Woman Without Womb
Chapter 77 - Little Concern

You could say that for almost ten years Hermawan has always been on Maudy's side. His life was dedicated to Maudy. And so long ago, he chose to keep his feelings deep for Maudy.

Her disintegration had already occurred, when Maudy told her she wanted to marry a man. The heart of Hermawan was broken at that time. Until finally he was at the point of surrender and now choose to be willing.

“What's important, now I play a good friend to Maudy. Feeling problem ... mengingan me behindin first, I have to close this feeling for the comfort of Maudy. He is the one who wants it, right?”

He sipped his coffee and looked at the night sky. Occasionally he exhales cigarette smoke while pensive.

“Not it .. not everything we want should always happen huh? there must be a side where we have to follow this flow of life?”

Hermawan was stunned and put a cigarette on the table and rushed in, he opened the locker under his bed and took out a box and brought it to the balcony again.

He opened it and it was full of pictures of Maudy and her.

“Maudy .. the strong woman, who always had problems from the past. But he still has a way out. He pantes dapet full happiness, at first I do not care who the man who wins his heart. Maybe a little sick though. But, on the other hand I'm happy to see him smile.”

Hermawan holds Maudy's wedding photo, which Farhan's face has been scratched. Breathing again sounded.

“Gue inget terribly .. self-destruction myself fitting tau news Maudy marriage. From the work slacker, until I am willing to overtime to do a job that is not for me. Until I had to lie to Maudy that I couldn't come to her wedding. But all of that is a lie. I'm just afraid that I'm not strong to see the woman I love with other men.”

Hermawan turned to the photo of a calm lake. He clearly remembers this story.

“Padahan .. at that time I stuck to come to Maudy's wedding. But in fact, I was actually made a big squeak. I can't get close, even around Maudy's wedding hall. Crowd, happy cheers, everything made me broken and I chose to come to the lake that we often came to and it was the first time I came to our place of memories with my own.”

Hermawan clearly knows, the reason he was not married until this moment is also because of Maudy. Because for that man, there is no woman like Maudy. There was nothing as good as Maudy in his eyes.

Several times he tried to get close to other women.

And it all ended up failing.

“Because .. I've always wanted that woman to be with Maudy. And I know that being the second option is not good and I also feel bad. I feel guilty.”

Hermawan sighed, his legs he raised one to the other chair. He looked at all the photos again. Sometimes he smiled happily, smiling incessantly until an unceasing sigh rang out. He muttered little and shook his head. It was not strong enough to see it all, in fact just by doing this he could eliminate his longing.

“The bigger .. I'm more sure that the struggle will not be comparable to what we will get. Want us as good as anything to fight, but in fact if destiny does not accompany us? We can what? just willing and end sincerely.”

It clucked.

“Maybe ... If Maudy saw all this, he would be angry huh? maudy always thought that friendship would be destroyed if there were feelings in it. So he always wants to not have feelings for his own best friend. Unless he's warning me.”

“Sadly ..”

Hermawan.

“Unfortunately I have reneged on all this for a long time, I fell in love with Maudy from the beginning. Even at our first meeting. When he cried after being run over by his school friends. Nothing can replace our first meeting full of stories.”

“Maudy .. but I'm not selfish. I want to be known as a man who likes you, a male figure who always puts you ahead compared to others. Not just a friend doang.”

Suddenly, his phone rang. He got up and turned off the reminder alarm there. ‘time Maudy snacked on the screen, made Hermawan enter the kitchen area and issued a lot of snacks that he deliberately stocked only for Maudy.

He came out and pressed Maudy's doorbell.

“Loh ... Hermapharmes. Again?” the shocked Maudy.

“Gue can enter nih,” joked Hermawan while raising his eyebrows repeatedly. “Make today I have brought a special chocolate snack for you. You want to?”

Maudy opened her apartment door wider, just as Hermawan entered and sat casually on the sofa of her former apartment room.

“Wan .. lu why you know so much, this hour I am a laper. But if you eat rice again, there I can not sleep malem. Continue also .. you must come around this hour while bringing a snack. You want to make me fat ya.”

“Oh ... so don't want?” exclaims Hermawan wants to take his tray again.

But his hand lost to Maudy's hand that pulled him.

“Dih ... when I say no,” the thrill while hugging all the cakes that are there. “I'm just like him, no one feels like it too. I even really like to have a super understanding temen kayak gini. Although a little surprised, because you know exactly what I want.”

Hermawan smiled faintly.

“Everything for you, eat a lot. Do not miss the toothbrush just want to sleep, I do not want to be repotin later malem because you have a toothache.”

Maudy.

“Ah .. lu mah, by the way never want to be repotin. But, the edges always want to be repotined the same as me, right? Nguh continued, but the edges remain in the streets also ..”

Yes ... I where could refuse your eyes berlinang anyway? Only speech in the heart alone Hermawan dare. He only smiles and rubs Maudy's hair. He could not reveal again, how truly dear he was to Maudy. No one could hurt her Maudy at all.

“Dih ... even diem. But you are the most top friend. No one can stop at all. I think everyone should be envious of me.”

“Why is that?”

