Woman Without Womb
Chapter 53 - What Is Self-Esteem?

“You really why the hell?”

Nadya was quite bored with the behavior of Farhan who seemed to be emotional continues it. Since waking up in the morning, Nadya's questions continue to be answered ketus same Farhan and now Farhan always do nothing with anger. Even the innocent stuff got damaged because of Farhan.

“Then again the emotion to another problem do not lanterninnya to the goods or me. I don't like it. You are a husband, so you can't. You should understand dong. If again angry mending in them, no need to be angry anywhere like that.”

“According to you, Nadya's divorced mas isn't?” farhan asked as he sat facing Nadya. “If you really have to divorce. Like you said. If we lose someone who cleans this house but is also sick of seeing him in this house. He didn't know himself and now what? He brought sins. But no one cares at all. The important thing is that she is still a wife and mas still costs her life. Why should he complain?”

“Ya .. maybe because mommy same father who always defend sister. Big brother grew up like that,” said Nadya while rubbing her husband's back. “Maybe you've heard something different from Maudy. Not like that.”

Farhan nodded in emotion.

“Mas is really surprised really when it turns out he is manipulative. You know not even a couple of years of marriage with Maudy. I know you're the same evil parents and Maudy who keeps getting bullied. So yes it is. After I know everything. I really don't believe in him.”

Nadya smiled sneerily.

“Well ... as it seems, now you already know the original how right?” nadya asked with pleasure. Ah, the lie he made turned out to be powerful as well.

Nadya stared at Farhan's back. She realized that her husband was so stupid. It's easy to make in a lie. Nadya has now made the image of Maudy bad in the eyes of Farhan and now Nadya just think about how to make Maudy can be under his orders.

Ah, but Nadya's gonna put that aside. For now he will focus on what is in front of him. Nadya grabbed Farhan's body and rubbed his back.

“Sometimes I'm really sad. Why did Maudy slander me. But back again. Do you know the same nature? And let no one be hurt by his behavior again. So I hope you can get rid of your ego. Don't be selfish and divorce Maudy. I don't want to until someone else is the victim.”

“Huh ... so we have to hold on nih?”

Nadya nodded.

“For now yes so. So, don't care about Maudy's request. Abaiin. Don't sign the divorce papers. If he's overreacting, I'll start acting. And also ... no need to be angry again with him. Let alone. Let her tired herself.”

Farhan nodded.

“YA UDAH .. but the real mas will not stand if Maudy uglyin you. If he is too much. I'll instantly cut him off. No matter you are forbidden. The important thing is we can live happily without him.”

“Iya mas .. but for now, don't be.”

***

Maudy came out of her room with super puffy eyes. He spent all his time crying. Maudy turned off her phone. No one disturbs their own time. He actually chose to forget everything and ended up just crying without anyone understanding at all.

“Tomorrow I have to compress my eyes. Don't want me to work with puffy eyes.” Maudy tore up the calendar with that missed date. “Actually there is still one week to rest at home anyway. But I really can't and don't want to. After all, being at home is much more fun than me who lives in the office with an endless stack of files.”

He giggled and tried to take a leisurely walk while passing Nadya the same Farhan who was embracing the friendly.

Maudy chose to cook vegetables and side dishes for their dinner and after everything was done. He brought his plate into his room. He left all his food in the kitchen. No matter about them. They have nothing at all, either.

“They just eat, without any initiative permission,” murmured Maudy while putting the results of his cooking on the dining table and rushed back.

Maudy slightly glanced at Farhan who did not care about him at all. His heart ached a little but he tried to hold everything back and sat on the balcony scrolling the beautiful night sky.

“Pengin really become a star,” Maudy murmured after finished chewing. “Liar can be lighted in the dark of the night. But what power I was born into a dim star. Let alone could destroy people's lives. There is a ray I keep on absorbing the same people.”

Maudy laughed.

“Sometimes I feel myself really great because I can be at this point. If I say yes, I am tired. But in fact, God is still not satisfied with the trials of life to me. So how else, right? Other than me who should stay here and survive.”

He bit the seed inside.

It stirred up the origin of the food. It hurts. Every moment is always crowded. Wants to walk away but Maudy doesn't like divorce without anything being certain. He wants to solve all his problems with sure to leave. Let it not cause pain that is getting deeper and bigger.

He wants it all done with no problems at all.

“Terus .. if you are already gini? What should I do?” ask Maudy to herself. “I'm too embarrassed to say the same to Hermawan. How did he respond? Especially if I have him. I don't know what his response is now. Definitely angry again.”

He nodded slowly.

“Understanding if Hermawan gets angry. Because I am a wayward. Not the news. Now even run away kayak gini and say from civilization. But hopefully Hermawan did not reach the angry ones. I'm afraid of losing temen.”

Maudy continued to speak until she began to feel her throat very dry. He turned his head and could only pat his forehead in annoyance.

“In no box, already know eat. But do not bring a drink at all.”

Maudy came back out of the room and went downstairs. But his steps stopped at the end of the stairs when he saw Nadya as Farhan was busy eating junk food that they might order.

He stared softly at his homemade cooking that was still on the dining table. It looks so empty and means nothing.

He smiled thinly.

“Indeed it was wrong, I myself who was heartbroken. Why do I make them masakin when they just do not want to see me at all?” mumbles Maudy in the heart. He stepped past them and put all the food into the storage rack. He took the water and immediately drank there until it ran out. Then choose back.

“Starting tomorrow don't bother anymore. Want to be queen in this house? So just do what you like and do not need to bother to clean this house,” exclaimed Farhan suddenly which made Maudy step stopped in the first rung of the stairs.

He looks.

“Why? I look so angry. Even though you yourself are pretentious to want in the queen, but never love what you want. Like your sister is this. He can give you a child. I will gladly agree on what he wants. But what are you? I will never get pregnant. But very pretentious. Don't know yourself.”

Maudy clenched her hands and could not answer. He just looked at the two of them flatly.

Look ... Without Farhan conscious, now Nadya is laughing.

“You have become the most pretentious human being, who ever knew and now you carry with you the sins of the people. Hahaha ... rather than pointing. You should have pointed at yourself. Not really a wife yet? Wife how can be angry constantly and can not touch her husband's heart.”

“...”

“Mas really nyesel because it had love with you. I think the old man still closed his eyes. Mas can not be different tuh, which is the same real angel who is fake like you. Huh, you're a wife who doesn't know herself. Not useful ...”

Maudy tears and looks at Farhan with Nadya who laughs with no thought of her feelings for each other.

“And one more .. mas will not be that easy to make your release. I am not satisfied to see you cry. You should be more tormented than what you are now.”

“Oh yes .. if you want to be sorry from mas and Nadya. You have to learn a lot from Nadya and see what Nadya says. Don't peep at all. Especially until it turns. You should entertain us. New we'll apologize it's the same you.”

“Jadi ... mas hope you can start thinking about your actions and start changing them. Before mas really angry and will bully you that deep.”

Maudy looked hatefully at the two who were joking with each other. He kept clenching his hands until his sharp fingernails stuck firmly and left marks so deep.

But it did not hurt at all in his heart.

Heart's broken. His self-esteem goes down and he doesn't know what else to do. He was too embarrassed and now chose to step foot slowly towards his room.

Upon arriving, Maudy was only able to hit his chest.

“I hate being helpless like this, I hate."