who should accompany his childhood.

Adiguna asked, What did the man do when his mother who was carrying a baby was shot by his legal wife. But the message of Kiyai Umar who asked him to keep his identity secret for the safety of himself and the boarding school in Bengalis. He asked the most determined man in the country.

Moreover mama Aleesha promised that their action would be done in Jakarta, and Nadia would come to her aid. Is he really coming? Her heart was suddenly happy, as she recalled their forbidden deeds done several times and it made Nadia pregnant. Does Pramoedya know that she's pregnant with my son?"

The woman promised not to let Pramoedya touch her while there was a child in her womb. Can the woman really take care of herself?  What if Nadia now enjoys Pramoedya's treatment. Who knows what they're doing there.

Jealous and angry make Adiguna immediately take a bath to refresh his mind. After the bath his mind was a little fresh. She remembered Nadia's promise, that if her husband touched her then he would kill her. It makes Adiguna calmer considering he understands Nadia very well.

Hemm. He certainly can. Adiguna smiled bitterly considering Nadia who was not currently with him.  He should have forced Nadia beside him. But the woman has a goal of wanting revenge on Pramoedya and Tiara, so she lets Nadia go. Especially after Jessy predicted their togetherness could be bad for their children. It was the thing that scared Nadia the most about their togetherness.

It felt like Adiguna wanted to talk to Nadia and ask her what made her stay with Pramoedya. He wants to always be with Nadia and see the development of children in Nadia's womb

Adiguna chose to brew his own coffee in the back kitchen and he was sure the two housekeepers had rested in their respective rooms.Tonight he planned to clean up the office work that had been taken care of by his assistant. He had to study it because he was not in the office long enough.

While reading some of the reports on his desk it sounded like someone was opening the back door of his house.

KreKK.....

The sound of the back door was like being held to make a quieter sound. Adiguna fell silent in his chair and assured him whether his two associates were awake or there was a burglar in his house. This is not their move. Hemm...

It must be a nice thing if this house turns upside down after a long time he does not exercise. I want to fight with someone.

Adiguna remained silent flinching to hear the steps of a walking person who settles down and headed for his study. And the door of his work began to open slowly, Adiguna widened his eyes, and his right hand prepared to throw scissors on his desk.

The door opened and...

"Mas Han ..... Do you miss me?" Shouted Nadia as she opened her hands and ran towards the Adiguna desk.

"Nadia... When did you come?"

"As soon as Big Mama told me to come back to help you.. mas Han wasn't happy to see me back?"

Nadia put on a sullen expression as she looked at Handoyo's face which was shocked at her arrival.

"Not unhappy, Nad. When did you come?"" Where's your husband ?"

"I came this morning with Pram's mas.he fell asleep after I gave him the medicine... " Nadia said with a meaningful smile. "Every time he wanted to touch me. I definitely gave him medicine..he never managed to touch me mas.. only in his brain... This child is his child!"

"Nad... We just leave him and his family..We live where there are only us and our children, Nad?" I don't want to see you scream.forget Jessy's prophecy!"

"No. Let it go like this, Han." Nadia sits on Handoyo's thigh. "You miss your son didn't mas?"

Nadia started moving over Handoyo. His fingers moved arbitrarily and provoked the man who was still confused by the arrival of Nadia in the middle of the night.

Adiguna who was originally still silent but finally affected when Nadia's fingers moved wildly throughout her body and made something that had been held turbulent.More soft whispers Nadia and her tongue that moves in her ears make it increasingly unable to resist his desire in the work room.

"My son wants to meet his father, Mas Han"

"I miss you, too, Nadia....

"Nad, I miss you very much, .. leave Pramoedya. I realize I can't live without you. Let's start our lives from the beginning.I can take care of you and my son."

"Mas Han... Do you know why I did this?'

"You have a grudge against Pramoedya.. He raped you, right?" It doesn't matter to me that it's important we're together and I can see my son well!"

"That's one reason, but there are other reasons... " Tiara said as she picked up her shirt and put it back on." I want Suhartono to be hurt because of the boy she really loves the most... hurt because a loved woman loves another man even conceives the child of a dear man."

"You have a problem with him too?" Adiguna was surprised to hear another reason for Nadia's hatred.   "Did Big Mama know this secret?" And he let you marry him?"

"Initially Big Mama prevented me from even asking me to think again, but because of the rape case it made Big Mama finally let me over General Gaffar agree to know Pramoedya loves me."

"You love Pramoedya, Nad?'

"No... My love is only one for you, but unfortunately you only love Lidya."

"I'm sorry Nad.. I love you too, Nad. Can you leave Pramoedya?'

"Can't mas Han.you have my heart and my body.but I have a big plan.I want to kill Suhartono and his wife."

"We can let go of all that grudge Nad. provided we can be together. ... Now I realize that I can't live without you, Nad."

"It's for our son's sake.You remember what Jessy said, if we're not together, our son can live well."

" all right....May I know why you hate her so much?"Tell me Nad" Handoyo persuaded Nadia by hugging her from behind.

The man stroked Nadia's belly which began to grow bigger.  "He's okay in there?"

"Yes.he's very smart and understanding like his father!"

"Thank God... Can you tell me why you hate those two so much?"

"Here my mother was the financial staff in command of this army and she was still the Chief of Staff of the Army and at that time my father was only one of the soldiers but. my father died in the line of duty in Aceh, and according to the information from which I got it was due to the trap of Suhartono... Blame me for hating him.." Nadia said quietly and started crying." Because of my mother's stupidity and because she was a widow with two children, she often got money and groceries from her boss, then she became Suhartono's mistress ... he fell in real love with the jerk, and it was eventually discovered that Tiara had injected my mother with poison.... I only found out when I was Big Mama's right hand.I thought it was my life, Han."

Degs.. Handoyo was quite surprised to hear everything. Would Nadia hate him if he told her who he was.This is a game of fate.Should he say? Akh... Needless to say, because Nadia did not ask him.

"Wrong is Han...if I hate Suhartono and his wife?"

"No Nad. You are not wrong. I will help you get rid of them...!" I hate them too. We can be a strong team Nad. We will do it all together!"

"Mas Han.. enough we can be together like this. let this be our secret.I'll meet you later."

"Nad...

"I have to go back. We'll see you in two days at Big Mama's.."

The woman immediately got up and left Handoyo in her study. Darted and disappeared from Handoyo's sight.   "I always loved you Han."

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