Bad Feelings
Restu Mother

Raindrops begin to fall, rain in December. Soak yourself up willingly standing in the cold rain and night wind. Stupid, why do you have to be that hard? Forget it. Don't torture yourself. What is my advantage until you are willing to do that?

###BadFeeling

Tonight I could not sleep, my eyes were reluctant to shut and my body just rolled to the right and left. The needle of the alarm clock on the table already leads to the number 12. At 12 pm exactly and the rain is still faithfully flushed and there is no intention to stop. My mind thought of him who was still faithfully standing there.

I go down the bed, I open the window, see if Jonathan has given up. He was still loyal there. His body was shivering. Seeing that, my feet immediately stepped out of the room, intending to approach him. But the unexpected by me. Mom stood at the door.

“You what are you? Back to your room now”.

“But ma'am, pity Jonathan”. I just can't bear to see him rain, especially now that he's shivering.

“It wasn't mom who told her to stand there. It's her own choice. Already, go back to your room. I want to know as hard as what his intention is to be your lover” said mother.

“Don't just be like that you've already collapsed. I know you like him but also test his loyalty and the sincerity of love. If he still survives until tomorrow morning it means he is strong. Already back in room” mom told me to go back to the room and inevitably I went back to the room.

I went to my window to make sure he was okay. He shivered in the cold and he did not give up, he stood still and had no intention of taking shelter. I chose to accompany him up here. Until it does not feel this eye closed by itself.

I fell asleep at the window pinghir last night and when I opened my eyes, I immediately remembered Jonathan outside. He's still standing there. Now there is no more rain. His face looks pale. I washed my face, I had to help her immediately, I had to tell her to just give up instead of hurting herself.

But when I was wiping my face with a towel, I heard a voice from outside, out of curiosity I looked out the window. Eva stands in front of Jonathan, telling him to go home.

“Just go home, mom won't let you guys be together. I've been thinking ahead, your relationship will not be possible” said Eva advising Jonathan.

“No... I'll never give up. I'll wait until I get my blessing

“You are so stubborn. Then, drink this first, before mom comes out” he said to pour her a glass of milk chocolate.

My cold sister, it turns out she has a sense of caring too. My lips are smiling. But the knock blew me away. The knock of the door was created once again. “Rya, today I have allowed you to take a holiday, so you do not need to leave home” said the mother from outside. Instantly I ran towards the door and grabbed the doorknob. It turns out that mom locked my room.

“Mother, please open the door”, I said heartily, hoping mom would open the door for me.

“Let's stay at home for today” says mom.

“Bu, please open the door” I knock on the door so that mom is willing to open it. But there was no answer from my mother. I went to my bedroom window again. I see Jonathan still standing there. But Eva was no longer there. I opened the door to my room, calling Jonathan.

"Joe.. Jojo" call. Jonathan's looking for the origin of my voice. "High up here" I cried again. He finally found me. He smiled, seeing his smile made this heart slit because of his heart-wrenching smile.

I nodded my head, not feeling my tears dripping down my cheeks when I saw it. He smiled and said, "don't cry". I nodded my head once more and wiped his tracks from both of my cheeks.

Suddenly someone came over to Jonathan, he looked at me. Mother. He looked at me with an angry look. From the look in his eyes I understood, he told me to close the window of the room. But I don't intend to close it back.

She took her eyes off me and looked back at Jonathan. "Until when do you plan on going like this?" ask the mother to the man who is almost dazed because last night he was flushed by the rain.

"Until aunty blesses our relationship" Jonathan replied.

Mom smiled cynically hearing the answer coming out of Jonatan's mouth. "Do what you want"

"Did aunty prefer to see a sister like this now? I promise, I will try to make Rya happy. My love is not fooling around. I have also been thinking about the future of our relationship. After getting the blessing of aunty, I will also ask for the blessing of both our parents. So please, let us... "

"I won't easily give my son's happiness to a child like you. Do as you please, it won't change my decision" said Mother then went back inside the house.

Jonathan suddenly sneezed, instantly making me worry more about him.

The sun is starting to rise above the head. After the rain now he must bask in the hot sun beyond the heat of the dry season. Gosh darn. God can you lower the clouds to protect them from the blazing sun. I saw Jonathan's body start sweating. The clothes that were originally wet have now started to dry and will be wet again by sweat.

Knock on my window door, so he can look at me. Jonathan responded, he turned his head. His pale lips and sweat began to flood. The face that usually looks radiant and cheerful now looks sour and gloomy. He smiles.

I looked at his black hasel that looked a little dim because it stayed up all night. I can't do anything. I wanted to run into her head, but I was imprisoned in this room and could not go anywhere. Not even escaping can. I'm on the second floor and there's no tools I can use to get down. Even if I could, I would prevent me and my brother from being locked in this room again, which is even worse, Jonathan's fate would be worse than this.

Now that the time has shown at 11 pm, I also went on a hunger strike to let my mother melt with our pleas. But still, until now, my mother has not approved of us. The rain came down again and soaked Jonathan's body which was quite weak and tired because he had been standing, sunbathing and now raining again. God, how much longer are you going to let this go.

His weak body was buffeted by the cold of the night wind and the torrent of rain. It was possible that he would soon fall down, his body had already begun to stagger, his consciousness had already begun to decline. Asta ga, God please strengthen Jonathan and melt mother's heart.

Not feeling the morning sun came, Mother opened my room door. "Come out, meet him" said the mother. Instantly I ran out of my room heading out without thinking a second time, meeting Jonathan. When I opened the door I found Jonathan's body still standing there. Unknowingly my lips covered a happy smile. Yes, I respect our relationship. Finally, Jonathan's struggle was sweet. Jonathan's body collapsed instantly when I saw him coming out and soon I was squandering his head into catching his weak body. My tears broke, Jonathan's fingers touched my cheeks and I felt him helping me wipe my tears.

"We succeeded" he said. My head nodded and smiled with cries drenching my eyes. I wiped his face, honey. His body was feverish and shivering, I hugged his body tightly, though we were sitting on the grass. His pale face smiled happily.

Thank God and thank you mom for allowing us to have this relationship.

####BadFeeling