You & Dusk
Ego

(Flashback Part)

I lay staring at the ceiling of my room roof, my mind still muddled after what happened this afternoon. It wasn't just Alfy who didn't want me, it turned out that Evelyn did too.

He thought he might cheer me up a bit and say that he likes me too, then reject my confession. But it hurt me even more, for what he said that and then stringing excuses with his sweet lips just to deny my feelings.

Now I know, if I'm not as naive as Wahid says because I'm too hasty in admitting. Suppose I were more sensitive to the situation I wouldn't be this disappointed.

But after thinking the first reason Evelyn rejected me had a point. We have different beliefs and it's not easy in a relationship.

True Evelyn said when asking my ability to convert for her sake and I said I could not. Maybe he'll be like that when I ask.

But is it true that love cannot be united just because of a matter of belief? Thought.

If he were a Muslim, would he accept my confession? But after I wanted to go back, Evelyn had two reasons for rejecting me.

The second reason I don't understand, I'm lying? How could I plead for my feelings? It could have been an excuse Evelyn made up.

"assalamualaikum." The door to the room opened with Ivan's entry.

"waalaikumsalam hall. Ivan, where are you from?"

"Shaalat isya in the mosque. Have you prayed?"

"just now." my bag.

"don't you pray in Man's mosque?"

"it's important to pray Van."

"be careful. More prayers in the mosque for men. Here yeah.. Rasulullah..

'The congregational prayer’ah is more main 27 (twenty seven) degrees than the prayer alone.' (Surday Bukhari, Muslim)

"Try shadow Man, the difference is far" he continued.

"iya Ivan. Next time." I'll reply.

Since becoming a convert, Ivan often advised me. His religious knowledge every day is upgraded by following a study together with Sabri. "Ivan, is your intention to marry the woman you met still there?" my many.

Ivan who had been reading the book Tafsir Qur’an turned to me. "insyaallah Man. Doain is just."

"now that I don't deserve that woman, I have to steady myself first and then see her again" he continued.

I was surprised, Ivan so converted maybe not a month but his words and behavior really changed drastically. He is like Uztad in my eyes.

"set yourself up." I murmured.

"why Man?" tanyakanya.

"e don't papa Van, I'm talking to myself."

"oh.. Coincidentally some time ago I met him at the Campus Mosque. God, she looks beautiful, I want to stop it immediately" she said laughing.

"who's Van? The woman who made you convert to Islam." I said.

"yes, and you know, I happened to meet him on the street again. Not in the street, but in the Masjid Habis salat magrib."

"keep going." I said, starting to get curious.

"i keep on beating him. I said right now I am learning. Trus I told you again that I felt I deserved to go to his house to meet his father." Ivan.

"what did he say to you?" my many.

"she didn't say anything, she just smiled at me and left."

"hm.. I wish that woman was your soul mate." I said.

"thank you bro." he replied while continuing to smile.

Ivan managed to eliminate the pain when betrayed by Dian, if Ivan can why can't I? I have to forget Alfy and Evelyn. Two women who broke my mood today.

In addition to his interesting love story, Ivan and his mother's relationship has begun to improve. Even though Ivan has not left my house and returned to his residence.

Ivan often tried to call his mother even though he was not picked up several times, even if only raised insults and maki received Ivan but with patience and change in the positive direction that Ivan showed to his mother made his mother's heart melt.

Next week his mother will visit to meet Ivan to talk about their problems.

Ivan understood very well, after he followed the study and studied Islam more deeply that the position of a mother in Islam is fatal. A Muslim must be devoted to his mother, even though she did evil to him. Because heaven will be very far without parents, especially Mother.

Sebeb Mother is very special in the eyes of Islam. Their position is higher than that of a father as the hadith spoken by the Prophet Shallahu Allaihi Wassalam when one of his companions asked.

