You & Dusk
Misunderstand

(Flashback Part)

I'm being rejected, it's gonna be a shameful moment in my life. But it's not my fault, because I don't intend to do it myself, if Idan wasn't that good I probably wouldn't be as embarrassed as I was.

Now one Scientific Reasoning SME already knows that I was rejected even though I expressed my feelings I did not do. Again this is because of Idan, my frustration with him is getting bigger as I think about the moments that have passed since.

If I remember, maybe now Alfy won't see me again. I still remember the look on his face when he was surrounded by other friends. I'm sure he hates me now, good.

Fortunately, from the beginning I had convinced myself to give up on him, otherwise I might have been upset because I was rejected. Rejected for a confession I don't want to admit, but that's okay. If he hates me now, it doesn't matter, which is why I don't have any more feelings for him.

Instead of me continuing to think about it, I better meet Evelyn soon. A woman who can make me more comfortable, a woman who can make me honest with my own feelings.

The time was also right, I had contacted him earlier so we could meet by the lake near the rectorate building of the campus. It felt like the place was perfect for confessing my feelings for her. With full confidence I set off for the location, I am confident that I will end my retirement today.

There is nothing to be afraid of, for about 3 months Me and Evelyn were very close, surely he also liked me.

After arriving at the location, it seemed that Evelyn had yet to come. I also took the initiative to contact him via WA, after seeing two blue ticks in return.

He said he had just finished college and would be fresh heading to where I am now. I was so nervous, I was confused where to start when he came. Do I have to be stale first? Or just get to the point?

Every second that went by I was getting more nervous, I just kept pacing back and forth from where I was standing now. Thinking about the possibilities of what would happen when Evelyn came.

Before long he arrived and approached me who was getting nervous on the edge of the lake. I saw him smile and greet me.

I noticed he was walking towards me. Today she looked very beautiful, her hair was starting to stretch in a tie back. He was wearing all-white clothes or maybe it was a lab coat used by medical students.

Looks good for him. In my heart that awe again made me nervous so nervous that my hands started getting cold.

It might have been a little overdone but it had been a long time since I had been faced with a situation like this, until finally now he was right in front of me."Brother, is it long? Ask.

"no, just now" I replied nervously.

"hm.. Then why tell me to come here?"

"sorry, y'all sticking around."

I'm still trying to calm myself down in the middle of my nervous tinge. "not really, just all of a sudden."

"Somebody wants me to talk to you." I said.

I came closer and started to look into her eyes, she looked embarrassed when I was right in front of her at such a close distance.

Evalyn looked at me deeply, because the moment I felt was very appropriate I also gathered courage and sighed. I held her hands together and raised her to the front at chest level. "Evely.. I'm being honest with you."

Evelyn was silent, her eyes twinkling at me.

"even though we've just met, but that's enough time for me to say.."

My heart started beating irregularly. While I was looking at Evelyn who was still looking at me. "I.. Like you."

"yes, I like you. I want us to be more than friends." Call me.

Evelyn was not surprised, she just smiled sweetly at my words. He then took off my hand gently and moved his hand away.

"You are still trying to be honest" he said.

I'm silent.

"i also like Arman, I love it since I first saw Arman."

Hearing those words I felt good not to play. I smiled and clasped his hand again, my combo will finally end today. That's what I thought, but.

"Sister, what if I tell Brother Arman to enter my religion?" suddenly tanyanya.

"meaning?"

"answer me, brother."

"people say the most distant ldr is the difference of belief."

"What do you mean?"

"Sister.. I also like Arman. But I can't brother. I can't be the same, Brother Arman." he explained.

"i'm here, near you. I'm not far away." I said convincingly.

"one of my sisters married a man of a different religion. At first their relationship was fine, but over time the differences were apparent, until they finally divorced. And I don't want that." she explained again.

"but.. There must be a way. I don't care what religion you have I know I like you." I told him I was trying to convince him.

Once again Evelyn took off my hand, she took a few steps back and smiled. "Sorry, I can't" he said.

"but.."

"that's the first reason we can't be together" he said.

"first reason?"

"yes Kak, the second reason is because Kak Arman is lying."

"uh uh? Lies.. I don't think I'm lying. I really like you." once again reassured him.

"Sister.. Never mind, I beg you to stop lying with your own feelings Arman. It's not me that Brother Arman lied to, but myself Brother." he explained.

Hearing that, I just kept quiet and continued to look question mark.

"Evelyn I don't understand, I don't lie. Please give me a chance. Did I have the same fault as you?"

"no" she replied smiling.

"why are you talking about something like that from earlier."

"Sister.. Please don't pretend you don't understand. I'm happy to know Brother Arman, we'd better be friends. That's better." Said.

I was stabbed right in the heart, the knife that stabbed it then split my heart. I kept staring at him, powerless because expectations were too high at the beginning of the closeness made me collapse today. I couldn't say anything more, my whole body was sluggish.

"I'm sorry you had better leave" he said as he turned to leave me.

"Evelyn wait, Ev.. Evelyn.." I said call her name.

Evelyn just kept moving away without looking, I was completely ignored. I was rejected twice on the same day, I hurt twice on the same day.

I'm silent.. Stand up and try to think clearly. Silence is like a tree around a lake, silent in sorrow. I'm downstairs not knowing what to do. My fun day ends today. Is this heartbreak painful?

All of that, at the same time. Alfy looked up at the sky, with an afternoon breeze on the shore. He seemed to enjoy it so much, after a day on campus and a moment that made his heart not calm, finally here he is now.

The hope will be real or undetermined this afternoon. He just kept waiting, waiting for someone who this afternoon embarrassed him to be honest in front of everyone.

That afternoon, yes.. He was very happy to find out that Arman liked him. It was an unusual afternoon for him, but he was too embarrassed to admit.

Until finally Alfy noisy to Arman for them to meet in this place. The place that Alfy knows is Arman's Favorite place, on the beach while enjoying the twilight.

Alfy was waiting, thinking he would say everything when Arman had come. He waited until the afternoon sky began to blacken, orange colors began to appear and silhouettes of people began to be seen. He waits.. Still waiting..

But until Adhan Magrib heard Arman never come.

"Why didn't he come? Maybe there was some business or she didn't hear when I was noisy for her to meet in this place. Or does he not like me? Was the confession just idan's prank?" Think Alfy.

Alfy kept thinking, until Adhan stopped reverberating and the sky was completely dark Arman did not come.

Alfy had been standing waiting since the afternoon sky still looked blue, until now he had given up. Turn around and decide to go home. He walked away disappointed, disappointed because his expectations were too high.

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