“Because .. have a friend who can treat himself as well as this. Duh, now I know what my advantages are. Because I have you. The nicest person in the world.”

“Hahaha .. what the hell is, uh but, just a friend?” asked Hermawan with a distant look with his feelings that were very racing.

“Loh, what do you want?” confused Maudy

“I've done this all for you. It's just a nod I'm a friend, like not fit so,” as well again with a feeling of increasingly anxious.

Maudy murmured, “iya too anyway,” she replied slowly. “Ah yes! Family is not. You are like my own brother. Surely if you have a sister at home always say what you do, right? Yes ... Now your role has changed to my brother, not my friend anymore.”

Hermawan. He took a deep breath and nodded slowly. He had to smile even though his heart was unusually sick. Ah this mah in nt continue, do not know until when. But surely he will continue to.

“Yes already, because it is getting worse and not tasty with the others. I'll go back first. Eat chocolate but should not be excessive.”

“Hhahaha yes little boy, duh we are the same age but you are still very small.”

“IH!”

Maudy.

“IYA DEH! You are tall, different from me being short. But which right can you make me talk like that? Can't yes .. if once again I'm horrifying you that I want a little or something. I'm going to go to Seto.”

Hermawan laughed crisply.

“There is coi, brother Seto mah ngurus little boy. Ah this mah fix little children anyway,” ledek Hermawan who is getting excited. “No way, you are forever still small in my eyes.”

“Ah know ah, I'm kesel.”

Hermawan increasingly laughed when the door in front of him slammed with Maudy. He shook his head and stepped into his unit with a big smile as he turned into a faint smile as he recalled Maudy's words.

“Ya .. I should be proud because my degree has risen to a higher level as a sister. Not a friend anymore?” then followed by heavy breathing from the man.

Meanwhile, unbeknownst to Hermawan.

Maudy's laughter stopped just as she slammed the door of her apartment unit. His hand was still holding the doorknob. He looked down and was silent.

“Sorry Hermawan.”

***

“Maudy?”

There was no reply on the other side, making Hermawan immediately wake up from his sleep. He wears his cellop and keeps calling Maudy who calls him in the middle of the night.

“Maudy .. don't be fooled. You call me early in the morning blind like gini because what? answer dong,” he exclaimed as he exited his apartment unit.

Really, Hermawan a little creepy because the hallway of the apartment is very empty. No more visible activities at all. In a hurry, he knocks on Maudy's apartment unit. He took all the fear for Maudy, which made him panic instead of playing.

“Maudy?”

“Hermawan .. pain.”

Hermawan's eyes were wide. He immediately pressed Maudy's apartment password which he knew and opened the door. He rushed into Maudy's room.

“Sorry,” exclaimed then opened Maudy's room door. “YA PITY, MAUDY!”

Hermawan took a blanket and covered Maudy's body in a short dress. He was twisted and without a second thought directly carried him. He needs to go to the hospital right now!

***

“Adhabit tau no hell,” nagging Hermawan

Maudy snuggled with a manyun. He shook his head, did not like in omeli kayak gini. But Maudy clearly knows what's wrong this time.

“Maudy .. once again dong, horrified what I said. You should take care of yourself. Not because of others but because of yourself,” nagging Hermawan again. “Gue is not angry, really. I'm like this because I'm worried, I really don't have a problem doing you any semalem. But, if only the lunya who never worry about yourself tuh .. even make me sprained.”

“Sorry ..”

Hermawan rubbed his hair rough.

“From first, obviously I know that your teeth are not good. You should go to the doctor. Butwhat? you don't want to, do you? You even eat more sweet. But I was kicked out of the doctor. If you often have a toothache but even ngabaiin huh? from when? Maybe this is your peak pain right?”

Maudy nodded.

“Then ... magh you relapsed, but you accidentally ate a bad meal. Many things Maudy. There are a lot of things that make me think that you are intentional. You look strong and well. But you instead lanternsin your grief it into your own body.”

“...”

“Lu didn't think, did you, as a result of all these things you did? why Maudy? You want to get out of this world? you want to get away from me. Even when I get my attention every day? Is my attention lacking? You have also been separated from their same toxic relationship. So, what is lacking? You need anything ..”

“Sorry ...”

“Open lu Maudy. Everyone loves you, everyone bela lu.”

Maudy.

“But .. yesterday Nadia talked to the apartment and asked for an address to me,” muttered the woman in the end. “She just said she wanted to come and somehow I just told her the address of my apartment. I want to fit again first and indirectly even ignore myself.”

“...”

“I really have no intention to be evil with my own body. Sometimes I like that reflex. Sometimes I don't even realize I'm doing this. Really. I'm not lying at all. I can't possibly do it anymore.”

Hermawan breathed deeply.

“Okei .. sorry because I was angry. I didn't know you had this problem. But, you need me don't? let us haveepin with your sister this.”

Maudy.

“Don't .. I want to be alone and until now I am still curious about what Nadia wants to do. It was strange that he suddenly asked for a date. But, I guess you can't leave me alone. I'm afraid he's a macem. He is reckless.”

“Hahaha .. okay-okay, just relax. I'll always be on your side. Now just rest. We'll be home later.

“Hmm .. sorry ya ngerepotin.”

“No, not at all.”