“who is the Messenger of Allah, who do I most deserve to treat well? The Prophet replied: Your mother. Then who else? The Prophet replied: Your mother. Then who else? The Prophet replied: Your mother. Then who else? The Prophet replied: your father, then the one who is closer after and after” (HR. Al Bukhari in Adabul Mufrad, sanadnya hasan).

Ivan was well aware, when the Prophet mentioned Mother three times in a row. After Ivan knew the hadith he was always active in contacting his mother.

He walked out in front of the Medical Faculty. Looks like he's working on something in the LAB with some of his friends until he's forgotten about time.

Arriving outside, he then waited for public transportation that was operating around the campus. Because he was tired enough to stand he decided to walk across the street because across there was a stop to sit.

Before he crossed, suddenly the sound of a car horn from his left which contained a parking lot was heard. The car was pointing at him, the car window went down and in the car he saw it was his senior Riyal."Evely.. You went home alone?" ask Rialal.

"eh Brother. I'm going home alone on the angkot."

"just me, will you?"

"no, brother, good geek."

"no papa, I'll take you home." Riyal said opening the side door of his car.

Not having enough courage to turn down her senior Evelyn ends up getting into the car delam. "tumben home alone?" ask Riyal while driving.

"yes, brother."

"Where's arman?"

"uhh. Don't know, sister." replied Evelyn.

"i've seen him pick you up, not pick you up today?" ask Rialal.

Evelyn is increasingly distressed by Riyal's questions about Arman because of the incident earlier this afternoon between her and Arman.

"Sister.. Actually, this afternoon, brother Arman shot me." Evelyn.

"oh, so you're officially made" said Riyal who knows nothing.

"i refuse her sister." explains Evelyn.

"uh uh? The nolak? Why emang?"

Hearing that Riyal was curious. "I like it with Brother Arman." Evelyn said with a heavy tone.

"why do you refuse?"

"Son Arman lied the same thing himself. He doesn't like me, he likes other women. In his eyes.. I see it clearly in his eyes.. His gaze when looking at the woman he likes rather than looking at me, his gaze is much more sincere with the woman." explained Evelyn who began to sob.

"hm.. Is that sure you are?"

"yes, brother, I'm sure. Arman really likes that girl. Brother Arman just doesn't want to be honest with his own feelings." Evelyn continued.

"do you know who that woman is?" ask Rialal.

"that woman may be Brother Fina" he said.

"Fina? Hm..." Said Riyal nodding

"Sorry, I'm talking." Evelyn said forcing a laugh.

"no papa, Arman is insensitive. You have patience, there are many other men." Said Riyal trying to advise.

"hm funny yeah.." Connect Riyal.

"funny why brother?"

"You know, I used to love Fina, I even shot her." Riyal.

Riyal is right, likes Alfy and that sense grew with the interaction when they were both Appellate Studies Students in Malaysia.

Until returning to Indonesia, Riyal finally admitted that feeling to Alfy in a park town square. But Riyal was rejected, Alfy did not give a reason why he could be rejected just when Riyal saw Alfy turned to the left and there Arman was standing.

Riyal realized that Alfy's gaze towards Arman at that time was the reason for his heart's question why he was rejected. Riyal assumes that Alfy likes another man and that the man is Arman.

From then on he stopped approaching Alfy, because he knew that Arman also liked Alfy and vice versa. They both like each other but don't want to be honest with each other.

"so Brother Fina also likes Brother Arman?" Evelyn still couldn't believe what she had just heard.

"let's just say their egos aren't high, maybe they're together now." Riyal.

Evelyn laughed, but this time she laughed because of something that tickled her stomach.

"why laugh?" ask Rialal.

"no, sister, I was just thinking about whether Brother Arman and Kak Fina will be together later." Evelyn laughed a little

"hopefully, fate will answer their story." continued Riyal.

Until now it seems like fate has not sided with the two of them. Like a magnet, they are like the North and South poles that have not found a way to be together. Two human beings with the same feeling, unconscious and even away. Is there enough magic for them to be together?

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