Woman Without Womb
Chapter 105 - Still Not Getting Rest
While two people were hugging each other downstairs, two women were also looking from the second floor. Nadia and Mother Salma. Both of them have been paying attention since then and they can only be satisfied to see their togetherness which is quite capable of making the hearts of both of them vibrate.
Nadia closed the balcony room door including white curtains, letting her brother spend the same time Hermawan down there.
“Bun ... Mommy see right? How good is Hermawan? What you worry about again. Brother Hermawan even cried .. mother squirms right? We see from above that Brother Hermawan deliberately hid his cries and did not want brother Maudy to be worried. Mommy knows, if a man is crying because of a woman .. that means he is really sad. That means he loves that girl. So, do not separate them bun ... they are entitled together.”
“...”
Nadia walked around and stood in front of her bundle. He carried his arms and continued to grip very tightly.
“Bun .. I know your concerns, but I also believe that Hermawan parents are the same kind of brother .. surely Brother Hermawan will not be separated by that hand either. Brother Hermawan must have defended Maudy in such a way. I am sure ... Brother Hermawan enter the type that will not care ..”
“...”
“She has been in love with Maudy from school days, mother imagine how happy brother Hermawan when Maudy received his love. But, dear .. they have to ignore this even when they should have received all the affection from everyone. So, mother do not add to the distress of them yes ..”
“What can Maudy really be happy if the same man?”
Nadia nodded quickly. He felt that everything would go well if his brother could be with Hermawan.
“Bun ... for many years we have always banned this brother, even we have become a source of injury in the life of the brother. And mom says it herself isn't the same to me? If now our lives are only dedicated to Maudy. We must make Maudy happy .. because that is the purpose of our lives. As ... apologies for all this time we have been evil brother Maudy ..”
Mother Salma was silent.
“I've never prayed more than asking my sister to meet the right person. Mommy knows no. .. one that I am afraid of,” said Nadia beheaded her speech.
“Fear? What are you afraid of?” ask the confused Mother Salma.
“I'm afraid that Maudy's sister is traumatized by marriage, and what I'm more afraid is that Maudy's sister is afraid to fall in love again. Because Farhan is the same I have already cut off the trust of Nadia.”
Mother Salma was silent.
“Mother can shadow dong... if Maudy brother is indeed traumatized by all that, surely he will not marry again and how will his life in the future? There is indeed us .. but everyone also needs people who understand it right? And it can only be obtained from loved ones aka our partner.”
“Bener also ..”
“Makanya .. pas denger kak Maudy have the same feeling brother Hermawan, I became a great relief. Because what? because Maudy didn't have that trauma and I'm also relieved that Maudy's sister fell in love with a man I don't have to worry about anymore. Remembering Brother Hermawan who has always been there for brother Maudy. So, I'm not too worried about that ..”
Mother Salma nodded.
What choice was wrong this time? Does he have to allow his son to be happy even though there will be many obstacles in the future? He was very confused and did not know what kind of decision to make.
“Bun .. give them permission, let them get married in KUA. As if to validate their relationship so that Brother Hermawan can think more relieved and do not think of arranged marriages that are sold with his parents. I'm sure ..mom didn't have to worry at all. Because they will find their own happiness.”
“Ya already .. if everyone says it will be okay. Tell them, if you give permission. You're the one who said, mommy wants a break. Mother's head is pening.”
Nadia reflkes embraced her mother and stared worriedly. “Mother is fine, right? Don't think too much about this. I don't want you to get sick just because you think about Maudy's sister. Sure ... Brother Maudy will be fine aja.”
Mother Salma finally smiled thinly, much more relieved than a moment ago.
“Ya already ... mama just lack of rest anyway, you do not have to worry. Tell them too, mother love their same permission,” her mother's orders made Nadia immediately screech and hug him very tightly.
Nadia was actually shrieking happily, just like her who felt this happiness. He kept on screaming and saying thank you to his mother. Mother Salma just patted her youngest child on the back and nodded.
“Mother leave everything the same you, if your felling is the same all, you do not want to accept and if you look around, Nak Hermawan is the right man. After all, mother also can not be selfish right here?”
“Whatever it is, I'm really grateful to you. Mother who wants to relax the ego of the mother is very good. I'm sure Brother Hermawan will do anything good for Maudy. So, we don't have to worry ..”
“Iya .. Mother really want to rest first deh,” said the mother again slowly. Still worried about his heart. So, he was not too willing to respond to the words of his son.
Nadia finally let her mother out of the room and she could only look worriedly at her mother. She knew that it was not that easy for her mother to accept Nadia's statement, she also knew that her mother's mind was still at war in her thoughts.
“Ah .. as surely there is already a bright spot if the mother smells to receive the relationship of brother and sister Hermawan. Hopefully in the future they will be better.”
***
It had been five days since Hermawan declared his serious intentions to Maudy and since then Hermawan has often come to the house. Sipping or giving food to them. Since then, Maudy has taken her leave. Maudy took a leave of absence not because there was alesan Hermawan. But this was Maudy's initial intention long ago.
