You & Dusk
Bitter reality

(Flashback Part)

A busy morning was seen in the corridor of the Faculty of Economics, students then walked quickly to the Lecturer's room while holding KRS (study draft card). "hi Ivan." Said Dian trying to say hello to Ivan who accidentally passed him.

Ivan threw away his face when he saw Dian in front of him, he tried not to rub and left Dian without saying a word.

Dian looked back, looking at Ivan's back who had moved away from him. The last three months they were together, their last togetherness was so beautiful that it was hard to forget.

At that time Dian was very happy for a little surprise for her on her birthday. A romantic dinner seems perfect for him, especially when he spends the night with a man he loves very much.

It was almost a perfect night, but at the end of the night it turned out that he had to accept the harsh reality that Ivan had broken off their relationship. A happy night should be a sad night.

As he got off the vehicle that night, Ivan whispered something Dian had never thought of. Honestly, at that time he thought that Ivan would whisper sweet words that would be a lullaby for him but even the words that were the introduction of sadness that accompanied him all night.

It was still clear in Dian's memory.

"honey, you know that the greatest happiness for me is to see you laugh and smile happily. I've seen you like that, you were so beautiful with your laugh, with your smile and your effective attitude. I really like it. But baby, you weren't with me, you were with other men. A man who is better able to make you happy. Unlike me, I've never even been able to make you that happy, laughing like that. Baby I love you, so from that. I want you to laugh like that again, I want you to be happy like that again but not with me. With that man, may you be happy with him. Now, let me go. I'm willing to let you go to be with him."

Ivan's last words he whispered to Dian imprinted and pierced the heart until now continues to haunt Dian for the last three months.

A word he never thought would be spoken by Ivan, his beloved lover.

The truth was revealed afterwards. Ja.. The truth that Dian has been duplicitous, the truth that Dian has been with other men besides Ivan. The truth that Dian's relationship with other men has been known by Ivan, the truth that Dian's affair was known to Ivan long before Ivan got this information from Anya one of Dian's friends. The truth is that Ivan, who endured the pain, still held hope and continued his relationship with Dian.

Dian knows all about it, knowing that all this time Ivan has known the fact that he was with other men but still survived with him. That's what makes the pain in Dian's chest, he has made a mistake, his mistake has been known all along Ivan but Ivan tried to keep quiet hope Dian realized and stop doing it.

The beautiful moment that Ivan made for Dian that night also became their farewell moment. Ivan is a strong man, but the strongest man if he continues to fall will certainly not be strong anymore to rise, especially women who should be the fuel of the spirit for him have betrayed.

And for the last three months Dian has been trying to get close and apologize to Ivan, only Ivan always avoids, not hating but Ivan does not want to be a burden for Dian, the burden so that Dian can be happy with the man, a man who according to Ivan is better able to carve a smile on Dian's face.

There is one thing that Ivan does not realize, that Dian really loves him, that Dian is happy with him, only he is complacent and subdued in front of other men.

Of course these two perfectives are different, but if you have to judge. Cheating is wrong, wrong in the eyes of the cheated and really only in the eyes of the cheating.

Now Dian could only regret his actions, Ivan no longer wanted to see him. Dian finally realizes that Ivan is sincere to her, but she realizes it all too late. When he realized Ivan had closed his heart and was no longer in front of him. When I realized Ivan was far away from himself.

Disappointment always comes too late, disappointment always brings deep regret. It is not a disappointment if you do not regret the actions that have passed. It's all over now, Ivan really doesn't want any more contact with him.

Dian who saw Ivan's back was increasingly far away unconsciously dropped tears, because the memories he left so deep wrapped in great regret for the mistakes in the past.

Dian turned around and walked away, she was downcast because she did not want her friends on campus to see her crying, so she wiped her tears but for nothing. The real source of the tears was the heart, right now his heart was in turmoil and if he wanted to stop those tears, he should be able to recover from his regrets.

"Dians.." Said a woman calling him from behind.

Dian did not look, he just kept walking. "Dians.. Wait for. I want to say." the woman pulled Dian on the shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I.., I don't mean to ruin your relationship with Ivan." Said the woman.

"Gue hates you Anya, you tuh.. Ahh... Stay with me."

"Dian please, listen to me first."

Anya tried to calm Dian who was trying to get away from her. Anya brought him a lonely fourth, considering that earlier when they were talking and Dian was crying, the people around noticed them and made them both into spectacle materials. "it's just as angry as I was reasonable, it's natural, but the one who should be more angry is Ivan." Anya says

Dian only saw and heard the words Anya. "gue ngaduin you to Ivan is true, because I'm honest, I like the same Ivan. And I think a good guy like him doesn't deserve you to play." Anya explained.

"...." - ".Dian was silent.

"Dian, once again you can be angry because I told Ivan but you know Ivan..." He was heavy enough to continue his words.

"What do you really want to say?" ask Dian.

"gues.. Ivan, you're really lucky Dian. Ivan really loves you. I have absolutely no chance of snatching him away from you."

"silence, I beg you." Dian covered her ears.

"Iwana.. Love you so much, until he knows you cheated he still believes in you. You know when I told him that you cheated on him, you know what he looks like. She smiled, she added herself to smile for you Dian." Anya explained.

"Silence Anya, silence." Dian tried to cover her ears.

"he whispered to me then, Ivan told me that he.. If he was, he knew. He already knows that you, the girl he loves again with another guy. Even he already knows that you've been cheating on him since we were in Dian's third semester. Ivan's.. She's.." Anya was already at a loss for words and seemed hard to continue.

Dian who heard that could no longer stem her regret, she shed all her tears at this moment. "Iwana.. He, so unfortunately he went to you, he was willing to get hurt and hoped that one day you would come to your senses. But eventually he gave up, he couldn't hold on much longer. Lu lucky Dian, but dear you have wasted your luck. I want to say, Ivan has closed his heart to you because if he opens his heart again it's the same as if he had to open an old wound that is currently dry." Anya continued.

Dian continued to cry, she fell on her knees unable to endure the sadness and unable to support the regret that made her chest tight, her legs seemed to tremble and she just kept mentioning Ivan by name.

"Dians... If you want to be angry, you have to be angry with yourself." Anya said.

Anya walked away from Dian who looked pitiful, the people around also noticed the two of them.

Before long a woman approached Dian and saw him helping and calming Dian who was still crying for her regrets. "duh beb you why? yes it is. Shame on seeing people." Said Mao one of Dian's friends.

Mao is a close friend of Dian, as a close friend he does not want Dian to be a spectacle by people around the place, he walked away while supporting Dian who looks limp.

Dian could only lament the sadness, what else the reality told by Anya added to the wound on her chest. It's true, regret always comes too late.

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