You & Dusk
Anger

(Flashback Part)

The day I'll finally arrive. A month has passed and today I have to see Father of Alfy. I'm lethargic and ready for the consequences, not without reason. It's all because I failed to qualify from his father.

I seem to be the type of person who is quite difficult to memorize things in a short time. Until the deadline of even the last week, my days continue to spend for a heart memorization of 10 juz but until the specified time I only managed to memorize 7 Juz.

It's hard enough to step, especially when I said something cool in front of Alfy a month ago. When I got to his house, I tried to pray that his father Alfy's heart softened and gave me more time to memorize.

When I started knocking on the door, I was greeted first by Alfy who seemed happy with my arrival this time. I saw his father sitting in the living room to greet me.

Alfy in a flowery mood welcomed me as he began to tense up when his father asked me about the conditions he was given a month ago.

I lethargicly replied that I failed and I resigned to any decision from Alfy's father against my goodwill.

When I said that, I saw that Alfy was not worried at all, the look on his face did not look sad with what I said when I failed to qualify to propose to him. "I can only memorize 7 Juz Uztads." I said listlessly.

"oh that.. Too bad. So how's dong?" ask Alfy's father.

"i'm up to the Uztads." I reply briefly.

Although I had thought my hope was dashed but suddenly Alfy's father even said the opposite. It seems that from the beginning he had considered accepting my proposal regardless of whether or not I qualified him.

Obviously, the month he gave me he actually used to think and find information about me in secret.

Alfy's father turned out to go to my campus to follow the routine I was doing and at some time he saw me in the campus mosque and study together with Sabri.

Furthermore, the first impression of my meeting when the bike was broken on the road and I helped, made him convince myself to accept my proposal for his son. Of course I was lethargic because I felt like a failure, now back excited. How not. Just one more step, my hope can be realized.

Today, Alfy's father allowed me to ask anything about Alfy so that I would know her well enough before she became my wife. In addition, Alfy's father said that we should get married after graduating from college and I also agreed to it.

All day I sat with Father and Mother Alfy, they were both very kind to me. Her father told me to know things about Alfy for me to consider marrying her

Alfy's father spoke at length.. Sometimes Alfy dodged that what his father was talking about was a humiliating moment when he was a child. Seeing him like that makes me anxious, because his character on campus and in the house is very different.

Furthermore, his father said that Alfy was a spoiled child, what else when he was sick. Especially when her brother was still alive, she always troublesome her brother. One more thing I didn't know, that Alfy had a brother. I don't know why I didn't see him in this house.

"there's one thing you should know. It feels hard to say this but as Alfy's future husband you should know." said his father with a serious face holding both knees.

I read Alfy, his face changed. The puput that was nearby held Alfy's shoulder. While his mother looks sad and downcast when Alfy's father codes with eyes to them.

"Arm.. You know, we had an ordeal a few years ago. At that time Fina was still sitting on the High School bench."

"Sister of Fina.. Thank God, he was a good boy. But the day of prayer to the mosque and diligent njai. Because I felt quite confident in his ethics, I finally regretted not overseeing his association. Without me realizing it, my first child was involved in a radical organization." continued his father.

It seemed like the discussion this time was quite serious, seeing from the facial expressions of Alfy and her parents. "Abi.." said Alfy as if to signal his father not to tell me this.

"Arman should know this, son. He's gonna be part of this family." Answer Alfy's Mother.

"at that time, he made a big mistake and in the end had to be sentenced to death" Alfy's father said.

Hearing that, I thought. What can get a person sentenced to death. Before long, Alfy's mother stood up and was seen coming into the room. After returning he brought a picture frame with a picture of a young man.

When I stared clearly.. It also felt like the sky was falling right on me. I can't say anything while my body temperature rises instantly.

"this is Fina's sister. Name's Imam. If you may remember. Bomb cases near the merdeka monument and in front of the Bintang Hotel. Her sister Fina was one of the perpetrators of the heinous incident" Alfy's father said.

"i just don't want to cover this up for you, this is one of the sins of our family. I hope you can accept the lack of Fina and her family." continued Alfy's father.

