Him
episode 35

Taxi car that I had stopped at the end of the road.look Yellow Flag mounted on the corner of the electric pole.from a distance I saw the ambulance.I feel not good.I ran limped as I could.

I saw people huddling.He heard Raung crying.

I walked.people watched me.I could not cry, cried Wailing.Faraway I saw my sister Dressed in White.they all greeted me.Mbak Ajeng and mbak Jani ran to hug me.We cried cuddling.from afar Kalina even approached us, and, Hugging me while crying.Truly unbearable pain, the feeling of haru full of peace.I feel pain, falling, and crushed my heart.feel lost some of the Spirit in me.

mas Koko and mas Panji then hugged me.hugging like reaching for pieces of a Broken Heart.At first they as men also looked Destroyed and Fragile.

Yes, we were six days it became an Orphan.

I walked into the House.I found Aunt Sari who was still roaring calling Papah.Seeming beside her my mama, mamah Haryanti.Papah's previous wife was crying sobbing.hold some of her sadness.I hug her while crying.cry as much in the arms of mamah.

Aunt Sari looked up at her hand,she was unable to stand up to all her sadness anyway.She roared calling my Name.She asked for forgiveness did not tell me the state of papah that almost a week in Rawat in ICU.I wipe the tears on her cheeks, he said,many times while saying strong strong strong while at will.

I wiped my tears that kept flowing.Cleaned my face using Tissue.again and again.

If I was strong, I approached Papah who was lying on a table covered with long Batik cloth.I opened the white brocade cloth cover his face slowly.

Looks like a pale-faced old man.

His face was very thin, very visible his cheekbones.

He was my father, my biological father, my first man I held him tightly.His body was very cold, cold pierced into my skin.

Kuseka returned my face many times with a tissue.Challenge for us to shed tears in front of him.That is always taught by mamah.

Sorrow, no matter how hard we.do not show a sense of compassion in front of others including papah.We must be strong.The word was ever thrown from his mouth which is now paled.

I hold as hard as I can to stare at her cold face.Kutahan all day and all the memories about her.

Kuseka Tears my eyes with the clothes I wear.I hid the sadness behind my palm, I came back crying Haru long.kalina grabbed and hugged me.We cried together.

After the papah is solatkan.we are welcome to see it for the last time.

we took turns, starting from Aunt Sari, mamah,mas Panji, Ajeng, Koko Mas, Jani's pitcher, Kalina then I.not to mention my sister-in-law and the nieces who were all present.om Ahmad also came from Bandung.

The first time I saw Mamah and Aunt Sari hugging each other.

Papah's body was raised by my brother who was assisted by a Doni, Hanif, Mas,And om Ahmad.they compact lower the body of papah to the burrow lahat.Mas Panji is the one who called the papah.Slow the red soil covering the board that tilts the face of papa to touch the ground.

it did not take long.The red earth mound has been spread in front of us.Flower covers it.

I embrace the papah navel again.I convey the Prayer through my Heart.said words that seemed to flow with prayer.

Sorry words from our children when they want to leave him alone here.

My left leg looked swollen.I lay in Kalina's room.This house has been renovated.looks a little relieved and Light.it does not look like the Old building as when I first visited her.

My body is hot, I seem to be sick.Out of the frenzied voice of Aunt Sari who asked someone to call a masseuse for me.Kalina still looks brooding.

" Kal, maybe this is the best for papah.we must be sincere" I said slowly

he looked towards me.

" i'm still late fitting video call Karo Kowe kae ay.jare papah tomorrow Kon kudu get along.keep in communication, Kon often call your crew opo mas mbak sing another" he said slowly.

" Continue unanswered, call also kudu ngerti wayahe (hour) Dulurku Ki Kabeh busy.opo neh Ayi." continued his.aku GG intention talk ne.kuwi omen kali ya ay." he said.

I took a breath.I was tired of wanting to rest.Just closed my eyes, I was tired,Aunty Sari came with a half-old mbok carrying a bushel that she said would massage and massage me.I resigned in my body and then on the palpable and hurt by an old woman..

It's been three nights I'm at papah house.The plan is we will wait until the seventh night.Some of us there are staying at the hotel.Since there are those who have small children.such as mbak Anjani and mbak Dian mas wife Mas Hanif and A Donny are back because of their work.

only we papah children who sleep in papah house minus mbak jani.mamah also stay here.

May this all be seen by Papah and make him happy.

Finished Tahlil, the guests have returned a lot.Tante Sari seemed accompanied by his relatives issued something.

A will for our son.

At first we all refused to discuss it, but he insisted on asking, because said Aunt Sari, on the last day papah asked to be read immediately if he was dead.

Kalina and I got the ration of the house and the fish pond that was behind her.

while mbak Ajeng and mbak Anjani get land not far from the papah house.

Mas Koko and mas Panji get rice fields and teak gardens Belik papah located far outside the city may be a half hour drive from the papah house.

Papah also intended that we keep the friendship, love each other.Menyayangi Aunt Sari as a woman who takes care of papah. although she is not our mother of five.we are asked to continue to keep her too although not wholely keep her own mamah.minimal attention to her.

And even though Kalina is a step-sister when the time is getting married, please be passed by mas Panji, koko mas. Assisted by all his needs.we are asked to take care of each other, love, advise each other.