Bad Feelings
Our Love

The morning sun shone kindly, greeting me who was now in front of the room window. I said his friendly smile. One of God's wonderful creations. The giver of happiness when his light overcomes the darkness of the night.

A sound made my daydreams diverted. “Kak, told mom breakfast” exclaimed Eva from outside my room door.

“Leave first, I haven't taken a shower. I go in the afternoon, lazy shower” reply me from the inside. I was reluctant to move, let alone the warm welcome of the sun like this. I want to linger enjoying the warm morning, because I rarely feel it.

“Serah”. From his tone he looks indifferent and stupid with me, yes that's how he is. My second sister is ice cold. But behind his cold demeanor was a warmth hidden within.

I breathed in the scent of grass that rained last night. The aroma is soothing, especially accompanied by the whistling of a bird perched on a mango tree. This morning was really friendly. I don't think I want to go anywhere. My phone reads. I took the phone lying on the nightstand near the window not to make me move when I took it. I saw a message coming in. Jonathan. The bully boy of my life who is now officially my girlfriend. Wait, don't let anyone else know about our relationship. Because we kept it a secret from others.

I read the contents of the message, “good morning my shinning heart. God bless you” even though it looks cool but had made my lips curl up to form a smile and say 'God bless you too'. I didn't reply to the message, because I didn't like to respond to her romantic words, or rather I was confused as to what to reply.

Again my door was knocked. This time it's not Eva but mom. He said goodbye to me before he went to drive my youngest brother's school and went to work. “Rya” called mom instantly made me move from the front of the window to the door. I opened the door to my room and I saw my beautiful mother in front of her.

“This you, still haven't had a shower too” mom poked my nose with her index finger. I just smiled showing my teeth. “Mothers leave first, don't forget breakfast. I've prepared it on the dining table. Hunting bath, do not be lazy, arentar your fortune pegged ayam” said mother advised me.

I hug my mother, baby. “Yes my dear mother, careful mother on the road” I kissed mother's hand before she left me.

After my mother's departure, I rushed to take a shower. Because my breakfast is not good if it gets cold. Finish the shower and get yourself cleaned up. My feet are coming down the stairs. The house is now uninhabited, I live alone.

My feet stepped into the kitchen, but a doorbell stopped me and made me turn towards the exit, to see who the guests who came to visit in the morning were like now.

When I opened the door, the person standing in front of the door smiled at me and then dashed my head. Jonathan did. “I miss big brother” he said.

I, who was shocked at his attitude, now returned his hug and patted his arm slowly. So that he's willing to let go of his tight hug from my neck. I had a little trouble breathing because it was too tight. Jonathan took his hug off me. “What is mother brother or sister brother at home?“ my eyebrows clutched at the question that was thrown from his mouth. I shook my head to answer her question. And instantly the beautiful arch of Jonathan's lips was created. It's like winning a million dollar game.

"Can I go in brother's house?" he asked again, there was a hidden meaning from the gaze of his eyes.

My lips put on a smile for her. Maybe this will be the first time she visits her boyfriend's house. "What are you thinking now? Entering my house where no one is home?“ godaku. I understand what's in his brain right now. All the usual perverted things he thought of.

He smiled in embarrassment because his mind was guessed by me. You perverted brat.

"I'll let you into the house just for breakfast, if you want anything else, forget it and leave" I said.

He nodded in agreement. I know he will obey my words. I was also able to control his perverted actions. He appreciates his lover, so he will not do things that will damage his lover.

We entered the house, and happiness was clearly visible on his face. His hand kept holding my hand. Maybe this time we can be called a couple who are again kasmaran. He touched my nose with his index finger. "We look like newlyweds, both at home like this"

I took Jonathan straight to the kitchen, where mom had prepared breakfast for me. "Sit down for a while" I told him to wait for a while as I picked up the plate for him.

"Sister who cooks?“ jonathan asked when he saw the dish on the table, sitting on one of the chairs, likening himself.

“Not, mother who cooks" I said take the dishes and cutlery on the shelf.

"Other times brother cooks for me huh?“ her door. Oh my God, this spoiled attitude is beginning to be expelled by him again.

“Okey" I said, who was sitting next to him. I took breakfast and put it on the plate I had taken, then poured it in front of Jonathan.

Jonathan smiled, thanking me. "Let me lead the meal prayer" Jonathan chanted, making me smile at his chirping.

I nodded my head in agreement with his proposal. He stretched out his hand to me while I was closing my hands. "We pray like this" he removed the folds of my hand and took one of my palms, grasping it tightly.

I let him do his will. "Lord Jesus thank you for the physical blessing you have given us. Thank you to sister Rya who prepared our breakfast and did not forget we thank you very much for such a rare opportunity, breakfast in the house. May the Lord bless our food so that our food may be a strength in us. Thank you Lord Jesus, we leave our prayers into the hands of Your power, hallluya amen" Jonathan ended his prayer but the grasp of our hands has not yet been released.

"Take off, how do I eat my breakfast, if you keep holding my hand like this?“ I held my hand that was still held tightly.

"Just wear the next one, leave it like this" he said again with a smile on his face this time.

"Alright“ I gave up and followed his wishes. When I have trouble taking my food. Jonathan will bribe me. Let us enjoy this rare moment of togetherness.

I didn't want to end this moment, I also felt happiness when we finished our breakfast. A warm grip, a small touch, a happy smile become the spice in our breakfast.

After breakfast, I decided to clean up the mess we both made. I took the cutlery we used back to the sink and washed it there. A hand suddenly hugged me from behind as I was washing dirty dishes. "My future wife" he whispered right next to my ear.

"What are you doing, let go. Don't bother me, I have to finish this first, then we can go to college" I said trying to get rid of Jonathan's head that was perched on my shoulder and his cheek stuck to my neck. It makes me a little uncomfortable. Because there was a strange feeling tickling my stomach and instantly gave me goosebumps.

