Woman Without Womb
Chapter 52 - Staying Wrong

“Sound what did you say earlier?” farhan asked again while sitting in front of Maudy. He looked at his wife and ended up taking a deep breath. “You eat first. Sorry, but it bothers you. If you go straight to the room. Someone wants to talk to you.”

Maudy nodded very softly.

She stared at her husband's departure and scooped up the last mouthful. He put the plate in its place.

“Hopefully nothing strange and no fuss anymore. Because I'm really tired if I get to fight it.”

Maudy went upstairs and went into her room. He saw Farhan sitting seriously on the sofa. He sat down before him, swallowing the saliva, surprised to see the serious looking Farhan.

“You want to talk to me? All of you want to sign the divorce papers that I have taken care of?” maudy asked without looking into her husband's eyes.

“Indeed since when did you agree with your one request?” asked Farhan flatly. He took the covenant letter on the nightstand and tore it apart in front of Maudy. “This agreement also. I don't care anymore. And I will never follow what you want. Because you never follow what you want.”

“But ..”

“No need to buts. You should have realized Maudy. Who are you asking for the divorce and here who can ask for the divorce. Not you at all. Your job is just diem and do not do anything. You stay nurut same mas and never run afoul at all.”

“I can't mas ..”

“Not what!” farhan exclaimed with a voice that began to rise. “You really can't do what you're asking? You're still my wife and your language is still under my footing. As long as there is no talking for your divorce, you do not have the right to act arbitrarily.”

“...”

“Duty wife at home. Submissive under the orders of the husband. But what are you doing? You never forget what mas pinta and mas also often love you freedom. From work, use the car, mail this house and much more. But you never appreciate it at all.”

“...”

“Can be said you are of no use if it is in this house. You should have realized. Here you do not do anything yet and you also still get a lot of money from the mas. So you should be self-aware and do what you used to do fitting first.”

“...”

“Mas tuh is actually not in love with you and mas is also too lazy to see you. Especially your defense in this house. Because what? Love is only for Nadya. He has made me realize the meaning of happiness.”

“I am a girl is useless. I cannot make my own husband happy. So why are you defending me? This useless woman?” maudy asked with a small laugh. “I'm of no use. More precisely, I am the one who is of no use. Now I want to ask. What is the reason I was born in this world. If in fact. No one feels useful because of me. I think I am a woman who does not use.”

“Not that mas.”

“Same aja ..”

“Have ... earlier you asked why did not divorce you?”

Maudy nodded with great confidence.

“Because it wasn't Nadya who told me. It's on your own will and I don't want to make myself tired. Just calm. Not that dear is the same as you. Until you want to defend it. I am not in love. Even mas lazy,” exclaimed then realized that Maudy was silent. “Tumben you don't scream and get angry.”

“Tumben ..”

Maudy smiled softly.

“Every night I bow my head to my pillow, I try to convince myself that I am strong,”. “For the first time I described what I was going through. For the first time I understood and accepted with my heart that what I wanted did not always come true. There is a force that determines the end of all roads. There are lessons I want to learn and now I understand that I don't always get what I want.”

Farhan quiet.

“Capek mas ..” Maudy turned her eyes the other way. Her tears came back down. “If he says strong, of course I will scream if I am not strong. But back again, I'm just tired of myself if the business is already like gini.”

“Since when did you realize?” yang Farhan still doesn't care. “By yesterday you were still angry. Even to make my ears hurt. Anyway you are very noisy. Like a woman who has never been loved at all. Not clear ...”

“Maybe since you vacation?”

“...”

“From your holidays with Nadya. Make me realize that I'm not that important to you. I'm not told. You didn't even answer my permission at the time. You know, the mall. I've done a lot of things that you like to make you sorry. Because I feel evil with you.”

“Means?”

“I have bought lots of cakes, flowers and cooking. Yes ... I realize that I was wrong at the time and when I wanted to apologize from you. Is this what I even get? I really didn't expect it at all.”

“Dan .. as long as you go. I learned a lot of lessons. So, now I want to make you a good husband. I don't want to see you add sin just because it can't be fair because she's your wife.”

“Not fair how is it anyway?” farhan said, who did not understand at all. “Home feelings you doang and you are always not sure if the mass will be able to take care of you with Nadya. You also like to squirm mas tuh terribly wrong because mas have two wives even though you know for yourself that there are also prophets who have many wives.”

“Do not equate you with a holy creature, mas.” Maudy stared lazily. “They are too holy to be paired with you and they can be fair. But you? Where is the fair location? All you do is complain and never admit the same thing between me and Nadya. But come back .. if you think it's fair. I can what? I can't do anything ..”

“Ck ..”

“Everything I just hope you can do what you want and mas can freely do anything without having to think about the sins that you receive. So, I'm backing off. You don't have to think about me and Nadya anymore. You don't have to choose between us anymore. Because all you have is Nadya. You can focus on him. No need to think about me anymore.”

“...”

“I retreat mas,” honest Maudy. “Sick but this is one of the best roads, mas. I protect you and I give in ..”

Farhan looked in anger.

“Nobody caved. You stay here! I will not divorce you at all. It will not make you free. Fuck your kindness. Because I will never care!” he was angry before the door was slammed and Farhan left Maudy.

The woman took a deep breath.

“Good intentions are still looking wrong in the eyes of Farhan .. so what should I do?”