I did not hear Alfy's father's words, my attention focused on staring at the picture in the frame held by Alfy's mother. While looking at the picture, I remembered the horrible incident.

One of them in front of the Star Hotel, I don't know anything to keep watching the news. When my mother came, she was shocked. Until he fell down and his body was limp and almost fainted.

I panicked and grabbed my mother and asked what was going on. Doldrums and stutters he said that my father was on duty right on the street in front of the Hotel.

Hearing that I panicked while my mother was crying hysterically, especially when she saw the situation on TV that was very chaotic. We still hope that my father is in good health at least if he is injured he is still alive. But after getting word from Dad's boss that my father was one of the victims, my mother's cry became more and more so. I also tried hard not to escape from crying.

The situation was worse, the crying and sadness of Mother when she found out that my father's body was scattered and could not be recognized anymore. My father's superior tells the chronology of events through the cctv witnessed by him.

There are 4 bomb points stored in the bag and disposed of a few seconds before exploding. 2 Suicide bombs in the building and 2 more bombs were in bags and dumped into the parking lot and near the police post on the highway in front of the Bintang Hotel.

When the bomb in the building exploded. Everyone outside the building panicked, in the panic someone mysteriously dumped a bag right in front of the guard post where my father was on duty. That's when my father spontaneously jumped into the bag and covered the bag with his body until his body was not intact anymore.

My father's boss said, if my father hadn't done that, there would probably have been more deaths there.

"Arm.. Arman.." said Alfy calling my name.

"son's Arman.." Mother Alfy said confused at my behavior.

"Arm. Son Arman." said Alfy's father while holding my shoulder.

I didn't respond. My mind was now at the time the bomb exploded. My mind is now thinking of the culprit who made my father die. My mind is now on when 5 suspects are sentenced to death. One of the suspects****** who detonated the bomb in front of the Hotel was Muhammad Imam. The same guy with the face on the picture frame in front of my eyes.

After my mind came back and started to understand the situation. My emotions are running high, my sense is gone and there is only anger. Alfy and his parents were surprised to see the angry expression on my face.

"Arm.. You why?" alfy started to panic.

"My father.. My father." I stammered while shedding tears.

"your son is why." said Alfy's mother who tried to calm me down.

"My father... Died,.. Hour. Occurrence. Her.. My dad.."

"Arm.. Armani.. Slow down." said Alfy increasingly panicked at my emotional expression.

I turned towards Alfy who was trying to calm me down. I looked into his eyes with anger. "your brother.. I killed my father." I said in a loud voice.

Hearing that Alfy was shocked to fall to the floor because of the harsh reality he had just heard. Shutting her mouth she started crying.

The middleman Alfy's father could not say anything so surprised him with the thing he had just heard. Alfy's mother cried and also said sorry in front of me. Semantara Puput calms down Alfy who is crying while sitting on the floor.

I loudly told them all about the death of my father whose body was not intact until my mother's deep sadness. Alfy's father who heard my anger bowed before me apologized for the behavior of his son, Semantara Alfy who was still in disbelief continued to cry in the arms of Puput.

"son.. Sorry son. Sorry my son." said Alfy's mother as she sobbed.

Alfy's father then approached me and wanted to hug me while apologizing. My mind is screwed, I'm controlled by the anger I've been burning since my father died. Not until Alfy's father hugged me, but I stayed away.

"You murderers.. You guys *******.. You killed my father." I said out loud.

Alfy's father and mother continued to apologize but my mind was in turmoil. All I remember is my father's death and the anger that I sniffed for the perpetrator *******.

I kept repeating my rude words to Alfy's family, suddenly Puput approached and slapped my face because I kept saying things that hurt their family more. For a moment I woke up and saw the situation in front of me. I don't know what to do. Without a second thought I immediately walked out of Alfy's house.

"Arm.. Arman." said Alfy who tried to stop myself and continued to apologize.

"get out of my sight.. Your brother is*******." I said loudly pointing at him, asserting him who his brother really is.

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