You & Dusk
Jealous

(Flashback Part)

Someone once said about life, if your life is not in accordance with the wishes then it is better to die. It's just that there's something wrong with his statement, how can someone live not according to his wishes? He is free to choose in his life what he wants to do. The problem is the absence of effort or lack of effort to get what you want.

It can be said 'many styles are not directly proportional to effort' until we fail and blame ourselves, believe the real failure when we stop trying and do not want to try again.

Maybe that's all I can say to Ilham when yesterday he looked moody on campus. I am not a wise man who can advise someone and turn that person into an optimist again, but I also do not want to see Inspiration like a person who is desperate because of trivial things. Trivial thing called love, such a thing? It depends on the perception of each person.

Later Ilham did not look like himself anymore, he could not hide the feeling when he saw Ica, the woman he loved along with other men. You could say this is the climax of a taste he never revealed.

In short, Inspiration can no longer hold back its jealousy. He was worried that every time he was on campus, I knew from the look in his eyes that it was very clear how he felt right now. So beware if you have to meet Ica is alone with Irwan, the man who defeated Ilham and won the heart of women he adored so far.

Like yesterday, today I saw him like that. Like there was something empty on him, something that caused a big hole in his heart. "What if you help us in the committee." Adi said.

"males bro." Short reply.

"why Ham? Lemes is very." My word.

"safe bro." Again, he answered briefly.

I glanced at Adi giving a sign about Ilham's condition that is not as usual.

"Came?" said Adi.

"hi guys." Ica Reply.

"eh Ca' from where?" ask me.

"out the same way Irwan. He said he wanted to go to SMEs first so I stopped by here first while waiting for his business to be done."

"ohh." said Adi.

"Which girl?"

"today he's not going to college." Reply Adi.

"where do you want Wahid?"

"or else he Ca', the man will be busy." My answer.

Ica looked at Ilham who was staring at his smartphone but with a blank look. "Ilham why are you? How can you like that lemes." Ica says.

"hm." Murmuring Inspiration followed by a nod of the head.

"Ham.. It doesn't happen to you, it's why you?" I said.

"oh, not papa." Flat reply.

Ica looked at me and saw Adi as if giving a sign and asked about the condition of Inspiration today. I who actually know should pretend not to know, so Adi gave a sign to Ica that he did not know anything. "continue how the welcome maba?" ask Ica.

"huffs... Continue the night back to backdrop work for the show later. Work another night." Adi said complaining.

"spirit guys." Ica said cheering.

Lately Ica looks happy, I think her relationship with Irwan is going well. Maybe Irwan is conscious and can now make Ica happy without having to find another woman again.

I'm glad Ica can be like this, only I would be more happy if Ilham can also be like Ica. I don't want to side with any of them, but still as a man I seem to lean towards Inspiration because I'm concerned to see him having to hold back his feelings.

Behind Ica also rarely gathered with all of us, considering the time spent with Irwan. It turns out that if you already have a special person then the time with friends will decrease.

If two people are together on the basis of love, their time will definitely be spent together building love, until they forget that precious time should also be shared with those around them. At least that's what's happened in my experience all along. "Ca' come.." Irwan came and called Ica.

"yes wait for me. Guys I'm going first yeah." Pamit Ica to us.

"iya Ca'." I reply.

Adi signed with his hand while Ilham did not respond at all.

"Ham, lupain Ica." I said frontally

Hearing that Inspiration turned to me, he looked at me sharply. "on this campus there are many other girls, why do you have to imprison yourself to think of girls who don't think of you at all." Obviously once again.

The gaze of Inspiration grew sharper on me, as if it did not accept my words.

"Arman has it." Adi said to signal me not to say anything unnecessary.

But I think I have to say this, I have to get Ilham out of the prison he's been in since he was five.

"Ilham, now you are free to choose. But if you want to keep choosing Ica, then don't be quiet like a coward." Because carried away the atmosphere I did not think before holding it to Ilham.

In the end Ilham laughed at my words, but he did not laugh because it was funny. He laughs at himself. "go back first." Inspiration stood up and turned around.

"Ham.. Brainstorm. Wooh." I said try to hold it.

I held her back from behind with the intention of apologizing because my words had gone too far. What I said was like I didn't know Inspiration, I was like a stranger who just knew him. Maybe that's how I felt when I heard my words.

Inspiration ignored me and began to move away from me. "huhhh.. What a boy that is." I said pissed.

"reasonable bro. Let him think." Reply Adi.

It seems Adi understands better how Inspiration feels compared to me. However he is my friend, I must apologize to him.

Looks like my friendship this time is being tested, sometimes love and friendship like the North and South close that can not meet. Someone has to give up, someone has to leave one of the closures so that the relationship is not broken. What else this is just a trivial matter, yes trivial in my opinion but according to Inspiration maybe not. So I had to give up and apologize to him.

"Man Wahid said in a moment of meeting, we are told to gather in a normal place." Adi said he got the WA message from Wahid.

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