You & Dusk
Fake Smile

"Beautiful.." My mind continues to praise the woman who currently looks happy together with a steady man to propose and tie a promise on her ring finger.

Janas.. Yes, how could I forget her full name, the full name of the woman I love.. Alfyana Mansur's.

What should I do now. In front of me at the moment.. My best friend proposed to the woman I love and was the reason for my regret all along.

What the hell is going on? Since when did they meet? Since when do they know each other? Since when are they? Since when do they like each other?.. Yes, I kept asking in my heart, smiling and looking happy in front of the two of them.

It hurts!! It hurts, but I don't know what to do. I just kept quiet.. Smiling in the wound.. My feelings.. Broken.

Since then.. I saw Alfy's mother still loath to look at me, probably because she knew who I was and what her first child had done to my family.

While Alfy's father tried to relax and respond favorably to Ivan when introducing me as his close friend. Although quite awkward but he still looked at me and introduced himself as if he did not know me before.

None of Alfy's family knew me except his parents and the Soup who tried to prevent me from entering. Now I know the reason why Puput was so cool that he prevented me from entering the house.

Ja.. No one knows me but the three of them, not even Alfy.. To this day, he does not remember who I am.

I sit.. It was as if I was enjoying a meal at this happy event.. Happy for them but not with me, am I selfish? Why is destiny not by my side?..

Hustle and bustle of laughter and jokes sounded from all of them.. From Father and Mother Ivan.. Alfy Family.. Until they both.. While I am currently holding a plate of food not one bit to eat or even enjoy it. Mind fucked.. I just want to wake up from sleep right now, hoping that I'm dreaming about this.

"Loh Man's.. Why not eat it?" Ivan looked at me who could only be pensive because of the reality I was facing right now.

"No, no papa." I responded.. I smiled with falsehood while eating the food in front of me.

"Eat a lot Nak Arman..." Grandma Alfy suddenly glanced at me.

I just replied with a smile.

"I didn't think Arman knew Yana.." Ivan's mother told Yana.

"Yeah aunt, Yana also did not know that Ivan turned out to be the same position as Arman." Reply Alfy.

I kept eating my food, while they talked about me.

"Well, don't remember that either,.. As far as Yana knows that Yana Sama Arman was in addition to joining the same SME, also participated in a comparative study program in Malaysia in semester 3." Obviously Alfy.

"Oh that... Oh my goodness." Mother Ivan said.

Ivan grabbed my neck and ruffled my hair. "The child, it turns out he already knew my future wife.. So no surprise." Ivan said in jest.

I tried to smile in response to Ivan's joke.

Meanwhile.. I saw the regretful expression of the look on the face of Puput who also joined us in the living room. Alfy's father tried to calm down with the situation, even with his mother who actually knew me very well.

"Well you know not.. That Arman has been with Ivan ever since they were kids.. I'm like a brother. Sometimes fighting.. After that cry, the Ivan often ngadu to aunty if he fought with Arman, continued Arman instead of ngadu with his mother even ngadu to aunt as well. Duhh.. If you remember their childhood both it feels like aunty so moved.. "Mother Yana kept saying things about myself and Ivan.

Alfy's listening dissolves in the story.. Maybe because he could know everything about Ivan.. About Ivan's childhood, not about me.

While I continue to eat.. While strengthening my heart.

"Eh Man's.. Slowly eat it, it'll sprain." Ivan.

"Yes to Arman.. It didn't seem like an appetite but now it's eating it so greedy." Connect Alfy.

"Yes, no papa." I said while forcing a smile, but..

"Ah.. I.. It's hehe. The food was too good, I was overwhelmed. Yes delicious. Hehe." My words diverted the conversation.

Just so stupid that it made the people who were looking at me laugh lightly. Except the three of them.. Alfy's father, Alfy's mother and Puput. They looked awkwardly..

The fact that I was in front of me hurt me so much, I might still be able to hide by forcing my mouth to keep smiling but my eyes could not be compromised. Although it was only a drop but those teardrops represented my current feelings.

I was in a very wrong situation, I don't know what to say or say now.. Silence is the best thing I can do.

After finishing my meal.. I stood up and reasoned to go out for a while looking for the wind, whereas.. I just want to get out of this place.

I walked out of the middle room.. I thought this show would be short but it seems like the conversation and familiarity that Ivan's family and Alfy's family showed will be longer than usual.

I left the middle room of the house.. Leaving the room that stifled my chest. Arriving at the terrace of the house, I sat in a chair that was available.. I'm rethinking what really happened.

I daydreamed..

"Somali.." A stranger approached and sat down beside me.

That man is Alfy's father.

"The Uztads.." My speech.

Ever since I first met I had called him Uztads, even before I knew he was the father of the man I love.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you this." He said while holding my back.

I looked at it for a while and then I turned my eyes to the front.

"How's your mother doing?" Ask.

Ever since I found out that it was Alfy's family that made my father die. Alfy's father came to my house after the accident happened to Alfy, he came to apologize to my mother directly for what his first child had done to my family.

Mother must be surprised.. While crying airily, he had forgiven Alfy's family, for him it was already the past.. Even my mother went to see Alfy and said that.. If Alfy has fully recovered and his feelings remain the same. Then my mother will come directly to propose to Alfy for me. That's how it should be..

But Alfy did not recover even though he was very healthy, he might return to health but leave a memory of him with me. He has not remembered me back yet.

"Good God." I said to answer Alfy's father's question.

"For God's sake I don't know if... If Ivan is someone close to you. It just happened.." Said Alfy's Father.

"Suddenly, when Yana's condition has begun to improve.. A young man came to the house.. Exactly like what you did back then.. But Yana doesn't know Ivan.. With confidence Ivan invited Yana to ta'aruf, I myself at that time did not believe when Yana agreed.. I also did not mind, because at that time Ivan came along with a study colleague where I usually attended the science assembly. Of course, from there I came to the conclusion that Ivan was a good young man.. Until finally their ta'aruf process went well.. And.. Yana received goodwill from Ivan. " Fify's father explained.

Though indifferent, I still heard what Alfy's father said.

"That's how it happened.. I'm sorry, but maybe this will sound evil.. Armani.. Please don't ruin my son's relationship with Ivan.. Ivan proposed to my son.. So.."

"Yeah.. I know Uztads." My words cut off the words of Alfy's father, words that ripped my heart and my feelings apart. If I heard that even further, maybe at that moment I would shed tears again.

"Not to worry.." I stood up from my seat.

"I.., no, there's no way I still have feelings for the woman whose family has destroyed my family." I said once more while walking away from the terrace of the house.

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