Bad Feelings
Embarrassments

I shouldn't have known her if I had finally started falling in love with her. This 18-year-old man made me feel like a woman. During my 27 years, people considered me a mighty woman and all the men I knew always thought of me as a man just like them. Even the man I admired was afraid of me, when I did nothing to him. He felt, I was always surrounded by men so he did not dare to approach me. The reason is, she was afraid that one of my friends would put my heart to me and do something bad to her behind my back. They just think I'm a woman. Shitty right?

Jonathan, this boy who just graduated from High School blatantly approached me in front of a lot of people. Even using all the abilities of his High School boy to get me hooked. For example, always praising my appearance, criticizing what I do, doing more skin-ship than my friend does, even he dares to do things I never expected before. Hugged me from behind. It was the first experience that left me with a heart attack for a moment.

The face of him who is classified as young can actually easily make young girls his age fall in love with him. I don't know why this boy likes to play games with me and thinks I'm a woman his age. I always thought of him as the boy I should avoid because I didn't want to fall in love with a child. You can imagine my age and his age is 9 years.

One day, I had to do a job that made me have to lift some books. I'm a librarian who always loves books. Getting rid of those books from the library is really sad. But how else is my library so full of new books and books coming constantly. And because of that, the old book was weeded and put in cardboard and brought it outside the island to be donated.

Damn my friends men no one is willing to help lift these heavy boxes, I have to alone lift it and raise it to the box car in front of the building. I've had a few books to lift to the back of the box. I saw the boy standing with his friends chatting not far from the box car where the cardboard was sitting temporarily. Ignore it, I couldn't possibly ask for her help. I would have been scolded by his mother, if she had known I was using her child.

I chose to take some more cardboard boxes in the library near the box car. After all the cardboard was behind the box car, I looked for a small staircase that is usually used to climb the podium, which is only 5 to 6 steps and is made of wooden board. After finding and placing it under the back door of the box that was already open, I immediately picked up the cardboard and brought it up.

The boy was still faithfully chatting there, no desire or intention to help me, damn it. I expected him to offer to help me. Yes, after all, only 20 boxes, it is nothing than having to lift 25kg LPG many times, it is still mending. I finished 10 boxes and there are 10 more.

Scroll my watch, 12. When I come back, damn it, I have to finish all this quickly. After that I can be free from this job and enjoy my free day. Because I was too excited and in a hurry, I was careless to climb the small stairs. I don't know why the stairs that were mediocre became swaying and a little shrewd and made me lose balance. Damn I fell, fortunately I fell on the boxes of books. Although it still hurts, but it does not make me have to feel the hard and sharp brick floor.

"Auw. "I cried when my butt smashed into some cardboard that made them fall and hit each other. Damn it myself.

"Not papa?" someone approached me. I saw from his long legs wearing black cloth trousers and blue sneakers, rose to see the clothes he wore white polo shirts and ended up seeing a face that was familiar to me. The boy with white eyes and his spiky hairstyle.

I nodded my head in agreement with her words, though now my ass is numb. I tried to stand up but a hand stuck out for me. I looked at the owner, I didn't reach him, instead he pulled me up to stand up. "Thank's" I said as I slightly showed a smile on my ringing withstanding the pain.

"Why not ask a guy to lift this cardboard? Sister right girl time must lift the cardboard alone?" snapped at me.

I was yelled at by him, on what basis did he scold me? What right does he have to yell at me like that? Even though it was actually worrying about me. But at least don't snap at me in public. I put my smile on him, he said the emotional person will subside if we show our smile to the person, right?

"It's my job, they have other jobs. Lagi lift this is not a kog problem" said I reasoned.

"Keep the one that just fell is no problem?" my lips were tightly clenched hearing his one hundred percent right speech. "Wait here" he told me to stand next to the box car, then helped me put some cardboard in the car.

Finished putting it in I saw him sweat. I was about to approach her, but my legs were not able to walk properly due to my fall earlier. "Have you? It's time for my brother to go home, right? Can you go home by yourself?"

I nodded my head, "thank you yes, Jo" he smiled then turned away from me. I grimaced with my pain, damn why it hurts so much. I hold my waist. My right leg seems to be in trouble. I try to walk.

Someone was standing in front of me. I saw the blue shoes again, my head looked up to find that face, he sighed in annoyance. "If the pain says" he stretched out his hand to help me, without hesitation I welcomed his helping hand, grasping it tightly because I needed a crutch to help me walk because it hurt so much. It will be swollen or bruised.

"Sorry ngerepotin" somehow my words even made him wrap his hand on my shoulder and help me easier to walk which immediately made me hesitate.

"No, this is not bad. Rest for a while also healed" I refused gently. I don't want to be given a sure cure. Because I don't like taking medication.

When I entered the building I pushed her body a little bit away, I didn't want anyone to misunderstand me seeing us like this. "I went in alone" I said slowly hoping not to hurt his feelings.

"Silver it can not walk, do not need to be a strong push" he snapped while tightening his grip on my shoulder.

"But... "

He cut my words. "Had, don't care about anyone else, care about yourself brother. If brother why-why am I also difficult" he said. Although the tone of the words that had just come out of his mouth sounded sniffy but there was a sense of worry in it.

"Hm?" my eyebrows raised up to hear his words that were a little difficult for me to understand.

"Had, don't ask too many questions" he was like covering something up from me.

We walked into the building, some people looking at us. Of course, our position really caught our attention. "Jo, I walk alone, yes, not nice to see many people" said I sungkan. I don't want any weird rumors about the two of us.

"Sister this is strange, justin aja they menggeliatin, which is important brother can be fine perbus" he said without caring about others. He never cared about others' views of him. If he feels that what he is doing is right, he does not need the opinion of others.

Our distance so close made me misbehave myself. Especially the view of the person who embarrassed me. I just don't want any weird rumors about me and this kid. After all, there is no relationship with him only as a friend.

I felt something bad that was going to happen after this. I'm sure something will happen. We got in front of the perpus. Kurogoh pocketed my pants and took the library key. Jojo removed his left hand from my shoulder to my waist. Instantly I who was about to put the key into the keyhole was aghast because of his actions. My head turned towards him, hoping that he would put his hand away, but he did not budge in the least.

"The hunt is opened, so you can rest first" he said without sin. Did he unknowingly touch someone's body without permission.

"Jojo" the heavy voice of the middle-aged woman called out to the boy beside me. He looks. My head followed the origin of the sound. "What are you doing?" tanyakanya.

"Mama" Jonathan said as he got to know the owner of the voice.

My eyes glanced at him, as soon as I pushed Jojo's body away from me and tried my hardest to stand with my legs still in pain. Good thing Jojo didn't protest I pushed him away from me. It is better to avoid such a situation. I should disappear, if I could.

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