You & Dusk
Confession of Love

It was as if I was hearing Alfy say my name. I don't know what to respond to, I just don't want to be overconfident. Maybe the Arman he's talking about isn't me.

Quite a long time the atmosphere was quiet, until Alfy finally resignedly tried to avoid the situation very awkward. I heard him say hello and then he turned around. I'm still like a statue, stiff lips trying to say but I can't.

I finally raised my hand and slapped myself hard. So hard Alfy turned around in shock at the sound of a slap of myself. "Wait.. Alfy.." I said after slapping myself.

Alfy stared, he was a little surprised to see my right cheek flushed red from the hard slap I made.

"Arm.. What Arman you like is.. Me?" ask slowly.

"i don't know any other Arman. The only Arman I know is one" he explained.

"ja.. Be like? Alfy... ka. ka. ka.. you su. ka. sa... sama ak... me?" gagu say.

"men are insensitive" he said lowered his head.

Enough with that, it made me happy half of my life. I subconsciously expressed happiness excessively in front of Alfy.

"whooaaaa.. Yyesss... Waaaaa." I muttered like a possessed man.

"Arm.. Why?" ask Alfy who saw my behavior.

"e.. Hehe sorry Fy.. So now.. We?" I said while pointing at him.

Now I'm really happy. Things that I thought were impossible, are really happening now. Even though I'm a shocker because I'm not the one who expresses feelings, but Alfy was the one who expressed them first.

"Arman.I don't know what you feel like to me." said Alfy.

He did not finish speaking, and I cut off his words.

"i like.. I LIKE YOU TOO. From the beginning I've put my heart to you, I just don't trust myself, I.. I just hold. But thank you, today I'm relieved.. Because you have the same taste as me. I.." I said excitedly.

"Arm.. Listen to me." Alfy said cutting my words.

"e yes Fy, why?" much

Alfy's face was flushed red and didn't look like he wanted to lift his face, and he kept his head down. "i said, I like you. But.. It doesn't change anything, I just admit my feelings." he said.

"iiya Fy's.. I like you too. It means we're already.."

"i can't. I can't keep up with what you're thinking right now" Alfy said.

"huh, why Fy?" I'm confused.

"i can't. L am.. Do I have to explain the reason to you." Alfy explained still confused.

"i don't understand, you like me and I like you too. Then why don't you want us to be, what's wrong with that?" I said as I approached.

I tried to hold both shoulders to convince Alfy of my feelings.

"I'm sorry, don't hold it" he said swiftly pull over my hand that wanted to hold both shoulders.

Seeing Alfy's reaction like that, I realized. I was so happy that I forgot Alfy's true identity.

Yeah, that's right too. She's not just any woman, she's not like most women, she's a woman who keeps her honor.

"what's because dating is haram?" many spontaneous.

He likes me, yeah.. He just likes nothing more. Besides he's too sholehah for me who's still struggling with the same sin.

"i guessed it.. From the start I didn't deserve you, which is what I avoided when I realized I had feelings for you." My words bowed.

I don't know why, the atmosphere got more awkward. I was so happy that I hated myself. Unknowingly I turned around in annoyance I walked away.

As I started to step up, Alfy suddenly held onto the arm of my shirt. "Arm.. Please sorry. I didn't mean to play with your feelings."

My face looked at Alfy with annoyance. Without a second thought I said all my frustration to him.

"you mean what? If you say such feelings just to reinforce your feelings, you better not say that you like me, because I'm finally like someone who is being played with.. No kidding. My feelings can't accept the reason you're saying." I said a little snapping at him.

Alfie was surprised to hear that. I saw him start to shed tears. "do you have to date?" tanyanya seraya sobbing.

"want what? Do we still have to be friends after what you told me, after I also confessed my feelings? Do you just think we're more worthy of friends?"

Alfy was still downcast, he sobbed to hear my words in an annoyed tone to him.

"e.. Sorry Fy. I'm sorry.. I.." I said seeing him shed a few tears.

"no papa."

"Alfy, can't we be in a relationship? I really like you. L'm.. I promise to be serious with you, I'll marry you later.. I.." I said with sweet promises.

He shook his head while his hands were still holding the shirt part of my hand.

"i don't know what to say now." My word.

"i don't need a sweet speech, just prove it" he said straightforwardly still sobbing.

"of course, I'll prove it.. I'm serious." I once again broke the promise.

"enough. If it's serious, please come to the house and talk to my father." said Alfy, taking his hand off my long-sleeved shirt.

After she caught it, she ran away from me. Leaving me behind who's still digesting what he said. After he left, I just stared at dusk until dusk came night, leaving a restlessness.

"so he wants you to marry me" Wahid said in response to the story I told him.

"yes.. That's it."

"it's crazy, too, to get married." Wahid.

"if you meet a woman like her, you will surely understand." I replied.

"how are you?" the question is still with curiosity.

"he forgot me. He forgot who I was." I said.

"uh uh? Forgot it? Meaning bro?"

"bro, that's it. I don't want to remember that anymore." I said standing up.

"eh Arman, giggling. Straining. Finish the story."

"sorry, I'm in a hurry. I have a promise with my Mama." I said as I say goodbye to Wahid who looks dissatisfied with the story I told him.

I left Wahid upset because the story I told him wasn't finished. Of course I want to tell you the truth but after I think it's okay, it hurts to remember that thing. Because the pain is multiplied, I just don't want to be overshadowed by pain and guilt all at once.

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