Bad Feelings
Jealous

The wall clock attached to the partition wall between the shelves of one another has shown at 3 pm. The apprentice lecturer was still struggling with his records. Although there was actually still 15 minutes for me to get out before the kunyuk boy finished college, but I decided to leave the library first. I think I better wait for him outside the library than to meet him in the library, let alone see by one of his lecturers later, can runyam.

"Eum...Nick, yes first" I said after returning the books I took according to the shelf. He looked up at me. Actually I just want to say goodbye to him for just manners, but Nick's arm that prevents me from moving makes me peg in place.

"I'm also done, we're out together" he quickly returned the book to the reference shelf. Because most of the books he read earlier contained the final task report and thesis.

I don't know why I'm waiting for him, you idiot. I should have avoided him why am I with him now? We went out of the library together. My eyes went around doing the kecak dance. Wish Jonathan hadn't left class and didn't see me now and would have made unnecessary misunderstandings.

"You busy?" ask Nick.

My head turned towards him. "Oh, I have a job at 4" I said. Shit, stupid me. Why am I being so honest that there is still time?

He smiles. "Good, I'm hungry. You want to accompany me to eat?" said offering.

"What?!" I screamed at him. Because this time I feel like someone who is afraid of being caught cheating on his girlfriend. "Eum.sorry" said I felt guilty for yelling at him just now. "I still have an appointment with someone, I think he's waiting for me now. So next time I'll accompany you to a meal" I said, finding Jojo walking toward the library.

"Oh okay. Wait, can I ask for your number?" he asked permission.

"Oh...eum.ya" I wrote my number to her without thinking what would happen later if I gave her my number, I wrote it in my binder book then tore the paper and gave it to her. "Here, I'm sorry I left first" said I immediately rushed to leave him and approached Jonathan.

"Hi...kak didn't miss me?" jojo exclaimed to find me running towards him.

I'm kinkling. "Oh, no. I just want to go to the toilet, you want to take me" I grabbed his arm and told him to turn around.

"Jonathan" called someone from behind us and I'm a little familiar with the sound and it looks like I just heard it. Jojo turned his head first because his name was called. "You're Jonathan 2017, right? Semester 2?" ask for a voice just now.

"Ah yes, what's wrong sir?" sahut Jojo knows who called him. I heard footsteps approaching. Inevitably I turned my head because Jojo's body had turned 180 degrees and released Jojo's arm.

"You know each other?" nick said to us. I think he asked this question on purpose, he must have expected it, because we just separated and he must have seen us both with a suspicious wave. Actually, my only behavior is suspicious. Why am I so careless?

I put a smile on her. Jonathan looked at us in turn. "Aren't you familiar with Nick?" tanyanya. His two pointy black eyebrows were clinging to each other.

I was unable to answer Jonathan's question, as my brain froze at once unable to find an excuse. "Yes, we just got out of the library and I think I know why you refused my invitation" said Nick who was originally directed towards Jojo now turned to me.

I can only smile. Shame is the right word to describe how I feel right now.

"By the morning I can't teach. So I leave the paper assignments to collect next week. Here's the material" handed Jonathan a bundle of papers that I had read, 'Materi–short Materi of Developmental Psychology.

He accepted it while nodding his head politely. After that Nick said goodbye before finally choosing to go first. After Nick's departure it felt like this heart hurt him a little, let alone see the look in his eyes when he looked at me before we separated earlier. A pair of hazel looks moody. Did I hurt her heart for lying? Or is it just my feeling?

"Aren't you acquainted with my lecturer?" jojo asked that directly made me feel good about myself. But I try not to show it on my face now.

"Oh, that. Yes, we were accidentally acquaintances in the cafeteria" I said trying to stay calm.

"It hasn't been long" I chose to walk first and Jojo tailed beside me.

"What are you doing in the bus?" ask again.

"Make note of material" I replied briefly.

"Then he took what brother?" ask again.

I saw Jojo, I smiled without answering his question. "I asked why my sister was smiling? My lecturer ngajak brother why?" annoyed.

"You jealous?" I am a little amused by his behavior.

"obvious. I'm jealous" he exclaimed.

"Goodoo. Ah, I'm hungry, I want to eat" I'll put this funny talk aside. I don't know why to see him honestly admit he was jealous is so funny.

"So, did you say you were going to the toilet?" jojo asked confusedly.

"It's not anymore" I said a little.

"Sister, did you have an affair?" accus me.

I stopped my footsteps. "Aish..you want us to break up now?" I snapped annoyed at Jojo's whining. Yes, even though my actions were actually like cheating behind her. But actually we did nothing, but I did not tell you that I gave my number to the apprentice lecturer earlier. He doesn't need to know either, does he? If I tell you, there will be more questions from him that initiated me.

"No. of course not" he said quickly. I nodded my head, then walked back. "Son't you be so dismissive?" he asked me softly, afraid that I might get upset again. He knows best how to overcome my frustration.

I smiled in response to her question. All right, I better explain to her that there's nothing between me and Nick, so that her anxiety subsides. "Although I want to, I am not a woman who is easy to be in a relationship with someone I just know after all my status now has a boyfriend, so I try as much as possible to be loyal to my boyfriend" hearing my words the face that was originally pouting and broadcasting fear was now radiant, his smile was re-shrinking.

"I'm sorry, I doubt my brother's sincerity" he said as he languished in my arms and leaned his big head against my shoulder. Seeing her behavior I pointed my shoulder and pulled my arm so she wouldn't stick to me anymore. But he insisted on sticking to me. Fucking kid. Let this boy enjoy his little happiness.

"What do you like to eat? Japanese restaurant or indo food?" tanyakanya.

"What is important is full" said I who is not too picky food, except that shrimp. If I want to eat it, I can go to the hospital.

"Okey, then we go to a Japanese restaurant" he said, pulling my arm tightly.

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