You & Dusk
Tear

(Flashback Part)

There are things I can't explain, like I've been feeling lately. For example the intent of Alfy's gaze yesterday when I met him. I don't understand why he's staring like that? That's obviously a hurt look or maybe I was too hopeful.

And more confusing is the feeling of guilt. Why do I feel guilty? It's wrong of me to walk alone with a woman who makes me comfortable. Whatisthis? I don't really understand, I think it's just an overreaction of my expectations on him.

I'm still looking for a solution in the middle of my other friend's existence. I'm supposed to comfort Ica who still hasn't forgotten her heartache and even become a person who also needs to be entertained.

Sometimes I look at Ica and at that moment I feel mirrored. Wh why? Am I going to experience that too?

Inspiration that put the heart to Ica just keep trying to entertain, throw a mild joke and casual chatter so that Ica can relax and blend back with us. While Adi tries to convince Ica that she is not alone, she has friends, as well as Gina who had hugged Ica who is still recovering.

After the incident, Ica still tried to contact Irwan but her contact was not active. Even on campus he was no longer seen and friends on campus really do not know his whereabouts now. Irwan is lost in the earth, no one knows where he is now.

I myself do not know for sure what happened, because Ilham did not have time to stop by my house to tell all the events. I also do not know what to do for Ica, because I myself was experiencing anxiety.

I can only look at Ica, she's like someone I don't know. What changes it like this is love? If yes, then I could be like Ica. Become upset like a fool for wishing on someone who sees me with one eye.

Next eye? Ls i? Is Alfy really looking at me with one eye? Doesn't he have a feeling like me? But that look? Ahhh.. I have to forget it. As Idan and Joseph said. I need to know myself, I need to know how to position my feelings.

My feelings are getting more and more chaotic, disturbing thoughts are making me uncomfortable with life. I feel like a first-time pubescent teenager in love.

I need to focus, one of my friends is in need of help to calm his shaky soul for treason. If I think back lazy I'm lighter than lazy appeal.

"Is it me to eat yah?" The word Ilham offers.

"no, I'm not hungry." Ica replied flatly.

"Ca' you haven't eaten anything from yesterday" explained Gina.

"i'm not hungry." murmured Ica once more.

Inspiration looked at me, with a confused look giving the code for me to coax Ica.

Confused, I returned with a code that I did not know what to do. I have been disturbed by my thoughts and feelings ever since.

"City.. Please dong. Don't gini, where was the old Ica?"

Looks like Gina can't stand the current state of Ica. He continued to say and persuade Ica to be aware of meaningless turmoil. Even so Ica remained silent with her blank look.

"you know, I was amazed by a woman. I met him for the first time when he was an MABA. After knowing him, I came to know the meaning of hard work. I always learned a lot from him, even though he came from a rich family but his attitude was far from arrogant. Even he worked alone to finance his life, he was really great. Frankly I hate the rich so much, they live a good life no need to think about tomorrow. All their needs are met, they all live worthily. I kept thinking that way until I met the girl. Who taught me the meaning of life when he came from a rich family, he finally changed my view of the money people. That woman is Ica. That woman is you." I said looking at Ica.

Hearing that Ica looked at me, the pupils of her eyes that had seemed empty now look reflected my body in her eyes.

"The one I know, she's a great girl. He has a mentality of steel, he has big dreams in the future. Without wanting to enjoy his parents' possessions, he worked very hard. I know it. Compared to this problem. That's not worth it. Indeed indeed.. Be ill. I've felt it, but the pain makes a person mature. Not just mental but mental. Ca'.. Don't think the world has collapsed just because one man broke your heart. Remember, you still have dreams! You still have us here, your friends." obviously I tried to calm him down.

"i remember that dream, you once told me it was Ca". Continue Ilham.

Ica who was looking at me, is now looking at Ilham. Until her tears came to her cheeks.

Then after looking at Ilham, Ica turned to the left to look at Gina who had been next to her. Then he looked at Adi who was on his right. Tears that are still spilling make Ilham can not stand to get closer and wipe the tears with his hands.

Ica did not respond she just continued to look at Ilham who was now right in front of her. Suddenly Ilham who was squatting in front of Ica stood up and held her hand.

"sorry guys, the cave goes first" he said.

Inspiration pulled Ica and the two of them ran away leaving the three of us.

"Ilham.. Where you going?" Shouted Adi.

"your watch. If Ica gets hurt." continued Gina yelled at Ilham.

"biarin. I'm sure Ilham has a way of making Ica's nenangin." I said.

The three of us were finally only able to see from afar Ilham who ran carrying Ica. I don't know where they are going, I hope Ilham has a surefire way to make Ica cheerful again like before.

"Sugar.. Poh. How do you cry?" adi said to see Gina.

Gina spontaneously wiped away her tears. "no papa."

"I know you're sad, I'm also sad to see Ica like that. I hope he recovers soon." I told Gina.

At least that's what I think of seeing Gina being sad. But there's something Adi and I don't know about the true meaning of Gina's tears.

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