You & Dusk
Under the Dusk

One quiet afternoon, a gust of wind grabbed the trees. Fresh wind is created from the friction of the wind and trees, a sense of comfort makes the eyes closed. The shadow of the proud figure was again seen in the darkness. With a smile he said something I couldn't hear.

In the middle of the eye, the tears dripped. I haven't seen each other in a long time, I feel missed. Fathering.. I miss you, I hope you're okay in nature.

I've been thinking about my father ever since. In the campus SME park, I sat down to cover the weakness of the heart at this time. Although quiet but not careless in case someone sees me now, seeing me in this condition.

I strengthened my heart and sighed to calm my mind. Before long someone approached in a loud voice and he called from afar.

The voice was getting closer, after I lifted my face turned out I saw he was Wahid.

"Man, by himself." he said.

"yes bro." I'm lethargic.

"Why you?"

"no papa."

"oh.." she patted me hard on the shoulder.

I reacted in pain because of it. "Why bro.. Aja stories. From your face, I can tell that you have a problem" he said.

I turned to look at Wahid and I looked back My face down. "i just miss my father." I said.

Wahid was silent, as if he had no words to comfort my longing.

"medicine of longing just meet bro. I don't have the capacity to say this, but not all humans will die. Wouldn't humans meet there?" Wahid.

I raise my face again, this time I look up at the sky. Looks like Wahid managed to cheer me up a little, at least I'm a little relieved.

"so, who's that girl?" Said Wahid suddenly.

"woman?" my many.

"even though I rarely get together with you guys, but I know you like someone" he explained.

"uh uh? Like people, don't be sotoy bro." I dodged it because I didn't know what Wahid meant.

"come on, don't lie that way. If it's not wrong, he's a SME of Scientific Reasoning."

Jleb, hearing him say that, I immediately understood who he meant.

"so how.. how? Where did you get to?" tanyanya.

"not anywhere, still on the road." My word.

"Why? He's denying you?"

"no, he's had the same feeling all along. I'm the only one who's insensitive,.."

"well, now it's dong, so?" Wahid grew curious about my love story, perhaps because I rarely even discussed things like this with my friends.

"even late but I finally realized, but she's not just any woman. Ah.. Never mind, I don't want to discuss this." I said straightforwardly.

"Arm. Come on, I know you're not the open type.. Actually, I've known for a long time that you like women, but I deliberately did not mention it to other friends because I know you will not like it. But I'm also curious about your love story. If you can, tell me a little, who knows it can relieve a little of your feelings. "

"there's nothing interesting about my love story."

The more I refused, the more Wahid pressed me to say things I didn't want to remember. It broke my heart and heart.

"her name is Fina, but I often call her Alfy. The first time after I was heartbroken in High School, I put my heart back on again. I wanted to give up but I finally realized what he said that day.."

Wahid's curiosity was unstoppable, I finally began to say uneasiness in my heart.

That time.. I still remember how embarrassed he was when friends at SMEs gathered by teasing me to immediately express my feelings for him.

What caused all of that was Idan, loudly saying that I liked Alfy. A little secret she somehow knew.

Hearing that from Idan, all my friends at the time overreacted. While gathering they forced me to confess my feelings in front of Alfy who looked confused at the time.

I tried to explain to them that Idan was just joking, but they still teased me to admit it immediately.

Alfy looks uncomfortable, from the look on his face looks like he wants to leave. Not wanting her to get angry I tried to explain to her that they were all just joking.

Until Alfy came a little closer and noisy and left me. Someone said that she heard Alfy reject me. Although I'm not so sure what I heard was rejection.

I saw him move away, for a moment I thought "maybe right, he rejected me without knowing my true feelings."

"wait bro.. So you're rejected?" tanya Wahid denied the conversation.

"in the beginning I thought like that, but." I replied.

Yes, it was like that at first.. She rejected me. It was a hard day because I was rejected by two people at once. Rejected by Evelyn and the one who got hurt was rejected by Alfy.

After that day I looked. Maybe I don't deserve it, I have to learn to forget it.

The next day, one afternoon. I told Ivan this.

"yes."

Because it feels like I want to unwind, I confided a little to Ivan. At that time Ivan simply said that "God always has a way to unite his two servants who are in love."

I don't know why because of that word, I remember it clearly. It was very clear what Alfy said when he left. The words I thought were rejection..

"under dusk, the first place we know each other. I'm waiting for." That's the word he whispered.

I realized at that time, directly contact Alfy. I'm on the phone, wa, sms and DM on the IG but there's no response.

Without a second thought I immediately went to campus even though I knew it was late afternoon. I hope he is still on campus.

"Why don't you go to her house?" again Wahid cut off the conversation.

"i didn't know the house at the time." I replied.

Yes, I want to go to his house but I don't know his address. My thoughts were only college and the hope that he would still be on campus at that time.

Arriving at the campus that was starting to look lonely, I ran to the SME building, but he was invisible. I ran to the Faculty of Letters, the cafeteria and where she used to be with her friends. He's not there, I keep looking for him.

Until my phone rang, after I saw it, Alfy replied to my message. Apparently he was in the lecturer's room.

How glad to know that he is still on campus. I also said that I wanted to meet, I said the same thing he whispered yesterday.

"under dusk, the first place we know each other. I wait." fill in my message to him.

I left the campus and waited in my usual place to enjoy the twilight while enjoying the afternoon breeze by the beach. Half an hour I stood waiting until I heard her soft voice calling my name.

I turned my head and looked at her eyes that occasionally looked down and looked down. "i'm sorry, I just realized now" I said in an awkward tone.

"oh yeah, that yesterday's kids on a whim sorry yeah." I still awkward.

"yes no papa." The reply was short.

About ten minutes of silence, I ran out of words. Meanwhile, the sun began to change the color of the sky that was light blue to orange.

"so, what's up?" ask Alfy.

"hey.. Whaties? e.. ." I'm gagu, don't know what to say.

I breathed for courage.

"Alfy.." I said.

"Somel." Said Alfy.

Almost at the same time we call each other names.

"eh, you go first Fy." I said.

"no papa, just go first" she replied

"no.. Anu's.. L'm.. Really sorry. If only yesterday I realized early that you couldn't make sure I'd meet here." My word.

"yes, it's okay. I'm also sorry I left you so yesterday. I am so ashamed... Genuine I'm embarrassed." she explained while holding both cheeks.

"sorry Fy, the ignorant Idan asked for forgiveness." I said with a wry laugh melting the atmosphere.

"is that really just a joke?" alfy asked suddenly seriously.

"yes.. Damn you Idan." I'm kind of cool.

"oh, so just kidding me yeah."

"yeah.hehe."

"oh." replied in a cold tone.

When he said that, I knew right away that I was talking wrong."Fy why?" I started to worry.

Alfy was silent, he just stared at the twilight that was showing its beauty. He was silent he suddenly muttered.

"i used to love the sun when it rose, the warmth gave energy but there was someone who introduced me with twilight who was always present for a moment but memorable. Being the remedy of the daily routine, become opium before the night comes. I'm starting to like it, like I'm starting to like that guy.. That fellow.. Arman." said Alfy.

I was silent, I was staring at the sky when I heard my name being mentioned by Alfy. I turned my head, seeing Alfy smiling after saying that to me.

I was still silent, still looking at his face from the right side.. Is my hearing still normal this time? Is Arman what he meant by me or someone else? My mumbling is still trying to digest.

"already almost magrib, I went home first. Assalamualaikum." He said while walking away.

"wait.."

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