DIORAMAS
Prologues

I once read a naive quote that was made by no one, saying someone can change for two reasons. First because someone who is very meaningful is present in his life, and the second is because someone who is very meaningful goes from his life.

And if I had to admit it, he came right when someone just decided to leave. Who and what really made me change? Did he just come or did he decide to leave?

I don't know, there's one side of my heart that justifies that quote. One side of the melancholy heart of a young woman who is heartbroken. But the side of my heart that I know logic is reluctant to agree with the quote a little. Logic that rejects the fact that a person's affairs, can change at any time without having any influence from others.

"One decides to change, it can only be controlled by himself, not others."

So he said

But shouldn't things be simpler? As simple as a person can change for anything, and not necessarily for someone else. Ah, is this life always related to one person with another? Let it be, doesn't everyone really have all the things he has enough to share with himself? And I was one of them.

And up to this point I had no idea what and who really made me change. All I know is I want to change. I want to be a better ‘aku’. And I still keep trying to be ‘aku’.

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From me they call it a story. I don't understand how someone suddenly decided to write a story. I don't understand how someone decides to end the story they've painstakingly shaped. I don't understand because it's been a long time since my story has ended and is dusty along with my heart that may have started to rust. It's getting worn out and dull so it can't be recognized until I just let it sit in one corner of the room.

He was the one who opened a new chapter of my storybook and wrote something.

Love

As soon as he wrote it down, a foreign word that I needed to study so that I could give it meaning. A word he said he wanted to make a phrase even though we didn't understand where we should start. A word that he thinks we can make a series of stories.

"I want to write a story like Peter Pan"

So said. Makes me wonder why she didn't write Cinderella and the prince? or Paris and Hellen in the Trojan War? Oh no, maybe Romeo and Juliet's story will be something beautiful.

But isn't it the same in the end? Whether the story of who we will write, in the end we ourselves will live it. Only we will understand how it feels when we fall in love. When we are injured. When we sat. Even when we say we want to give up.

"We just write our story, the name thing, later we think about it"