You & Dusk
Hate to be Love

(Flashback Part)

I still can't accept the vague reality. I convinced myself not to think too much about the worst. If I meet with Alfy once again, I will directly ask him.

Since Ilham et al had been waiting for me in the usual place, I rushed to where they were. In the middle of the road precisely in the complex park SME secretariat campus I saw Ica sitting alone.

Without a second thought, I immediately approached him. "Hi Ca's'.. What's in here?" I said trying to say hello.

"Arm.. Nothing to do." Ica's reply looks lethargic.

As I approached, I saw her eyes glazed over like she wanted to cry. "loh.. You're not papa, are you?" I said asking her how she is right now.

"no papa Man.." he looked like he was pretending to be strong.

"Ca 'Ca'... You're not papa, are you?" once again I asked in a soft tone while squatting in front of him who was sitting and bowed.

Only he wanted to talk, maybe because it was not able to bear the end Ica cried. Closing her eyes that kept running water, I tried to comfort her.

"City.. I was right here. I always support you, whatever it is. Trust me the same." I said trying to calm down.

"Man's.. Irwan.. Irwan*********" he said while crying.

"iya Ca' yes.. What's wrong with him?" I said as he shrugged his shoulders trying to calm down.

"he's a hunk***Man.. She.." I heard sobs.

"tanang Ca's'.. Relax.."

"Irwan Man's brash guy.. But... But... I love her." Ica said still with her cry.

I comforted and comforted Ica, though now I've been seen by the people in the park since, maybe they think that I'm the bad guy who made Ica cry like this. if anyone had recorded this incident and uploaded it to social media I would have been the object of nitijen.

Slowly Ica began to open up, wiping her tears she told me the problem.

They finally met and told me a lot of things. It can be said Irwan managed to make Ica comfortable and from there arise feelings. The meeting was more intense, it also made Ica postpone returning home during the holidays last semester.

Until finally Ica completely melted and her heart has been stolen by a master thief named Irwan. At first Ica was happy to get to know Irwan's good side like that, but over time Ica found out that Irwan was in a relationship with other women.

Even though Ica knew that, Ica could not hate Irwan because her heart had once again been stolen. Ica persists on the grounds that she is good friends with Irwan. Of course the reason was deliberately made up so that he had that reason to stay close to Irwan.

Irwanpun's attitude is like opening hope for Ica, making Ica more blind to the fact that Irwan is just playing with his feelings.

Maybe this is one of the effects if someone is affected by love disease. Like I said before that love is a virus to logic, shutting down logic and forcing the heart to hurt.

Idiotically.. Jaa... Because love closes the logic of thinking of a person, even though there are thorns in his eyes, then by closing his eyes he will walk through the thorn. Of course, it can only hurt without knowing the end of the thorn that is passed. "Ca' I'm confused, what should I do? Your friend.. A very valuable friend. Seeing you like this I don't have the heart, I'm angry but confused I should be mad at Irwan or at you Ca'." I said.

Ica looked down and her eyes were still dripping with water. "City.. So plis.. You missed him yeah." I said once again.

"i can't Man.. If I could've done it." He hadn't finished talking yet he came back crying.

I don't know what else to say. I could only continue to be next to her as she cried out all her emotions. A moment later my smartphone rang, when I saw the phone from Ilham.

"yes, hello Ham." I said I picked up the phone from him.

"Man's.. Where the hell are you? Not done yet, business at the rectorate?" ask Ilham.

For a moment I was silent because I did not know what to answer, Ica saw me as if to give a sign that I should not say what is happening now to anyone. Finally I told Ilham that I was still in the rectorate and had just finished about three and a half hours.

Of course I am sorry to see Ica's condition now, so I decided to accompany her to this place until she was completely satisfied to forget her negative emotions with a cry.

Like I said to Ica, I'm confused who I want to be angry with? Angry at Irwan? But on the other hand Ica himself already know the nature of Irwan and still choose hope and survive, sometimes love can be this stupid.

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