You & Dusk
Jealous

Located in sospol faculty..

In the cafeteria where my friends used to spend their pocket money and hang out if there was no college.

"Arm.. Whoi!" Wahid shouted and raised his hand.

I saw Wahid, as if he was sitting with a woman at this time. I'm approaching her..

"Where are you, bro? I've been waiting for you." He said, looking annoyed but from his gait he was a little happy because maybe he could be alone with the woman who is currently with him.

"Sorry bro, I accidentally met a friend. Talk of preoccupation so forget the time." I said with a meaningful smile.

Yes, it is meaningful because thanks to the woman I met, my mood is better now. I was a little bit taken care of by him.

An hour or so I talked a lot with Evelyn, if it wasn't for her having to do something maybe I was still with her.

"Oh yeah, know this!" Wahid introduced the woman he was with.

"Name Acha.." Wahid.

"Sister.." Greet that woman.

"Cha' is Arman.. My classmate's an alumnus." Wahid.

I just smiled to see the girl.. I'm not surprised, it looks like this woman named Acha is a new gebetan from Wahid.

"So how is this.. What is there to do on campus?" Ask Wahid.

"No, I happen to have a friend's appointment at the rector's building." Of course what I said was a lie, the reason I came to college was because.. I can't meet Ivan.. No, it's not that I can't but don't want to see Ivan.. He was my best friend, but.. It hurts.

"Oh that.. So, what's the plan ahead?"

The question I get the most from people after I graduate is this question..

Many people think that graduating from college is the end of their journey.. True, it was the end of the study period but for the real journey of life it was the beginning.

The beginning that makes not a few people will be agitated with his choice.. There are many ways to go when you finish college. It could be by continuing education to a higher level, can be by finding work, or running a business.. Or something else.

There are many paths, but not easy.. The mentality must be ready. The steep and rocky road awaits.. But for what... People say to success.

What is success? Most say success is department and power. If it is like that, even I am confused about the future.

"Arm.. Man.."

"Oh yes, sorry-sorry.."

"Why the hell?"

"No, no papa.. I still don't think I'm gonna do anything."

"Oh, yeah.. Just relax. Just don't think too late. Haha." Wahid laughed lightly.

"So, how.. The other kids. Still going to college with them?" I asked about my classmates at college.

"Hm.. I met Aan yesterday. He's still active in the organization."

Our conversation continues.. The one that took the most attention was of course Gina. He disappeared completely, heard nothing from him.

While Adi is currently back in his area, maybe I will not see him again.

Brainstorm.. Last time I met him, I,.. A week ago at a graduation ceremony with Ica.

I remember back.. After my thoughts were muddled due to the bitter reality of the engagement between Ivan and Alfy.. Now I remember that my friendship was broken.

What destroys it all is love..

One word that's so sickening right now if I hear it. Once again, I am not a lucky person because love does not come to make my life happy, but it ruins everything.

Long enough Wahid and I talked, as the day began to afternoon.. I decided to go home.

I just stood up from my chair, in front of me right now.. Alfy smiled and greeted me.

"Somali.." Sweepings.

"Alb.. Fina.." I said awkwardly.

"Tumben meet here!" said.

"Man's.. Who?" Wahid rebuked my conversation with Alfy, he nodded because he wanted me to introduce Alfy to him.

"Oh yes.. Fin, this is my classmate Wahid and this is Acha's friend." I said while pointing at Wahid and Acha.

"Bro.. This is Fina or Yana or.. Ah already. This is Ivan's future wife." My speech.

"Hey.." Wahid said hello.

Alfy smiled at Wahid and Acha.

"So what do I call him?" Wahid was confused because I mentioned some names.

"Call Fina, my friends used to call me that." Obviously Alfy.

"Oh yes.. Congratulations anyway! At his wedding." Wahid.

"Not married, yet,.. God willing next year." Reply Alfy.

"Oh.. Hehe.. Sorry." which."

"Fin, sorry I-I want to go first." It felt heavy to be around him for a long time.

"Why? Rush yeah?"

"Y-yeah, sorry I.."

"Arman has eaten? Ask Alfy suddenly.

"It's not like that, because I've been here with him.. I saw him order nothing." Wahid interfered by answering Alfy's question.

"Lohs.. Eat first. I happen to be hungry too.. Eat together yuk, I happen to wait for Citra here."

I'm silent for a moment.. Alfie.. He spoke to me as if everything was fine. What's wrong with this girl.. Is he pretending.

"Arm.. How's it?" Said.

"Not Fin, I'm full.

"Oh yes.. Today, Ivan is leaving for Japan. He called me earlier said he didn't get to see you because you're going to college."

"And Ivan wanted to see you.." Alfy said of Ivan. Ivan's.. Ivan and Ivan..

What's wrong with this girl.. Why doesn't he remember me? Wh why? Did he hate me for the bad words I said to him and his family back then.. Wh why? Why is he tormenting my mind so much..

"Yes, I have a sudden affair at the rector's building." My tone now began to taper as he spoke of Ivan.

"Hm, you're going to the rectorate?"

"Yes.."

"With a t-shirt?"

I saw my clothes.. Black t-shirt with blue jens pants. Obviously, with such disrespectful clothes I will not be allowed to enter the rectorate building.

"Twad.. Ah already.. Fin sorry I have to go. Assalamualaikum.."

I'm elapsed.. Leaving Alfy,.. Leaving Wahid astonished at my behavior.

Alfy pouted, he looked gloomy watching me leave while acting indifferent to him.

L'm.. I really don't know what to do now. I walk, keep walking.. I vented my frustration while kicking the trash can I passed.. Kicking an empty can on the street.

I don't even know why I'm so sorry for him.

Looks like the medicine Evelyn gave him only lasted a few moments. Right now my mind is back in turmoil, just by seeing Alfy my heart is back in chaos..

L'm..

Jealous..

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