Woman Without Womb
Chapter 118 - Children's Matters

It had been two months, the life of Hermawan and Maudy went on. Mother Santi is still with them even now he is very close to Maudy. Plus Maudy's family who often come to the apartment, making the two women who gave birth to Maudy and Hermawan was also very close.

Happiness continues to come to their families.

Makes Maudy really happy about everything that happened in her life.

“Mas ..”

Hermawan cleared his throat as he occasionally glanced at Maudy, making sure his wife was all right.

Maudy sighed while putting her phone on the bed. She just got word that one of her friends had just given birth. He saw that super cute baby. Immediately a feeling of envy and jealousy surrounded his heart.

“Mas,” call Maudy again.

“Hmm?”

Maudy grumbled in annoyance. “You have no mouth!” it is the emotion that is. “I called from earlier just dehem doang. I also want to hear you ‘ada what dear?’ or ‘why .. here tell mas’ but from earlier you just dehem doang. Is your job that important? More important than wife?”

Hermawan sighed.

He closed his laptop and approached Maudy. “What's the matter dear?” he said very softly. “Sorry yes because I am busy with my own work until you hirauin. All this time, we have been busy working together. But right at home, masa mas must ignore you again. Sorry yes ..”

Hermawan. Lately he has been too busy working together. Launching that he did a while ago, made him have to work outside often. He ignored his wife who was always at home. Not infrequently, while at home even Hermawan will be busy with his laptop to take care of incoming and outgoing data.

Yes .. he does not have any employees. As a result he had to take care of everything and impact on his reduced time for his wife.

“Sorry yes,” said Hermawan again while pulling Maudy's waist and lifting into his lap. He grabbed that little waist. Put his face in the neck niche that is so fragrant while occasionally sniffing.

“Hmm ..”

“Ih, don't get mad dong. I'm really sorry about you. Promise will not be repeated again,” promise. “Dan .. earlier you want to say what mas same?” ask the curious Hermawan.

“You know not,” he said who was joined by Hermawan but immediately got a slow blow on his back. “Ish! Seriously yes mas, I'm serious again instead of joking ..”

“Hahaha .. okei, mas sorry. So, what's up?”

“Last-lately we who from High School to college inexplicably asked for friendship on my social media. Yes I mah while it is still in the realm of friendship yes I will just accept it. So, I started to chatan deh same them,” Maudy story.

“Okei ... continue?”

“Well, that was one of my friends. You will not know,” give years that Hermawan berbuki. “She showed off that her son was just born and took a photo of his son. I knew he had no intention of showing off to me. After all, he doesn't know the same about my condition. But why do I feel so sad. Kayak ... usually I can control for ordinary and not envious. But this is mah, really envious.”

Maudy took a deep breath. She hugged her husband more and more while occasionally staring at the dark window.

“It looks exciting yes mas so a mother tuh. Kayak ... writhing the child we bear ourselves grow up must make us very happy. I think the same thing people say that women are not perfect if they do not understand the pain of the body .. That's why I'm a little jealous of women who can frown on it all.”

“You envy?”

Maudy nodded, her voice growing weaker.

“Sometimes I really am the same person who complains if being a woman is not good. What else should mengerasain menstrual pain. Until I don't want to be born because I don't want to suffer his pain. Some say they don't want to have children. Let's not get that sick. I'm really mad at the same person who said that, mas ..”

Hermawan nodded still continuing to rub his wife's back.

“Kayak, why they are not grateful. There are still many people who want to have children out there but ngedenger their speech makes me furious. Why can't they posisin themselves like I'm gini .. why do they just say it? Why they never knew that the child was the most beautiful gift ..”

“Its okei dear, we can not ask people to follow what we want,” said Hermawan. “They say that because they never know the grace that has been in the love of God as they are. And our job is also not to scold them, because there are even more problems. We pray enough that they will touch.”

“And me?” point Maudy at him. He took off his arms and looked at Hermawan.

“We've been talking about this a lot, right? Be grateful yuk Maudy .. don't need to stick with the same thing like gini. We talk about something that makes us happier. Sad energy we radiate do not make new problems come to our lives.”

Maudy was not satisfied.

He could only look down but the kiss on his forehead made him look up.

“Gini aja deh .. mas understand really, our speech is getting late at night tuh will be more ngalor ngidul kayak gini. You don't have to think about this anymore. As we sleep. You're going to your mother's house tomorrow, right? Don't get up late. Because the road to it again in Prestige. So, the way just in the afternoon must have jammed really ..”

Maudy nodded.

He got out of bed and entered the bathroom. Wash your face and feet before you go back to the bed. Positioning himself to be comfortable in the arms of Hermawan.

“Mas .. elus his back,” pinta Maudy with a clean slit.

Hermawan smiled very thinly and followed the orders of his wife. He continued to wipe until Maudy began to sleepy. Her eyes began to occasionally force themselves to look at her husband's face. He elus the stern jaw of Hermawan.