Because, the sewing business is much more developed than before and after Maudy counted his efforts already have a considerable advantage to live it and since got it all, he said, indeed, Maudy thought to get out of his company and now he was at the point of going out and focusing on his business.
“Ya .. no problem dong, son.” Answer the bunda while stroking his son's hair. “All your decisions will be agreed. After all, you must know better what is good for you as well?” ask her mother and laugh.
“Then mother can also dong permission I make a marriage with Hermawan, will you know that the decision I made is definitely for my good as well. So, can dong if I marry Hermawan.”
The elusan in his head stopped making Maudy laugh in his heart.
Even after all the efforts made by Hermawan on his mother, until this moment his mother still could not accept this well. He wanted to cry, confused about what to do.
“Bun... want to until when mama silence me if you have talked about this problem? when do you want to be? Don't say .. Would you like to reach Hermawan's parents and take Hermawan away from my side again? Until I can't see Hermawan again.”
“You really love Hermawan?”
Maudy nodded and immediately got up. He ignored the feeling of dizziness because he suddenly stood up. He looked seriously at the mother and then begged deeply.
“Maybe a strange surprise, because I used to do the same thing. If I love Farhan. But, honestly my feelings to Hermawan are much deeper than before. No, because I wasn't serious about Farhan. But this is the effect of my relationship with Hermawan who has been a long time ago.”
“...”
“If you still want, I already have a relationship with Hermawan from a long time ago ... even before I met Farhan. So, it's natural that I've been much more comfortable and changing our status is also not a difficult thing ..”
“Bun .. come on,” persuade Maudy again. “I rarely ask for serious same mother and I also never asked for this same mother. Even I always forbid myself to ask for excessive. I never blamed my mother at all. I even apologize for all the problems in the past,” he said in a soft voice. “Sorry .. if I bring up the impression. But ... This is all I can do. Because I don't know the real mother. I didn't know alesan mother forbade me to do this. I don't understand at all ...”
Mother Salma stroked her child's thigh which from day to day she saw her eye bags getting blackened.
“Nak .. mother, not a good parent for you. Want you to do it a thousand times too, mother realized that in fact the mother is not a good parent for you. And now you want to redeem everything ..”
“Means mother?”
“Mother wants to prioritize your happiness, and mother also knows if you are happy right together with Hermawan. But in the corner of the mother's heart like something is stuck and the mother is still worried for permission or love not the same you.”
“After everything I said and persuaded mother?” ask the surprised Maudy. “After Hermawan who always effort comes here even though he is also busy with his business. Hermawan bela build everything from the beginning for my sake, he said .. if later get permission from the mother. Hermawan does not want me to live in a place that is not worth it. He wants me to always be happy ..”
“...”
“Bun .. have you never seen the sparkling gaze shown by Hermawan? Have you never seen the love that Hermawan always throws at me? Did you never hear the sincerity that Hermawan did to us? He always felt his heart. But why did you never wake up and continue to forbid me? It feels .. I want to give it up, bun. Let Hermawan live his life without me.”
“Nak ..”
“I know it's hard and I can't interfere with anything either. Because what? because as a parent I must also do the same thing like mother. I cannot get pregnant and have children. Not many men want to be like me. But Hermawan? Even after he knew my weakness. She still wants to marry me. At a time when many people will never choose me .. it turns out there is still one man who wants to be the same I.”
“Bunda—
“Sometimes I envy Nadia,” honest Maudy in the end while sitting leaning and not pointing again to the bundaanya.
He stared at the ksoong towards the door of the house that was always left open to make it easier for Nadia to meet customers who always come home.
“He did live alone, without worries. Maybe the worry is just money to take care of Nada. But, yes you know right .. if the money can be searched in any way. But different from the child, want me to try as much as possible. I can't get pregnant. If I kill myself like Nadia, I am still lonely because in fact I am alone. Different Nadia who has Tone in her life ..”
Maudy took a deep breath. Women can't have children are always on his mind and since then it's been quite disturbing.
“Not many want to be like women like me, but after anyone wants to. Mother even wants to get rid of it?”
“Mother does not mean that,” elak mama Salma who refused. Because in fact he did not remove Hermawan from the life of his son. But he was still worried and did not know which one to choose.
“...”
Maudy could only take a deep breath and lift her leg. He rubbed his head roughly, making Salma's mother stare with worry. Because he also does not want to see his son who is like this, constantly sad.
“Kasih mother time yes .. Mother actually will think for your good, as soon as possible. One week, the mother promises in the next week the mother will tell you the truth. How's it? You will do what you asked for, right? You want to wait, right?”
Maudy just resigned and stood up. “I don't know until when I can wait for all of this, but I want to go to the room first. I have stitches to finish and maybe Hermawan will come soon. And ... I hope you don't still behave with Hermawan. Because he's not wrong.”
And in the end the mother Salma can only look resigned to the departure of her son who entered the room. Mother Salma was confused as to what to continue.
"Hopefully, my heart is not worried anymore to be able to give permission to Maudy. Pity him" he said slowly.
