Bad Feelings
Can I

I've been dating Jojo for a month. No one knew we were dating. Because people–people who see us, will only think we are like sisters who are so familiar like siblings. As a result of brother's call from Jojo, so my status was saved. I also avoid a lot of physical contact if we are around other people. During this one month, Jojo always drove and picked me up for work, accompanied me to college if he didn't go to college and when he left for college he would pick me up, too, unless he had a morning lecture.

Although it was a little troublesome because he always followed me, but like medicine he always needed his presence to be near me. Whether by habit or by what, we always want to be together. Damn, I'm addicted to his presence. Like now, he's in the morning. I miss her smiling figure greeting me at my doorstep. Fortunately, every time Jojo came home, my parents had already left for work, and by the time I got home from work my parents were asleep. So I was saved from the question, 'Who's the kid?' from the house. Oh yeah, I'm three brothers my first sister is now in high school she's a naughty girl but her own bad sister I never considered her someone else. Although we both often quarrel just because of trivial problems. And my second brother, the most bontot who managed to exceed the king's daughter is still in the 5th grade Elementary School. This is the reason why I'm just in college now. I have to work and help send them both. It is clear that I only have single parents. A powerful mother who can support her three children. I Love you Mom's.

Today I went to college on an angkot, because Jojo said he had a morning lecture and he said he would take me to work later. While on the bus, my phone shook, I thought there was a WA from Jojo when I opened the notification, there was an unfamiliar number coming in. He gave me a message that read, "Still ready with my invitation? When did you keep your promise?" I read that sentence many times. Good thing he sent me a message through WA so I could see the profile picture of the owner when I got his number. Intern Lecturer, Nick. My eyes were round recognizing the man in sporty clothes, relaxed and did not see him as a lecturer. My mouth was a little gaping in disbelief seeing the aura of good looks of this lecturer overflowing.

I like men in sporty dress styles, they will look good if they wear them. There will automatically be added value for those who dress sportily neatly in front of me. As of now, I like this guy. Oh God, what am I thinking now, I already have a boyfriend. I'll write him a reply, "Oh you're Nick. Okay, when?"

Not long after the message came in. "How about 9 o'clock, you have a lecture?"

I thought for a moment. "Eum...no, where are you going?" my reply. Stupidly I don't think about Jojo's schedule.

"Meet in the canteen in front of campus. I also want to talk to you about something" he replied.

"Ok, okay. At 9 we meet in the front cafeteria of the campus" I replied. Done sending a message. Another message came in and now it's from Jojo.

"Let's accompany me to breakfast at 10 am I wait in the front cafeteria of the campus" Jojo said. My eyes glared, not usually he would take me to breakfast together.

"We meet in the pavilion usually. I'll bring you breakfast later" I reply.

My feelings are a little guilty, can I be called being having an affair right now? I guess not. I didn't have any relationship with that intern. Just accompany her to eat and keep my promise. That teacher couldn't possibly like me anyway, right?

The short needle of my watch was already pointing towards the numbers nine and twelve. I also sat down at one of the cafeteria tables in front of the campus and enjoyed my drink. I choose to do my duty rather than be silent like a fool. I took out the binder and the ballpoint pen, then started taking notes and summarizing from yesterday's copy material, the English grammar course.

"Have you waited a long time?" said someone who had just walked up to my desk, then took a seat in front of me. My eyes looked up and saw the figure of the man I often see in Korean dramas. The man in the sky blue shirt suit, in the white suit and the cloth pants are in line with the color of his suit. While the man smiled reflecting the rays of the sun that today shines quite friendly. The glasses hanging from his nose make him look like a smart man even though in fact, it is true that he is smart. Especially considering his work now who became a lecturer.

"Ah, no. I just ordered. You order it first" I said, letting her go to the cashier's table to order her food.

After a while he came back again. "I'm not interrupting your schedule, am I?" tanya feels a little bad by taking me to breakfast right now.

"Oh, is anyone waiting for you?" said it.

My head immediately lifted and looked at him. Though originally still struggling with the sheets in front of me. "Oh, yes. There are tasks that I have to collect to the lecturer" I reasoned.

"Ah, professor? Not a girlfriend or Jonathan?" he said that instantly made my neck choked. I drank and sipped slowly. Nick's food came, a little relief I didn't need to explain to him. "What is your relationship with Jonathan?"

"He was my acquaintance at my former place of work" I said quickly. Because this is the answer I can think of now.

"You're not eating?" ask Nick who is ready to eat breakfast in the morning.

"I finished my sandwich earlier"

Nick nodded, eating his food slowly. "The reason I asked you to meet is to ask for your help. In the next three months I will be officially appointed as a permanent lecturer at this campus. And maybe there will be a lot of work. So I'm gonna need a teaching assistant later, you want to give it a try?" he said he explained what he meant to meet me.

"I? Early semester student? So a teaching assistant? But I never learned about psychology, how I could be an assistant lecturer and again, I'm not so smart. I think you'll be troubled later" said I'm not confident in his offer.

"I chose you because I know and understand you. Even though I just knew you, I know you're a great girl, smart and hardworking. So I want you to be my assistant later. Take it easy, I'll give you a salary, won't that be enough?" he said that a little made me tempted by his offer. Money, that's what I need now.

"Wage? Eum..I'll think about it later" said I who could not give an answer at that time, because indeed I had to greatly consider a good offer from him.

"Just calm down, there's still three months. Think about it first" he said as he finished his meal.

I smiled at her, returning her advice. Should I accept it and get extra funding for my tuition and with consequences will meet Jojo more often in his class. Do I need to ask her opinion first to accept this offer or not?

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