Woman Without Womb
Chapter 31 - The Same Fate

The sound of laughter filled the parlour. Either it laughs because of the silly behavior of Hermawan who just want to do what in the children's request. Or laugh because Maudy keeps making jokes about them all.

“My stomach ache ..”

Maudy laughed with satisfaction and rubbed the stomach of the child who said his stomach hurt. He sat down next to the boy and stared softly. He looked at the innocent face of the boy who was now staring back at him.

“Tante? Why look at me so much?”

Maudy shook her head and stood up, “tante wants to grab a drink first huh. You guys play the same with Hermawan. Don't moan, look at Hermawan. Later om will love many gifts for you and who are not naughty, also a chocolate aunt for you.”

The boy immediately nodded and went back to face Hermawan. Maudy went inside and took a drink. Only a glass of water is available there but can quench thirst.

After his affairs were completed, Maudy saw some of the rooms that were there.

“If you've seen what I believe, it feels like I'm a woman who doesn't know who usually just complains about, doang,” Maudy muttered as she looked at their room which was actually neat but shabby enough to live in as many children here.

He sighed and returned to the gathering place for the children. He stood near the pile of cardboard, so that he was slightly covered. He looked at all the children who were laughing. None of the children looked sad or dreamy.

“Even ... I who from small in complete family love, can never be grateful. I always felt that my parents would never love me. But look at them .. they were born without parents. Or even some are less fortunate because their parents died and ended up here. But they no one complains at all.”

“But look at me ..”

A clap made Maudy almost scream, but scowled when she saw the mother came and smiled at her. Maudy just straightaway subdued politely.

“Everyone has the right to complain, not just because you see them more fortunate and you feel you should not complain. The difficulty level of the person is different, right? And maybe they also will not be able to even be able to if there is at this point. What else here you just see their smiling side. But ... There is a time when they cry and are moody.”

Maudy was silent for a moment.

“Iya is bu?”

“True, son .. It's just that, mom always instills thoughts in them if all the sadness can be solved together. So, they will be happy again if you have gathered or there is a comforting theme. That's enough close the sadness mthey”

Maudy was amazed and again saw all the children who had begun to fatigue and could only sit while drinking ice that was carried by Hermawan.

“Bu .. can I ask?” maudy said in a small voice. “Maybe my question offends mom a little, but I'm really curious and want to know something.”

“Please, son ..”

“Why do you want to take care of all these children? Moreover, mothers only have themselves aka mother alone. Nor can I say a little here. There are ten more kids and it's not easy right?”

The mother smiled faintly.

“Mother in the diagnosis can not have children and husband mother also go because of this.”

Degh's! Maudy's heart was immediately unpretentious and heard the explanation of the mother of the orphanage carefully.

“Mother was sad at that time, even it felt like the mother's world stopped because at that time she was very in love with her husband. So, just as he asked to separate because of this it feels like I don't know what else to do. I feel like I'm just blaming fate. Why among the many women, must be mothers who are all.”

“...”

“For a few years, mom just bemoaned everything herself. At that time, my husband was with another woman. I have truly left this world. But mother? There is only one place with no progress at all. It hurts ... But all this is over, right? With your mother being quiet, don't make you happy. Not returning the mother's husband to the mother. Not even make mom can have children.”

Maudy clutched her clothes, why could this fellow? He meets a man who has the same fate as himself. He was shocked and didn't know what else to do.

“Until .. when you start to realize, in the end you start out and start a new life. Until I met a child who had no parents. From there, my mother's instinct to take care of her. From the beginning it was just one child, finally the mother received the disadvantaged child.”

“If it says heavy, yes it may be heavy. Because, the child is the most beautiful gift and will grow with a different nature. We have to understand the difference between them all. But I'm enjoying it all. So until now mothers will never complain at all and be happy with their presence in the mother's life.”

“Why, son? What makes you cry like gini?” asked the mother of the parlour while directly hugging Maudy.

Maudy returned a hug and held firmly.

“Bu .. I was also born unable to have children. I'm not a perfect woman who can't give birth to a child. Sick mom .. I've always been looking for people who understand me and hear my mother's story makes me not know how to express again. It hurts and is also relieved. I don't know .. but I'm lucky to meet mom.”

“Nak ..”

“Sama bu,” continued Maudy who feels comfortable with the mother of the home. Even during their meeting, he unknowingly told her everything he had experienced.

“My husband also remarried, but my husband married without divorcing me. They say they just want to have kids. But they didn't know I was ruined because of them and heard mom's story. I can do it all.”

“Yes, son ..”

The mother took off a hug and grabbed Maudy's cheek. He wiped the tears down and looked sad. His heartache was still the same and he recalled all of it.

And all of that was more and more about a young woman crying about the same thing. He felt the same pain. Disappointment, even a sense of crying that can not stop.

“Nak .. and now how is your husband?”

Maudy knelt down and shook her head.

“Can't, ma'am. My husband did not let me go at all. I mean, I haven't separated at all but my husband can make out with other women in front of me.”

The mother of the house nodded.

“Iya .. mother understands, mother understands the same all the pain. I can't say much but I hope you can step in a new direction and leave them. Leave all that pain and you have a mother. Come here any time and think of all these children as your own.”

The mother held Maudy's hand, trying to look into Maudy's still sobbing little eyes. The mother took him to the back area, so that it didn't sound the same to everyone there.

“Nak ... earlier you said, women can not have a daughter is not perfect right? No, son .. You are perfect. You are truly beautiful until God entrusts a great miracle to you.”

“Not having children, not a disgrace at all. You don't have to worry at all. For this is what makes you higher in the eyes of God. Sincerely, son .. Our way of life is indeed gini. But God willing .. This is the best path that has been given by God to us.”

“Consider all this sadness as a gift of our paradise later up there. Think of all this bitterness as your spaciousness later when walking in the mahsyar field. I'm sure, very sure that all this will be answered fairly there.”

“But .. don't reply to your husband's actions. Let him receive a direct reply from God. That's a lot fairer. For now, rather than you think of that unguided grudge. You better level yourself. Make yourself proud. So that kamun get the golden crown in the world and in the afterlife later.”

Relax, really calm.

All the burdens were lifted and Maudy could only smile thinly. He wiped away the tears that were still coming down and nodded.

It was as if all the questions he had been asking had been answered. Just like a mother of the orphanage that he did not even think at all.

“Bu .. thanks for everything. From yesterday, I still feel wrong with myself. Even I still cannot see the point of my life and the reason I live in this world. But mother's explanation made me realize that I still deserve to live here. I still deserve all this. And most importantly I will start loving myself.”

The mother smiled and was grateful to have made a child's life so colorful. He looked at Maudy and he took a deep breath. Still do not expect to see the destroyed version of others just like him in the past.

“Instill into yourself, if you are very valuable.”

The mother hugged Maudy again and stroked her back tightly.

“You deserve to be happy, there is a mother here. Mom just saw you but I feel comfortable with you. So, do not hesitate if you want to come here. Because the parlour door is wide open just for you.”