Bad Feelings
I can't stop

College came in that morning was excruciating, especially last night I had to deal with my work until I had to go home at eleven in the evening. And this time I have to be sleepy in the classroom with a boring lesson, inevitably I have to attend because the SKS value is three. If I have to repeat this course can runyam, surely the payment is more expensive.

The long and numerous notes, the swirling explanations made me dizzy. Moreover, my poor stomach is not filled with breakfast. Going out of class feels like fainting. "You okay?" ask someone to me. My head looked up to find a familiar figure to me, the apprentice lecturer who had a charming sweet smile.

"Oh, yes, no papa kog" my eyes were actually twitching but seeing that man made me a little aware of the existence of God's creature that I needed to enjoy its beauty.

"Hungry huh? Nih" he shoved me a plastic parcel filled with bread. Then smiled at me after I received the package and then it just passed.

This guy really, makes me wonder why he's so nice to me? Or is his attitude good to everyone? Ignore it, he may be a good man, thank goodness my stomach was saved with the bread he gave. I have to attend another course after this, so there's no time to go to the cafeteria. "Lord thank you, for sending me a good man, amen" I prayed briefly in my heart.

My feet back down the hallway of the campus building while enjoying the bread given by the apprentice lecturer earlier, to the classroom hours of my next course. I didn't just walk alone because there were some of my classmates who were also walking beside me. But someone showed up and blocked my footsteps. "Aren't there still college?"

I took a deep breath after finishing that quick brown bun earlier, because the boy who appeared was the one I did not expect his whereabouts to appear near me now. "Of course, you yourself don't have any lectures?" I asked, even though I was lazy to ask him. But my conscience cannot ignore it.

"There, but later. Then, I went to college, huh? It must be exciting" he said as usual at will.

This kid is crazy. "No way, you don't have to be pretentious about taking a different course from you. Mending you learn gih in the perpus or play where the cake is" I refused raw.

"Yes, I play in his class brother" he said to kekeh with his stance. It seems like he wants to make me old fast with his behavior that always makes my emotions go up 180 degrees.

"Your sister is very spoiled, sister Rya" said the boy who stood not far from me.

"Udah taught sure, besides our lecturer will not know there is an intruder" Jojo grinned the horse had the support of my other friends.

"No papa sis, any brother sister cute. It's good to wash my eyes" whispered Nuri to my ears, a student who likes to spread the same charm of guys. "Haloo, know me Nuri Rya's classmate" he said as he thrust his hand.

Jojo greeted him kindly. "Jonathan"

"What would you rather call it?" tanya Nuri started to spread the charm.

"What aja. Brother Rya, let's go in the hunt later" he said immediately pulled my arm without permission and invited me to enter the classroom door which had also been entered by some of my college friends. He invited me to sit in the corner, but it was in the middle of the class. "Gee, big brother's friend too" he chanted as all the students came to meet the empty benches.

I just glanced lazily towards him. I took out my binder book and the bolpoint was ready for the next lecture. He pulled out his binder. "Sister Rya" he called me. I turned my head lazily towards him. "Brown sister teases"

My eyebrows are linked, digesting his words. My chocolate? Do I have chocolate? "What do you mean?"

"So, I look like a child, eating a cane of gini" he said while cleaning my lips which turned out to be chocolate with his fingers.

"Uwaaa..romantic.." cried Nuri instantly. My eyes that were originally round in shock instantly shifted my gaze and kept my distance from Jojo.

"Romantic huh?" sahut Jojo while sucking his thumb that was hit by chocolate just now.

"Uwaaa..are you sisters or lovers?" shouted Nuri enthusiastically. She is a girl who loves drama.

"What does it look like?" ask Jojo curiously.

"You are also suitable to be lovers" said Nuri without sin.

He was silent now, but his silence made me misbehave myself let alone having time to find him watching me. "What do you see?" askaku.

"Sister" he said.

"For what?" lazy hisisku. My eyes were trying to focus and take notes on the course today.

"Just want to"

"Look ahead" I said, elbowing his arm not far from me.

"For what, this lesson is not in my SKS" he said casually. While it's true that he didn't have to pay attention to today's lecture, he still couldn't pay attention to anything else that wasn't me.

I chose to ignore it and focus on following the lecture. And without notice, these two hours of college ended as well. I put my binder and my pen together, get ready to go. My main destination is definitely the restaurant. I have to fill my stomach with food or I can faint, especially if I have to face the boy who is now sticking to me like a stamp.

"Sister Rya, the brondongnya saucy" cried Nuri insinuating me. Several other students followed me. Praising his good looks Jojo, cool him, lucky I have him even some say, use what pellets until the brondong wants to be with me. God fucking.

Who uses pellets, I really have to miss this boy. "Sister, sister temen cool. Do you know if we're a couple"

"Who is a couple? We were? Since when?" I said protest does not accept.

"From now on. We're dating. Point" he said without thinking about my feelings that really do not want to be close or in a relationship with him. "To celebrate our anniversary, I'll treat you to lunch brother, yuk" she pulled my hand, holding him without permission.

"Wait a minute, I didn't say I agreed. Why do you always make things difficult for me?" I pulled my hand and tried hard to stop my footsteps.

"I'm not making it difficult for you, I'm just asking you out"

"You know our age is so far away..."

"It's really important? I never thought I would love someone older or younger than me, all I thought about was my heart and my feelings. If I liked someone I would follow that feeling, I just didn't want the feeling I felt I had to die without springing first. So, if you don't have a boyfriend yet, go out with me now"

"Basically, your mind is too simple. You never thought about what it would be like if your friend mocked you dating a aunt or you never thought about what if this was known to your parents. You'll be ashamed of yourself, and again...."

"Sister likes me?" tanyanya cut off my speech. I was silent not answering his words. "I asked you once again, you like me no?"

"It's not that I don't like you, it's you..." Jojo pulled me into his arms, which made me comfortable and did not want to get away from him. My cheapness?

"I don't care what other people think, even my parents, if you like me, that's enough for me. It was a major strength for me in the face of what was to come. All I need is a statement, brother likes me or not? If you like me, I will protect you and make you happy forever. Even if the whole world is against our relationship, I'll never let go of my brother's hand, unless my brother wants it"

For some reason his words moved me, his attitude like this was what I hated the most. She thinks of me as a weak woman who needs to be protected. "Why are you so stupid, Jo?" I said pushing his body slowly to look into his eyes. "What do you expect from a woman like me? I have nothing to be proud of even my age." a kiss I got. My eyes were round for a moment.

Before long he let go of his kiss, looking at me with a distance of only a few centi. "If you're talking about age again, I'll get you married right now" my lips fell silent, not even protesting. Until our lips meet, I let them. All I can do is close my eyes and enjoy the kiss. Shit, I'm afraid to say this. I think I'm really in love with her.

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