“Mas .. If we can have children, surely our children can be as handsome as you yes and repeatedly I apologize to you. Sorry because I can not love children for you,” he said very slowly.

“Hei ... What are you talking about?” said Hermawan and shook his head.

“I am sometimes afraid,” he said very softly, “I am afraid if you leave because of my condition. I really will not be able to imagine how you are smitten with other women and the woman can have children,” said Maudy again while imagining his past.

“...”

“I lost hard, mas. I really won't be able to say anything else if it's about the child. I will never be able to love you son. Duh, why so sad again yes,” murmured and then chuckled.

“I don't want to lose anymore, enough yesterday. Just yesterday I felt the pain that really made me can't stand my own life. I don't want to play a second time.”

“...”

“I love you— so dear.”

No more sounds came out of his wife's mouth. Hermawan looked over and found that Maudy had fallen asleep. He laughed a little. “You are very excited anyway. Why among your anxiety is this. Do you still have to think about problems in your life? Though I do not care at all whatever your condition.”

“...”

“How can I turn to other women, if in fact I have been bewitched with your love? I will never turn away at all. You have enough and nothing else at all. Just you and forever will be so.”

Hermawan again kissed his wife's forehead before standing up and tidying the blanket. Then he went out of his room.

“Mother not asleep?” surprised Hermawan when he saw his mother still sitting in front of the television.

“Hmm ... mother heard everything.”

Hermawan gasped and immediately sat down near his mother. “Bun? Mommy listen. Bun ... don't be mad about Maudy. Mother do not talk about the macem-macem about the condition of this one Maudy. I don't want Maudy to be sad because she doesn't get support from her closest family. It was quite the sadness of his life all this time. I don't want if you are also one of the people who continue this day and make Mauy down again.”

“No .. Mother will not blame Maudy. Mother so just remember the past mother.”

“Last time?”

The mother nodded.

“Mother is actually hard to get to you. Various ways in doing mother with your father, but at that time we did not have much money. That's why we resigned. We do not know what to do. mother to feel failed to be a wife because she can not love him child.”

“Bun ..”

“Bunda finally can just hold back and do not want to leave the house because it does not want to be in the same person. Yes ... until finally God loves miracles to mother and mother permission to take care of you.”

“....”

“So, you know a little how Maudy feels right now. He must be down again. Mother sure ... the word patience actually has no effect at all in her life. Because hearing the word patience just makes us sick.”

“Jadi ... I have what bun?” ask Hermawan. “I sometimes squirm. I don't know what to do either. I've always been told that Maudy touched on this. For fear that he even responded to Maudy added heartache ..”

“Ngak can .. anyway as long as the mother alamin. If you are sad and sad about this. Mommy just feels that the world is never fair with us,” he exclaimed to make Hermawan more silent.

“Mother also do not know .. because it always feels emotional like loh.”

Hermawan increasingly did not understand and leaned his body to the sofa. He's massaging his forehead. He never expected to have a child. He also did not matter if they finally could not have children, but Hermawan really disputed that Maudy who had wronged himself.

He can't bear.

He did not like to see his wife cry.

Then, Hermawan seemed to remember something and justify his sitting position.

“Bun ...,” call it

“Yes? why nak?” ask the mother

“Actually I'm looking for a little bit kepikrian, if you want to lift a child from an orphanage. But until now I have not dared to tell Maudy. Afraid to offend him, and I also need to ask permission from my mother, especially Maudy's mother. Who knows you guys have better advice.”

“Loh ... good loh.”

“Who's good?” force Hermawan

“Yes good if you think you want to raise a child. Besides being able to make the less fortunate child so lucky to have a family. You are equally Maudy also lucky to have a child who accompanies you and does not make you lonely.”

“So yes?”

Hermwan imagined. Whoever the child they foster will bring happiness in the household.

“Originally you are with Maudy seriously,” said her mother again made Hermawan stare confused. “Iya .. sometimes there are people who become like their adopted children, because they feel he is not our flesh and blood. There is also only a pity at the beginning of the doang. So, mom doesn't want you to do that either. If you want to raise a child, you have to commit to yourself.”

“That's yes?”

“Iya dong .. You must be committed. Can't you love him like he's his own son? Can you not meet her needs? can you not make him happy? And you also have to think about how you tell alesan to lift him up a child or when he grows up, you have to prepare to know who you really are.”

“Woah ... really a lot of yes that I have to think about,” muttered Hermawan

Mother Santi nodded.

“Mother does not want alesan you take a child just because of the prestige especially because only want at the beginning of the doang. Even if he's not your real son. You must take care of him with affection. So, mother just want ingetin it doang. No more ...”

“Iya, bun. Mother just calm, I am also not that bad to take people's children without any consideration at all. I also want it to be Maudy's mother. I seem to have received permission from my mother. So, I'm much calmer .. I want Maudy to be happy and I hope what I'm doing right now will make her happy.”

“Mother will always pray for whatever you do, son .. happy continue yes.”

“Still bun ..”