Bad Feelings
Made up

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Jojo's gentle kiss ended both of us. The two pairs of chocolate beads we met. My heart was beating fast enough at this moment, my head was like being showered with thousands of fireworks that instantly shut down my normal nervous system.

Jojo's sweet lips pulled a beautiful arch that was able to make me hypnotized unblink watching it, even my eyes now only look at the beautiful curved lips in front of my eyes. The lips that just stuck to my lips.

Jojo fingers stroked my beautiful mane that slightly covered my face, tidied it up and made my heart jump more and more excited. My eyes blinked and realized that the boy was in front of me, smiling after kissing me. Wrongfully. Actually after we kissed, because I was a little part of the activity just now.

"Now we're dating?" jojo said, shaking off the silence between the two of us. Stupidly I was, I was like a young boy who had just fallen in love for the first time who made my face heat up red because it held my own shame. Sucks.

Kissing in public with an 18-year-old boy at my age who, you know, forget it. God, why did you find me with this boy? Why should I know him and make him like me and now my heart and mind are adrift for him? Would it be wrong for me to agree to the question this time?

I turned my head away from her gaze that was so intense that it seemed to drown me alive in the ocean of her love. "I'm hungry, you said you wanted to practice eating" my protest wanted to put an end to this awkwardness.

Although my vision went around erratically, but I was able to see that he was now smiling looking at the wrong behavior in front of him. He must have understood that I would not have been able to answer his words because now I feel really ashamed. Most importantly for him, his wish had been granted for a while. "Let's go" he said, pulling my hand and clasping my finger tightly, taking me somewhere.

Although my brain felt a little unwilling but my heart betrayed to let it go. I stared at our fingers that were linked to each other. "I'm happy at last, brother.aa.you and I are dating" Jojo confirmed his call to me. Still this heart is a betrayal of my senses.

"You better keep calling me big brother in this campus environment" said I who finally managed to beat my stupid brain.

"No, now we're dating. I don't want to call you brother. I'll call you brother if we meet your parents, until one day you tell me to call you my wife" she said proudly.

My eyes widened to hear his words that had been too far dreaming to call me his wife. My throat felt dry, choked until I painstakingly swallowed my own saliva before answering his statement to me. "Why are you thinking too far? I'm not sure your feelings will go that far with me. I'll follow your will until you get tired of me and finally give up and let me go, and go with your happiness later" my words seemed to really make me like an expensive doll that ended up being ignored and left behind after the owner found a doll that was more beautiful than me. It seems like I have to pity myself why act like this for the sake of the boy's happiness?

"I'll prove my feelings never wrong for you" Jojo said with a serious look in his eyes to convince me that he would never let me go, whatever the reason.

I put a thin smile on her, because I am not an optimistic girl who is sure of the love of different ages that are adrift quite far. "So call me brother, okay? Or we're breaking up right now" I threatened him.

It's ruining my head, baby. "Yes.iya brother bauble" he said according to.

After inviting me to eat everything to his alay that makes us seen by all residents of the cafe. Then Jonathan told me to wait for him until he finished college at the library. I should have been in college but the lecturer suddenly contacted the class president and said that he was unable to attend and could not teach. So here I am, waiting for Jonathan and completing the paper assignments that I have to do while waiting for my part-time work time at the cafe located not far from my campus, arrived.

"No college?" someone who was just sitting next to me whispered softly to me. I turned my head, my eyes widened, noticing the existence of the handsome good-natured apprentice lecturer. I smiled and shook my head at him.

"What did you write?" ask again.

"Task, find a source for the paper" I said.

He smiled in response to me. "That's crain. Good, continue. I also need some reference sources to teach" he said as he opened the book that had piled up in front of him. I put on a big smile. Although actually me and he are not so far old, but because he is a lecturer, I have to respect and respect him more.

I don't know why I'm a little curious about this intern. "If you may know, Mr. Nick..."

"Just call Nick" he said while still focusing on his work. This bespectacled man was dazzling if serious like this. He looks like Jojo. Shit, my brain's back to being stupid. Ah, true. He and I are now officially dating. What's wrong with me thinking about my own boyfriend? Stupid me.

"Well.yes, Nick. What department are you teaching in?" tanyaku. Who knows, we can be friends. Not enough to be friends with the lecturer, who knows can help about other lecturers or get an offer as a lecturer assistant is not enough to earn.

"Psychologist" he answered.

"Psychologist?" my cry is unstoppable. Looking around and everyone was a little distracted by me, I felt guilty and apologized. "So" why everyone I know goes to the same department. Will something happen that I didn't expect.

"Why? Is there anyone you know? Do you have a sister in the same department or a boyfriend?" he said that suddenly focusing on me left his note.

"Ah..kidn't exist" elakku who then choose the focus of taking notes again. And so, our chat stopped, he also refocused on his notes. I better not get too close to him. My initial positive thoughts instantly disappeared when I found out he was teaching at the Faculty of Psychology, the same faculty Jonathan took. Gosh darn. If he finds out I'm trying to get along with one of his lecturers he'll look for trouble and tell me to stay away from that lecturer.

Why do I have to meet people who are both in the psychology department? Ah... Yes, it is enjoyed, the rainbow of life that God has created in my life. Someone once said to me, be sick, be sad, be hard, be happy, be happy, whatever you feel. Enjoy it because it will all pass by itself. The wheel of life is always turning.

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