Woman Without Womb
Chapter 04 - The Past

Flashbacks

“I want this!”

Little Maudy was only able to hug her pink rabbit doll that her father had just loved. He shook his head small and looked down.

“Mother ... her sister is stingy. I asked for a doll that Dad loved. I don't want to give you!” the cry of little Nadya made the mother immediately terpogoh-pogoh approaching them.

Maudy hugged her doll even more, because she knew she would soon be robbed and sure enough, her doll was snatched.

“Mother .. I've given you everything. I permit you to wear all my toys, clothes that I have, even I have permission to use my savings. But not this one. Dad loves me this toy and I also love dolls to dummy really. So don't take mine!”

“BUT I DON'T WANT A TEDDY BEAR! I want one with a sister,” cried Nadya while crossing her arms in the chest. “Mother .. I want that doll. Don't want a bear.”

Maudy.

“You know your own brother likes rabbits, you do not like bears? I love what you want. Why do you ask for a doll with a sister too?”

“Kakak ..” interrupted the mother

“Mother?” reply Maudy while shaking her head. “Do not yes. Not this doll. I am really asking for forgiveness. Mommy can love all the stuff I have but don't doll me.”

“You are so stingy to be a child!” mad mother Salma snatched the doll and gave it to Nadya.

Little Nadya screeched cheerfully.

Her frowning face turned so full of happiness. “Still mother! It's just my mother who loves me. I'm happy!”

And in the end, Maudy's eyes could only see her doll with her sister, away from her.

“Munda ..”

“Do not cry! Noisy knows. Udah, your job to be a big brother is just obedience and love happiness for your sister. Mommy no longer wants to be horrified by you who can't give.”

In the end the little boy was crying. His childhood was always like this.

Growing up, Maudy began to understand that things were different. It was as if Nadya had two parents and she only had her father who cared about her.

It hurts to see how her own twin sister is treated like a queen and herself like a stranger. Even Maudy felt that she was not a part of them, her foreign ranking. Unfortunately their faces are so similar to Maudy throw away the thought that they brought her from the orphanage.

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“BUNDA DOESN'T LOVE ME!”

Was Maudy about seventeen? Yes, the time where he had to choose a college place to continue his school period and this became his limit.

“Nak .. instead of mother does not love you. But the cost of the college you mean is not cheap. What's private, right? So you think you can choose another college place. Mother please ..”

Maudy is only able to look at Nadya who rages, her mother who is trying to win the sister, and her father who only massages the head. Because at that time their efforts began to decline and the cost of entry was very small. Make their families be economical.

And, Maudy was only able to collect a college brochure that she just wanted to talk to her parents. Displays the intention to talk about this issue.

Nadya likes her hair and shakes her head.

“I don't want to know, I have to go to college there! And tomorrow mother and father should sign me up. Because if I don't, I'm really gonna get mad and get out of here! Because no one loves me.”

Nadya left them, leaving behind calls and calls from Salma's mother who was not heard at all.

Nights, evening,

Maudy was confused when Salma's mother and Bima's father entered her room. They were very serious and asked Maudy for what they said.

“Mother here decided to lecture your sister and maybe this afternoon you were horrified by yourself right? So, you hope you as the oldest realize what else is facing your sister. How's it? You can and will not complain at all.”

Maudy.

“Means?”

“Ck .. Yes you should be aware that your sister's tuition fees are not small. So you hope you don't want you with your college as well. You can work first. Can you understand us?”

Broke Maudy's tears that night. Trembling he took out the brochure he had and showed it to his parents.

“You got a scholarship?” ask Bima's father who was directly influenced by Maudy.

Maudy nodded quickly.

“School gave me this scholarship in hopes I can continue well. Although not up to one hundred percent, but I got a scholarship. If I don't go to college, my dear. I wasted this dream and not everyone can carelessly get this scholarship.”

Maudy.

“I beg ... don't forbid me to go to college. I promise I will not make you dizzy because of the cost, because I will keep helping you. But I can't promise because I don't know what's going on in the future either. But ... don't prohibit me from going to college.”

“Bun,” call dad Bima

“Not-no .. You take the scholarship, but then even we think about the cost. You don't have to be a child. You just do not want to go to college and work. Some mothers realize kayak gini also because love the same you. Mother does not want if you are dizzy thinking about lessons in college or later sick because of college assignments. If you work too. You have money, right? So you think you are in college.”

“Bun ..”

Maudy looked disappointed.

“I got a scholarship, bun. Isn't that who should go to college even me? Not Nadya. Why isn't he going to college next year? Why should I again ..”

“Ck, how noisy you are as a child. Have you been costing your life all this time, but it turns out this is the package? Can't .. Mother really can't. You can only complain about doang. Don't want much. You are quite working and that is all that can help us.”

Maudy looked at Bima's father, hoping to help but Bima's father could not do anything without his wife.

And in the end, he gave up again.

His life has always been this way. From childhood, adolescence and adulthood are still the same. This is Maudy's deepest wound. But now there's another reason that Maudy is really disappointed with her mother.

When her parents allowed her husband to marry her twin sister.