You & Dusk
Baffled

(Flashback)

7 Months ago.

Twilight.. Beautiful but temporary. Like her, the beauty I couldn't achieve and could only stare after that the night sky came drowning out hope. Now I know and everything is clear. Alfy seems to have the same feelings as me, but I'm confused about being happy or sad.

This afternoon, he clearly admitted it. I admit it too, but I feel like I'm being rejected. He just left after saying his feelings and did not look at him one bit.

I know she's a good girl and a sholehah, but what's wrong if I invite her to be with me. Doesn't he like me too? I'm not some jerk who likes to play with women.

I kept muttering while looking at the sky that was starting to blacken. While I lay on the bench thinking about what just happened.

I'm still thinking hard, is it true that my religion forbids dating? I asked myself as if I didn't even know. What I wonder is the fact that there are still many people who are in my religion doing that.

It is not okay to date a positive important and hold firm commitment to marry later. Wouldn't it be better to get to know each other before you take things more seriously?

I was confused, especially when Alfy told me to go see his father. Does he want me to propose to him? Impossible.

"ahhhhh.." I was upset.

Adhan's voice rang out, to incline my confusion I also stepped towards the nearest mosque. After praying somehow I want to linger in this mosque. Moreover, there is a science desk with a topic that interests me.

I see not a few young people who are the same age as me in this science assembly. If seen from their clothes, maybe they have routinely followed the assembly of knowledge in this mosque.

When I see them, I am both jealous and ashamed. For as long as I have lived, I have never sat in the study listening to a lecture like this.

Although I have been interested in studying religion since I discussed with Sabri but being in a study like this it feels more comfortable and soothing.

Time passed and I calmly listened to the material presented by the Uztads. Until Isya entered and the study was completed. After the Isha prayer, I decided to go home.

In the parking lot of the mosque I saw a young man who looked the same age as me. Even I'm sure our age is not much different from his stature. She walked to an old motorbike accompanied by a woman with a long headscarf and was seen holding a baby.

They look happy, even occasionally they joke with each other. And what makes me most baper when the shoelace of the woman was released, with a swift young man who was her husband also lowered his head and tied his wife's shoelaces.

That's a sweet sight, to the point that I'd have fantasized if I was that young man and that woman was Alfy.

"ahs.. His happiness.." I murmured inwardly.

"assalamualaikum."

"Arm.. Masayallah. What's the antum here?" asked Sabri who suddenly appeared in front of me.

"loh.. Bro. Coincidence."

"yes, did you pray here?" ask Sabri.

"yes, at the same time did not intentionally participate in the study. You're here to study, huh?"

"almighty... Yes, I live around here so often to this mosque." he replied.

"oh that..,."

"oh yeah, that Antum guy, Ivan.. God, he learned it so quickly. Now memorize the Qur'an five juz."

"oh Ivan's. Thank goodness."

"it was also thanks to Antum, now until Antum next Ivan did good deeds inshaallah Antum will also be rewarded. Because Antikum is the reason he converted to Islam." Sabri.

"oh, is that it?"

I'm surprised but I don't think I'll get the reward but the woman Ivan meets will get the reward. Because that woman is why Ivan learned about Islam.

"yes, inshaallah. The apostle of Allah Shallallahu alaihi wasallam bersabda which means.

'Whoever leads to good will get a reward like the reward of those who do it' (HR. Muslim no. 1893), well what Antum did was included in it. "Sabri explained.

"yes bro yes. Hehe." I said awkwardly because actually I'm not the one who made Ivan interested in Islam.

"yes then I say goodbye first. Assalamualaikum." said Sabri while away.

"waalaikumsalam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh." I reply.

Either way after hearing about Ivan from Sabri, I felt like I wanted to meet him. I also tried to contact him before deciding to go to his house.

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