"So continue, I'm not interrupting. I just want to be like this. Hugging my lover, my future wife, the future mother of my children"

"Don't fantasize, who wants to be your wife and even the mother of your children? I don't want to" I said when the last plate was finished I rinsed and put it in the dryer.

"Ooo..." At once Jonatan turned my body towards him. My eyes were puffed up as Jonathan did just that. Our eyes meet, "really big sister is not willing to be my wife or be the future mother of my children later?“ jonathan looked at me seriously.

I nodded my head intending to test his patience. Jonathan sighed, he didn't stop thinking about my response. "Alright, I will force my sister to be my wife then" he said. Instantly gave me a kiss, as usual he kissed me forcibly. "Still not want?“ tanyakanya. I shook my head and Jonathan gave me another kiss.

"You or not?“ ask again.

"Jawab first, I just stopped" he said on the sidelines of his attack on me.

I pushed her body away from me. "okay... Okey... I surrender" I said, unable to resist Jonathan's kiss on me.

"Ah... So cute" he kissed the nose for a while then turned to the lips and you since when I took part in this kiss.

After finishing our house, we went to college. On the way to campus. Jonathan forced me to hug him from behind by pulling both of my hands around his body, using one of his hands. Why do you make me like a kid. My cheeks flushed to my ears because of Jonathan's behavior.

When we arrived at the college. I'll be right down when Jonathan's bike stops. I don't want to be a spectacle anymore. I wanted to get away from him immediately, run away anywhere but an unlucky hand stopped my intention and told me to stay waiting for him.

"Where are you going? We entered together" he said. My lips covered forced smiles. Why don't you let me go?

"Sir Jojo" call someone. Jonathan turned to his side and found Olive, the younger brother standing beside his motorcycle. He looked at us both in shock.

"Olive" said Jonathan aware of the whereabouts of the younger brother.

"You guys?“ both of Olive's eyebrows rose upwards, she tried to guess our relationship and it seemed like we were caught off guard by her.

My eyes were wide open, I did not want this relationship to be known to others, why should it be discovered so soon, especially by his sister. I tried to let go of my hand, Jonathan who understood my anxiety instead of letting me go but still tightened his grip on me.

"You agree, don't you, Live?“ the question was relaxed, as if the sister agreed to all her opinions.

"If I don't agree, does it have any effect on my brother?" said Olive who understands the feelings of her brother.

Jonathan smiled in response. Olive looked at me. "Aren't these playboys easy? Are you sure you want to spend all your time on him?" Olive asked.

My lips smiled at her, because she didn't really care about our relationship. "I don't really want to accept him either, but because I feel sorry that he's single and unkempt.." I rolled my eyes at him. Wanted to see her annoyed expression. Oh, my God, this is so funny.

Jonathan's lips curled up instantly, his cheeks bloated and his chest rose and fell in annoyance. "Jomblo is not managed? Whoa... Rya's sister.." she didn't accept. Olive and I laughed at him. "I have something to take care of" he said.

"Yes, take care of your mom's mom, right? Thank goodness someone wants to take care of you know kak?“ olive said again teasing her sister.

Obviously this is very funny, let alone seeing the annoyed expression of Jonathan who does not accept being single by the two of us.

"I'm upset, I punish brother" he said immediately making me round in shock. Moreover, the sudden kiss that he did in front of his sister, made this teenage girl squeal for a moment.

After doing that. I hit this shameless boy. He complained of pain. "You are, this is a public place, and Olive is here too, just to do it"

"Who told my sister and Olive to piss me off, if I was upset I would do that. Let's make me angry again if you dare"

"No one's looking for a chance at narrowness." said Olive.

This time my face must be like a boiled crab in front of Olive. Obviously embarrassed, yes. My brother kissed me in front of both eyes. God, am I bad for this kid?

“Already brother Rya, do not take care of this mode handyman anymore. Mending us to eat" Olive pulled my arm and asked me to leave Jonathan.

"Liv, where are you taking my girlfriend?“ exclaim Jonathan.

"Go away from your kayak mode handyman. Don't look at Rya's sister, she's been wandering around" Olive advised me.

I followed Olive's words and ignored Jonathan's whining behind us. "Liv, you're not mad if me and Jojo..."

Olive smiled at me, she realized my disenchantment. "Don't worry I'm not so dizzy, brother Jojo wants to go out with who, who I'm afraid is his girlfriend. Jojo's brother is a modeller, he also likes to be curious about many things. So as her boyfriend, sister Rya kudu should be extra careful of her" Olive warned me.

I smiled in response, "if that is the case I understand. Thank you for accepting me" I said sincerely. I finally got to calm down in front of Olive.

"I should be grateful to Rya, to take care of Jojo's brother. Otherwise, he can bother me continuously" I said.

"Who is bothering who?“ jonathan thrust his arm at both of us.

"Sister, treat me to eat? Think taxes are okay? Yuk sis" Olive again pulled my arm and went away from her brother who was flabbergasted by her words.

Now Olive took me to the cafe. Invite me to sit at one of the tables, then call the waiter. "Hey, kid. Why kidnap my girlfriend?“ jonathan stood beside our table.

“Is... Possessive" timpal Olive looked at the menu list in her hand.

Jonathan sat beside me. "Don't order a lot, a little you're getting fat" led Jonathan to Olive. While the ones that are mocked do not take a headache. Staring at the two of them fighting like cats and dogs. "What do you eat?“

“Then we finished breakfast. Order a drink"

"It's okay if the big brother is fat, cuddly" he said while practicing his words. He hugged me in public and in front of Olive.

"Stop to your messes" exclaimed Olive couldn't bear to see us.