You & Dusk
Dusk is No Longer the Same

I was riding a motorcycle with above average speed.. I want to let go of all my frustration by increasing the speed of my bike.

I drive a motor like a delinquent, slip there slip here. The vehicle in front of me I just kept passing, even I almost hit someone who was crossing the road.

It's wrong of the man because he didn't cross at the crossroads. Bottom line.. Everything that stands in my way right now, they're all wrong.. Only I was right.. Only I was right.. I was upset, angry, it hurt.. L'm..

The best place to calm down right now is the usual place I see twilight.

At high speed I drove.. Heading to that place, hoping I could calm myself down there.

Before long, I arrived.. As always. I walked to the nearest place to the sea. A wooden pier that stretches from the shore to the shallow waters.. The length of the pier is about 300 meters from the beach.

I walked to the end, my face unchanged, still upset.. Still jealous.

I saw the afternoon sky.. Still bright. I came very quickly, but I was still sitting at the end of this little pier.. While soaking my feet into the salty sea water.

I bowed for a moment.. See the blue color of the sea. Listening to the wave.. So soothing. I turned to look at the beach, quite a lot of people were playing water and playing sand..

A family with several children.. Couple lovers... A pair of elderly who still look friendly.. They all have loved love.

I looked up at the sky..

"Oh God.." I muttered expectantly. Expecting something uncertain.

I sat long enough.. Waiting for dusk to come. And.. Yes, my patience paid off. The sun began to show its beauty, the sky that was once blue was back in dark orange..

I saw twilight.. But even remembering someone's words.. Remembering Alfy's words.. He said that he liked the twilight.

These words make me sick, make dusk no longer the same.. I turned my face away, when I saw it again it was true that twilight was no longer the same.. Every time I see twilight I remember Alfy.

"Tchh.."

I looked again and finally.. For the last time I saw twilight, the result was the same.. The twilight makes me sick. Not calming, it irritates me.. I stood up, I was upset with myself.. I left the last twilight of my life. This will be the last night I enjoy.

I will no longer see the twilight.. Because it would only make me hate myself more.

I left twilight.. Today is the worst twilight of my life.

Time pass.. I am at home now. Tonight I just hang out in front of the tv while watching a funny show so I can entertain my turmoil.

Even though it wasn't funny, I forced myself to laugh while watching the funny show.. I laughed unnaturally.. Very hard as a frustrated person.

"Somali.." Mother approached.

I turned to see him.. Looked at her mother's view of me.

"Aren't you dad, son?" Her speech.

"No Ma, it's a funny show." I said reasoned.

"You rarely watch tv.. If this is the case, there must be a problem." He came closer and held my head.

A Mother.. No matter how big or how mature the child, in the eyes of a mother the child is still like a 10 year old child.

"So Ivan's parents came here, saying goodbye to Mom. Ivan cariin you.." Said Mother.

"Yes Ma, Ivan nelfon me. I happen to have business on campus again."

"Arm.. Since when did your son learn to lie."

Jamb.. Mom made me not be able to say anything.

"Mama knows.. It must be Alfy, right?"

I was silent without expression looking at my mother.

"Mama knows.. Ivan's future wife was Alfy. Ivan showed his picture to my mom." Continue Mother.

I can't take it anymore.. Emotions peak. My eyes are starting to water. "Hadeh, sorry Ma, there seems to be dust in Arman's eyes." I reasoned while rubbing my eyes with my fingers. I hold back my emotions.. I don't want my mom to see these stupid tears.

"Somali.." My mother is getting closer.

"It's okay, kid.. Let go of it." He said while hugging me tightly.

"Mama.." L'm.. Bring out my emotions... My tears wet my mother's shoulders. I hugged him tightly..

"Maybe God has not approved of your relationship, remember.. The best you think is not necessarily the best according to God." Mother said giving advice while stroking my head.

At present.. In front of Mom, I was like a little boy whining and crying over something I couldn't get.

"Mama sure.. You'll find a better woman. It's definitely.. Mom's son is handsome." Her speech.

Meanwhile.. Elsewhere, somewhere else,

"Ma'.. Janine.." Fuck knocked on Alfy's room door.

Before long Alfy came out of the room still using his prayer mukena.

"What's wrong?"

"What are you doing?" Ask Puput.

"again naji sak, why?"

"no papa.. I want a dong minjem novel. Hehe."

"So, brother.."

The pupils entered while ruffling the bookcase that was in Alfy's room.

"No new novel, huh?"

"I haven't been to the bookstore yet, so there's no new Bali."

The attention of the Soups was suddenly distracted looking at the vase with a dried sunflower on Alfy's study table.

"How come you haven't changed the sunflower yet?"

Alfy glanced at the withered-looking sunflower.

"Oh that, don't know brother. It's been over a week of couriers who usually send flowers to come."

"What are you doing mesen again?"

"No, it's a flower that people send. Yana never ordered herself."

"Well! From whom?" The puput was quite surprised.

"Kurirya did not want to tell him who sent. Every time I ask who the courier says he doesn't know." Alfy was confused.

"Loh Na', then why did you receive flowers from people you didn't know?"

"Hm.. I don't know brother either. Maybe because I like it." Answer with a smile.

"Wana.. Ish, later if the person who sent you the flowers was a freak how.."

"I'm just appreciating the gift of my brother, what's wrong." Again, Alfy smiled.

"When did you get this flower?" Puput increasingly curious, because all this time he thought that the sunflowers that come delivered by courier every 3 days are Alfy's own order.

"Time is still in the hospital." Answer Alfy.

"Eh brother, don't-don't.. Yana flowers.. Ivan again!" Alfy suddenly guesses about the mysterious person who sent him flowers since he was still in the hospital.

"Well! Ivan, why do you think that?"

"When he came to propose to Yana, he brought a sunflower sis."

"Well! Yes, but I don't see."

"No, not a week ago.. But before that.. When he came alone to grandma's house, not the same parents. She gave sunflowers to Umi." Alfy began to drift, as if he had really fallen for his future husband Ivan.

"You're sure! You've confirmed it to Ivan." Said Puput frowning.

"Hm, never really, sister. But I hope Ivan. You see, I accepted her proposal back then because I saw the sunflowers she was holding.. It was a kind of sign from God that Ivan was the best for me" he said, opening the face he was wearing.

"Hm.. There is a letter or a short message from the delivery of flowers. There's usually something like that.." The dog is still doubtful about this problem.

"Nothing, all this time nothing. Just flowers." Answer Alfy plain.

"Some.. Because Ivan is now in Japan. The courier who sent the flowers never came again." Connect Alfy.

"Just this morning Ivan left.. While you said it's been a week and the sender of the flowers did not come again." Puput.

"Oh yeah yeah.. Hehe." Alfy smiled, his behavior was funny while he could hear a grin looking at the Sludge who was currently looking at Alfy seriously.

"Yes already.. Maybe the guy who sent you flowers already knows that you've been proposed." Vapor Puput.

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